One, Two Losses:

" I'll be back tomorrow " Doe promised Remus.

He shook his head, " Take your time, I'll be fine"

They were standing in their living room.

Doe frowned at him. Tonight was the full moon, but tomorrow was Petunia's wedding and she had promised Lily that she would go with her, so they were staying in a little inn in the country. She felt horrible leaving Remus alone, but she had promised Lily she would go with her.

" Are you sure?" she asked him, her hands were placed on his shoulders holding him in front of her.

Remus nodded, " Sirius will be there, I will be fine".

" You promise me?" Doe asked, " I expect to find you in exactly the same condition I left you" she said wrapping her arms around his neck.

" I'll be even better" He promised.

Doe shook her head, " Impossible"

Remus rolled his eyes and leaned down to kiss her. She pulled him closer to her, deepening the kiss.

" Am I interrupting something?" Sirius asked with a grin as he apparated into the living room.

Doe let go of Remus, " Yes, you were actually"

" You have truly impeccable timing, Padfoot" Remus said sarcastically.

" Payback for all those years of you walking in on me, Moony" Sirius said plopping onto the couch.

" We shared a room, Sirius" Remus pointed out.

Sirius shrugged, " What did you expect me to do? Not bring girls back?" he said with a laugh.

" As thrilling as this conversation is" she said with a smile, " I'm going to go. Be careful tonight you too"

Remus nodded and she cast one last glance at them before apparating to Lily's house in Godric's Hollow.

Doe walked to her front door and knocked lightly.

James opened the door, " There you are, Meadowes, Come in"

Doe shook her head, " James what if I was a Death Eater?"

James grinned, " Well if you were one you wouldn't have just said that. I think you're spending too much time with Moody"

He opened the door open wider so that she could come in.

Doe followed him inside. James sat down in one of their squashy armchairs.

" Lily's upstairs, she'll be down in a minute" he told her.

Doe sat down on the couch opposite of him. She loved being in their house. It was so cozy. It's the type of house she would have loved to grow up in.

She noticed one of the framed pictures on the coffee table, nestled between a picture of Mr. & Mrs. Potter, and Lily with her parents, was one of James, Lily, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Marlene and Doe.

" I love this picture" Doe told him. It had been taken one of the days they were out on the grounds at Hogwarts.

" I love it too" James said smiling fondly at it, " it just screams family, you know?"

" So sentimental, Prongs" Doe said with a small smile.

James grinned again, " Well with friends like you guys"

" Yes, we do seem to have great friends, don't we?" Doe said.

" Considering we're the only people we can trust, I consider us lucky" James agreed.

She was about to tell him she agreed, when Lily came down the stairs, bag in hand.

" Okay, I am all ready" she said happily. She walked over to James and kissed him quickly.

" I will be back soon okay?" She told him.

James nodded, " Be careful, I love you Lily Potter" and kissed her forehead.

" I love you too, James" she said and pulled him to her closer.

Doe smiled at them. Lily and James loved each other so much. It was the kind of love that was written about in books and songs. It was simply wonderful to watch.

" You ready?" Lily asked.

Doe nodded quickly, " Yup"

Lily waved once more to James and they left her house. They were apparating to the train station. Lily had insisted on taking the train. She said it would only set Petunia off to arrive there in any magical way.

So they apparated to the train station, bought their tickets, and found seats in a small compartment of the muggle train.

The whole way there, all Doe could think about as she watched night fall through the window was the full moon. It made her anxious.

" You worried about Remus?" Lily asked.

She nodded sheepishly, " I'm always worried"

Lily smiled and wrapped an arm around her, " It'll be okay, he's with Sirius. He's fine"

" I know that" Doe said quickly, " Let's talk about something else though"

Lily looked at her with her large green eyes, obviously trying to read her.

" Are your parents excited that Petunia's getting married?" Doe asked her.

She sighed, " They are, but I don't think that they like Vernon very much"

" You can't blame them, I don't like Vermin Dursley either" she told her.

Lily laughed at their childish nickname for her future brother-in-law, " I know, it's just when my parents first met James, they adored him, so Petunia isn't happy that they don't love Vernon the same way"

" That's not your fault Lily" Doe told her, " Petunia can't fault you for being with someone your parents like"

Lily shrugged, " Knowing Petunia, she will"

The train sped closer to the little village where the wedding was taking place. Doe could see Lily getting more anxious, the closer the train got.

When it did stop, Lily and Doe got out and made our way to the little Inn that Petunia's guests were staying at.

" This is cute" Lily said as they opened the door to the little rose covered inn.

" Very" she said surprised.

When they walked into the lobby. Lily instantly spotted her parents and Petunia.

" Mom! Dad! Tuney!" She said running over to them. Lily's parents greeted her happily but Petunia's smile fell from her face when she saw Lily.

" What is she doing here?" Petunia demanded of her parents, " I didn't invite her"

" Well Petunia, we gave Lily the invitation, we thought you would want her here" Mrs. Evans said quickly.

" Well I don't" Petunia snapped.

" You didn't invite me?" Lily asked. Her face fell and she looked inexplicably hurt.

" No I didn't, I don't want you here" Petunia snapped, " You'll ruin the wedding with all of your nonsense!"

" No, Tuney, I won't I just want to celebrate with you" Lily implored.

" Well I don't want you here, and it's my wedding" Petunia said angrily.

" I'm your sister!" Lily said fiercely.

Petunia scoffed, " You are no sister of mine. You are a freak. Why don't you go home to your freak husband! I will not have you here ruining my special day" she shouted.

" Petunia!" Mr. Evans shouted.

Lily's eyes filled with tears and she tried to wipe them quickly.

" Fine, Petunia. I'll go" Lily said softly. Lily's parents tried to stop her but she just shook her head and walked back towards Doe.

Doe pulled Lily into a hug. She knew how much fighting with Petunia upset her. No matter how foul Petunia treated her, Lily loved her anyway.

" Are you okay, Lils?" Doe asked her.

She nodded and wiped away the last of her tears, " I'm just going to go home, I think. I miss James" and then she added, " we might as well apparate, who cares what Petunia thinks now"

" You sure you don't want me to go with you?" Doe asked her.

She nodded, " Yeah. Go home and get some sleep"

She hugged her one time, " I'm so sorry Lily, you don't need Petunia. You have me"

She smiled, " I love you, Doe. Thank you"

" Anytime" Doe told her and waved goodbye before disapparating home.

Doe dropped her bag on the floor of the living room, feeling very exhausted and drained. She felt bad for Lily. She couldn't imagine what it was like to fight with a sister like that.

Doe desperately wanted to go to bed. Between worrying about Remus at the cottage and making sure Lily wasn't too upset about what happened, She felt emotionally drained.

She opened the door to her bedroom, figuring she would change into her pajamas and go to bed, but she stopped dead in her tracks when she saw what was waiting for her.

It was Remus.

A fully formed werewolf Remus. Who looked up at her and stood on all four floors on the floor in front of her.

My mind was racing. What was he doing here? He was supposed to be at the cottage with Sirius.

She didn't dare move. She tried to slowly reach down into her boot for her wand, but the small movement seemed to provoke him, because he lunged forward knocking her down.

His snout was inches from her face growling and salivating.

She knew what she had to do but she didn't want too.

" I'm so sorry" she whispered and brought her knee up to his stomach. He yelped and left off of her for a second. She tried to get up and run but she felt him lunge forward again and felt him scrape his claws across her back.

She screamed.

She could feel where his claws had ripped the skin opened and crumpled to the floor. Her wand was several feet away and as the wolf began to corner her, she began to panic.

The door in the next bedroom shot open and Sirius rushed out.

" DOE!" he shouted and instantly phased into Padfoot. She watched him chase the wolf back into the room. The wolf seemed to listen to the dog. Sirius phased back quickly and closed her bedroom door.

" Doe," he said coming over to her quickly, " are you okay?"

" What the hell is he doing here, Sirius?" she asked.

Sirius sighed, " There were Death Eaters at the cottage, we didn't want to risk it. We thought you weren't coming home tonight"

" We were uninvited from the wedding" she said trying to get up.

The scrapes on her back were beginning to sting rather painfully. She bit her lip to keep from crying out.

" Shit" Sirius said seeing my ripped shirt, " We have to go to St. Mungos"

She shook her head furiously, " No, there's a bottle of cream in the bathroom, get it" she said slumping over the kitchen table.

" Are you sure?" Sirius asked, his expression suggesting he thought it was far too bad for home remedies.

She nodded, " Just trust me"

Sirius nodded quickly and went into the bathroom coming back out a moment later clutching the jar.

She tried to pull her shirt over her head but stopped, flinching at the pain.

" Siri? I need your help" she told him.

" What do you need?" Sirius asked.

" I can't get my shirt off, it hurts too badly. I need you to help me get it off" she told him.

Sirius stiffened, " Are you sure, Doe?"

" Yes, and hell you've taken off countless girls shirts" she told him, trying to smile lightly.

Sirius sighed, " Leave it to you to crack a joke now of all times".

He came behind her and gently pulled the shirt over her head.

" How bad is it?" she asked him quietly.

" You've got three deep on your upper back" Sirius said.

Doe flinched as the straps of my bra glided over one of them.

" Can you put the cream on them?" she asked Sirius.

Sirius nodded, " Yeah, of course"

He opened the bottle and put a generous amount of the creme on each of the scratches. Instantly they began to hurt her less.

She took a deep breath and opened her bag, pulling out a very loose fitting shirt and slipping it on carefully over her back.

" Are you sure you don't want to go to St. Mungos?" Sirius asked.

She nodded, "Positive"

Doe ran her hands through her hair and sighed, " He is going to be so upset tomorrow"

" Not with you" Sirius pointed out.

" But still" she said shaking my head, " he is going to be upset"

She sat down on the couch in the living room.

" Don't worry about that right now" Sirius said, " Just sleep a little and deal with it in the morning"

Doe laid down on the couch, " Wake me if he phases back" she told Sirius.

" I will" Sirius assured her and let her fall asleep on the couch.

When Doe woke up the next morning on the couch, She remembered everything that happened the night before. She got up quickly. Sirius was gone. He must have already left. She walked out of the living room and into the kitchen.

She almost gasped.

Remus was sitting in one of the kitchen chairs. He was fully dressed and he wore an expression of absolute loathing.

" How badly are you hurt?" he asked quietly.

" Not badly" she assured him.

He grimaced, " Do not downplay it, Doe. How much pain are you in?"

" None" she lied quickly, " Remus it wasn't that bad"

Remus shook his head, " Wasn't that bad? I attacked you. In our home. I could have killed you easily. Do you realize that if Sirius wasn't here, I probably would have?"

" Remus, It wasn't your fault" she told him, " you weren't supposed to be here, and neither was I"

Remus stood up quickly, " That doesn't make it any better! This is twice I've hurt you now in four years. You think it's okay that I treat you like a chew toy?" he said angrily.

" Remus" Doe said quickly and tried to move towards him. He stopped her.

" No, Doe. I won't do it. I can't let this go on. How long will it be before I kill you? Or bite you? I will not put you in danger anymore" he said.

Doe noticed he had a bag in his hand. A packed bag.

" Where are you going?" Doe demanded.

" I'm not good for you, Doe" He said quickly, " I hurt you. The people who love you shouldn't hurt you"

" Leaving will hurt me" She told him, " this is ridiculous Remus, it was an accident"

" Doe, I can't stay. I am dangerous. I've already hurt you, and I won't do it again" Remus said quickly. His face contorted into a mixture of pain and anger.

" Rem" Doe said softly, " I love you, I don't care what you are. You know that."

Remus shook his head, " But I care. I can't love you anymore. It's not fair. It's not right. I'm going to the cottage. I'm sorry for everything I've done to you, Doe. I won't be around to cause anymore damage" he said.

" Remus, no. Don't go" Doe begged.

He shook his head, " I have too. I'm not the one for you" and he cast one last glance at her before apparating. Leaving her alone in the kitchen.

She felt gutted. She wanted to cry.

All of the fights, all of the arguments Remus and Doe had had about his condition, and she never thought it would result in this.

She felt like a part of herself had just left.

She sat down on the floor and brought her knees to her chest, letting herself cry into her hands.