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Am I that awful (Naoki's POV)
That air-head! Why is she cheering up for Sudou? Doesn't she always declare her love for me? She is supposed to be cheering for me. Not Sudou. Not anyone. But me. Only me.
I can feel the rush of blood in my veins and the frown that's crossing my face every time I remember Matsumoto shouting that Kotoko wants Sodou to win. Damn that girl! Does she really think Sudou can beat me? She should have known by now that I can easily pulverize Sudou. She even rushes to him after the match! She should have been congratulating me! Why does she have to come running to the other guy? Why Kotoko?
My head is spinning. I should be gladder that she is not after me now. That she is aiming for someone else. But the thing is, it irritates me. Somehow, I don't want her looking to someone else. I want all her attention to me. I want her to see only me. That is why I ask Matsumoto out.
As I look at her after asking Matsumoto out, I see the exact confusion I feel when she was cheering for Sodou. With the knowledge that she is hurt, I feel satisfied that I inflict the same confusion she inflicts at me. With that, I smirk at her. But now, thinking about it makes me feel stupid and trapped. Being with Matsumoto every day makes her think that I am interested in her and with that date fiasco, she will practically glue herself to my side forever.
This was all Kotoko's fault. If she is did not going after Sudou, I will definitely not ask Matsumoto for a date. And now here I am, past midnight, wide awake and thinking of any excuse to tell Matsumoto to cancel the date. My brain cannot find the perfect excuse.
Exhausted, I stand up to go to the kitchen to get me some water. And that's when I see her.
There she was, her back to me. She was standing at the counter holding a glass of water with her head hanging low. She was looking at the glass of water like it will reveal some answer. Doesn't she have a night blindness? She doesn't even bother to open the lights. Baka.
"What are you doing here?" I asked. That did catch her off guard.l because she looks at me so fast but looks away as fast when the glass she's been holding almost fall out of her hands.
"I.. I was just getting a glass of water." She says. I eyed her cooly. Of course, it's obvious that she is getting water. But definitely, she is not drinking it.
I walk to the fridge to get me some water. In the corner of my eyes, I saw her downing her water so fast. As she finishes her drink, she hastily goes for the sink to clean the glass. Is that how much she does not want to be in my presence now? Does she really like that Sudou? She would willingly go to his side but will move so fast just to get away from me? I can feel my irritation and anger bubbling up. Yeah, I'm angry. I hate the way she is avoiding me but gladly to be on Sodou's side. This is unforgivable.
"I guess you are planning how to sabotage my date on Sunday" I breath. She stiffens but continues to wash her glass totally ignoring me in the process. That baka. Why is she ignoring me? She can't do that to me.
As she finishes washing her glass then she slowly walks towards me to put the glass back in the cupboard but still refuse to look me in the eye. She was retreating when I comment again.
"No reaction? Bet you are guilty." She stops. I was very angry and it's taking over me. Since the tennis practice, she is not talking to me. Is she and Sudou together now? Is that why she is not talking to me anymore? This can't happen.
"Don't worry Irie-kun. I won't follow you on your date" she said in a small voice. So small, I almost did not hear it.
"As if that is possible?" I huffed. But the truth is I'm starting to doubt myself. With the way, she is acting right now and her being dismissive of me makes me my heart clenched painfully.
She looks at me and I stiffen. She is crying! Even in the darkness of the kitchen I saw her tears streaming down her face.
"Don't worry Irie-kun. I love you enough to let you go and make you happy." She says.
I stiffen but I feel every emotion leaves my face. My heart is racing and my brain is going a thousand mile a minute. Did I just hear her correctly? Does she love me? Still, loves me? Letting me go? What does she mean by that? No no no! That can't happen. She is supposed to stay on my side. She is not supposed to leave me. She's mine.
I saw her run and that is when my brain shuts down and my body starts to act on its own.
I run after her.
With not much effort, I catch her on the foot of the stairs. Holding her left shoulder, I spun her around to face me. She lost her balance and she starts to fall. I catch her right shoulder to steady her. She is now looking at me with wide eyes. She stops crying now but her cheeks are still damp from tears.
"You are not letting me go. You are not allowed to let me go! You love me!" I hear myself say with full seriousness. Still shocked, she only can gape at me. " You hear me?" I asked and shook her a little. She nods but still unable to talk.
I gather her in my arms where she comes willingly. Slowly, her hands crept up on my back, hugging me back with same force. I feel relieved and all the tension seems to leave my body.
"Don't go." she said then hugging me tighter and burying her face in my chest. "Don't go to the date" With that, I finally feel at ease. I still have her heart. She still loves me.
"I won't"
The End
Well, that's it. Hahaha I just hope you enjoy this one. I know it's not the best but this is how I see myself with Naoki. Hehe
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