Letter for You

If you could see ghosts, what would you want to see the most?

For me, I just want to see my loved ones; my Dad, my Mum and…

Anna.

It was the first time I wanted to see her the most. I was very upset after so long. I had lost her to a car accident. The worse thing was that I was unable to see her soul.

'It's been two years already. My powers are limited to 4 years now.' Anna sighed, seemingly to have changed ever since her death.

Or maybe since she bore Hana…

I gulped, feeling guilty that I wasn't able to preserve her body so as I could revive her or else she would stay this way now. It was painful just leaving her like this, hovering around and not having a proper body to be in. There's only a big risk of her being like this.

She might dissipate into thin air.

I was worried how long she had to stay in her ghostly form. It does make one worry about what may happen to her. "Um… Anna, is it OK if you actually possess someone? I don't want you to stay like this." I asked worriedly as I spoke to an empty area again.

How sickening can it be when you're talking to a ghost but in fact you can't even see her?

It was really sickening. And I'm serious.

For a moment there, I thought she was gone as the room was really silent. Yet, I get the feeling she was glaring at me. I swallowed my saliva in slight fear in what she might do to me. "OK, never mind what I said." I mumbled, scratching my head as I smiled weakly. This was not the first time I felt helpless already. She was the one I love and yet, I could not do anything to save her from the incident.

I sat down, thinking through about what happened before as I sighed softly. I remembered that day again.

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As she was staring out the window, it made me curious but I shut my mouth in case she might start hitting me. However, she spoke instead when I was about to shut my mouth.

"Take care of my body when I'm gone." Anna glared at me; her eyes however showed me care and concern, as if telling me that Hana was also important if anything was to happen to her.

What was going on?

"Anna, what are you talking about?" I glanced at her, my heart squeezing as I spoke nervously, worrying about what she meant. She kept silent, seemingly to be crying as she stared out the window. "Hey, talk to me. I want to know, Anna. Please don't keep quiet."

"Just pay attention to the front…"

"Just tell me!"

"Yoh, WATCH OUT!"

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"Yoh?" I jumped, waking up from my dream. I was sweating as I sat up from my futon, feeling frightened by the recollection of the past. "Manda?" He was sitting beside me, looking really shocked and scared as he watched me. "I-I'm fine…" I smiled weakly; scratching my head as I slowly got up to fold my futon. "You're not… Anna's watching you too. She went out without a word." Manda gulped, looking nervously as he spoke.

She was staring at me when I was sleeping the whole time?

It was still dark and late as I just woke up at 2 in the morning. I walked out of my room, trying to find Anna. Then it hit me that I still couldn't see her. I sighed, seeing if there were any faintest movements made in the silent night. "Anna, are you there?" I asked, trying out my luck if she was around. 'I'm here.'

Anna's voice sounded duller than ever as if I was the last person she wanted to see. I could only said nothing and sat down on the edge of the floor; my feet almost touching the ground as I listened to the nature's music. "You're still there right, Anna?" I asked, smiling to myself as I looked at the sky; my both hands supporting my body.

She was still silent but I could feel that her presence was still there. "There's really nothing you could do about that accident that day. It was part of my fault too. Still, I'm glad you're here right now." I smiled, continued to stare at the sky as I spoke. The silence between us was still there but as I watched the sky, I felt a weight on my shoulder.

It was Anna, lying on my shoulder.

We continued to be quiet, knowing both of us had something to say but it was pointless as the incident had happened. I smiled, a feeling in my heart was warm yet endearing.

It was love, all over again.

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That night, Anna stayed up with me throughout the night. I was unable to sleep and we walked around the backyard as we held hands. We had all the time to ourselves; just to think back all the things we had gone through together before. I told her all the things that happened to her before we got together and even those days when she was still alive.

I even remembered I accidentally laughed at her because she didn't know how to fold clothes which seemed funny. But I ended up getting tortured by her just because I laughed at her.

She was my everything; a girl whom I loved the most. Until that incident had happened.

I remembered my days were dark and dull; I could not even remember what I did or even whom did I speak to. I only knew I kept myself locked up and unwilling to eat due to the appetite I had.

'Yoh's still upset…'

'He still has to eat something. He's not an immortal.'

'But…'

'YOH! Come out and have your dinner!'

I remembered Manda, Horo Horo, Ren and some others came to visit me after that incident. They were concerned. I slided the door and only told them, 'Sorry. I'm tired.' I smiled weakly but well, they were unwilling to let me off.

They had gave me a few punches, making me remembered my lesson well enough to be wide awake and face reality that Anna was gone.

"WHAT?! She's still around?" Horo Horo and Ren both yelled in shock as they left their mouth hanging after yelling. I could only chuckled as I scratched my head.

'Is that a problem?' Anna asked harshly, her tone ever so fierce and piercing. "No…No…" They both chuckled, looking fearful as they smiled weakly, seemingly to be looking at Anna's direction. I sighed, feeling sympathy for them. Anna was always that fearful towards my friends due to her intense glaring at people and also speaking harshly.

In other words, she's just plainly scary; even if she's a ghost.

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Tao Ren and Horo Horo went home straight after having dinner at our place. They were really terrified to stay at my house due to Anna's presence. It did frighten them badly after all. "Anna's presence must be a horror to them indeed…" Manda said nervously, trying not to provoke Anna's wrath. 'Does it scare you too?' Anna asked, trying to scare Manda.

"No, no, no! You don't scare me at all!" Manda shook his head vigorously, looking really frightened. Without me able to see her, I could guess what expression she shown to Manda. "Anna… Stop scaring all my friends, will you?" I sighed, continuing to speak to the air as I was still unable to see her. It's headache but well…

Everyone in house fell asleep, leaving me and Anna still wide awake. It felt like seconds were ticking away quickly, time slipping past us so fast which made me felt like I didn't want to lose Anna at all. I needed to see her once more, just once more. God was fooling around with me, not enabling me to see Anna was like torture to me.

After so much I had gone through with her, I only worry about losing her. Yet that incident just took her away from me and now she comes back again. Was this a prank He was trying to pull on me?

"Are you OK being like this?" I asked, looking at the floor as I sat in the room with her, staring at the moon as it shone so silvery and brightly in the sky. 'Not really.' She replied me without any emotion left in her voice to tell me how she felt. I smiled, knowing she lied even though there was no sign of her lying to me.

I knew she wanted to be in flesh and blood; to be able to feel the blood running through her veins. And most of all, letting me see her.

It was what she wanted the most, allowing me to see her once more in her body and letting me able to touch her face and look into her eyes. I knew she wanted all these; even if she didn't say a word, I knew how she felt deep in her heart.

Silent as it was in the night with her, I could feel her presence and her warm even though I could not touch her. "Anna, I'm glad you're my wife." I smiled to myself, sighing as I lay on the futon, closing my eyes. 'I'm glad you are my husband too.'

As the night goes on silently, we knew the disadvantages of being in different worlds. However, it was what we had gone through together that allowed this forbidden love of ours to keep on going strong.

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What do you think of this story? Too mushy? I think quite a bit. Well, the next story, I'm going to write how Anna's going to be seen once more! See what Yoh will do what it takes to see her once more! Stay tuned!