All too quickly Tony and Ziva's honeymoon came to an end. They had enjoyed a wonderful two weeks together in Italy, but all good things must come to an end. While both were eager to get back to their children and Tony was actually excited about returning to NCIS. Part of each just wanted to stay forever. To be able to spend each day in each others arms, celebrating, and enjoying life. Of course that is not how life works. Reality would set in soon for the couple, but they were strong enough to survive anything the universe threw at them. They had learned that much in the weeks following the explosion. That cost Tony his leg and very nearly took AJ's life.

The flight back to the states was nothing monumental. Ziva slept most of the time and Tony caught up on some business. Technically he was still on his honeymoon and breaking the no non essential business rule, but Ziva in a Dramamine coma was hardly romantic or a sacred memory. He had snapped a picture of her in her slumber but that was more for blackmail than memory saving. After the plane touched down they grabbed their carry on and hastily disboarded. After grabbing the rest of their luggage. They headed to the garage to get their car. The drive home was about as exciting as the flight. The only excitement of the evening was a note from Gibbs that he had taken the kids out to dinner and not to worry if they were not home. As desperate as he was to see his children, it was nice to not have to worry about dinner. Ziva was majorly jet-legged and ended up hearing up a cup of soup and taking it back to bed with her. Tony on the other hand found himself completely wired. He tossed a container of leftover chicken casserole in the microwave for himself and grabbed a bottle of apple juice from the freezer. With Ziva sleeping and the kids gone the house was dark and quiet, with only the soft buzz of the microwave to keep him company. He held the juice bottle tightly by the neck, the sky was dark, but not yet black. He looked at his watch and wondered where Gibbs was. His ears were still off from the flight and suddenly he could not hear the microwave. He looked up and the timer was counting down 10, 9, 8, 7... It had all come back to him. The night in the warehouse, he was shaking and the bottle fell from his hands, the microwave dinged and he heard AJ screaming.

"Shit!" Tony cried.

Tony's car was in the driveway when Gibbs returned with the children, but the porch light was off. He imagined that he couple was beyond exhausted from the flight, and was relieved that the nurse had suggested taking the kids out to eat. The less Tony and Ziva had to mess with that evening, the better. After getting Lily unbuckled, Jethro headed inside. Judging by the utter silence he assumed that the couple was already asleep. Marley grabbed her basketball from the closet and made a beeline for the backyard. While Lily began darting around the house to show off the stuffed frog she had won from the claw machine. AJ had been having a rough day and was screaming his head off as Barbra wheeled him into the house. From the kitchen he heard the sound of shattering glass. Suspecting Marley had broken a window, he rushed inside to clean up the mess before anybody got hurt. Instead he discovered Tony standing over a shattered bottle, apple juice rapidly spreading across the floor. Tony was pale and shaking like a leaf.

"Tony?" Gibbs called.

"Boss? When did you get here?" Tony asked.

"We just got in, Marley is playing basketball, Lily is probably off greeting Ziva, and Barbra is getting AJ settled in." Gibbs explained.

"Oh that's good." Tony replied.

"Should I get the glass?" Gibbs asked.

"Glass?" Tony questioned.

"You broke a bottle." Gibbs replied.

"Oh I guess I did. I must have zoned out. It's been a long day." Tony explained.

"No need to explain. I will clean up the mess. You just get some sleep." Gibbs replied.

"I had dinner in the microwave." Tony commented.

"Eat up and then get to sleep." Gibbs replied.

"How are the kids?" Tony asked.

"Lily's really missing you, Marley is doing a lot better, but AJ is having a rough day. No fever, seizures, or anything. Just a rough go." Gibbs explained.

"Alright" Tony replied.

"Come on Tony. Take your dinner and then get up to bed. Barbra clocks out a nine but I can stay over another night." Gibbs explained.

"Alright" Tony replied.

Ziva couldn't say that she was surprised when Lily came bounding into the bedroom. The four year old was waving around a neon pink stuffed frog and cheering her little heart out. As soon as Ziva was awake. The child was jumping on the bed and into her mother's arms.

"I won a froggy!" Lily cried.

"I see that. What's her name?" Ziva asked.

"Francine!" Lily cried.

"Francine the frog, that's cute." Ziva laughed.

"Hey Ima! Guess what?!" Lily shouted.

"What?" Ziva asked.

"Abba made a mess in the kitchen!" Lily laughed.

"What did he do?" Ziva asked.

"He dropped a bottle." Lily replied.

"Is that so?" Ziva asked.

"Yes" Lily laughed.

After a while Lily got bored and ran off to her room to introduce Francine the Frog to the rest of her stuffed animals. From down the hall Ziva heard her youngest child laughing her little head off. She reached over and grabbed the ultrasound photo off of her side table. If her baby had lived he or she would be around nine months old right now. Probably working on walking and talking, just about to be a playmate for Lily. She had decided that she did not want anymore pregnancies but moments like this. She desperately wanted another baby. She dreamed about a tiny life growing inside of her and bringing that life into the world. She could almost smell a newborn and feel it's hair. Deep down she really did want to have at least one more, but what if something went wrong? She couldn't handle another miscarriage and it would be even worse if the baby was found to have some horrible defect in the later weeks or if it came too soon for this world. Even if everything went perfectly they could still face a loss and what if her body could not handle a pregnancy? Could she really put Tony through losing another wife shortly after childbirth?

A/N: Looks like Tony's not as OK as he thought. How will he cope? What will Ziva decide? New chapter will be up soon. Please review and thanks for reading.