A bittersweet and emotional day had arrived for the DiNozzo family. Ziva was now nine weeks into her pregnancy. She had lost their first child at eight weeks. From here on out she was in uncharted territory. She was far from out of the woods but she was past that bump. There was the joy of knowing she had made it a week longer but there was also another heartbreaking reminder that their first baby was gone. Never to know the world for even a second. The DiNozzo's were in the middle of moving into a new house. It was the house just a few blocks away, Tony had seen for sale a few weeks prior. The girls would not have to change schools and the family would finally be in AJ's dream house. Even if AJ would only occupy a small space on his memorial shrine. All the while Lily was rounding out her final days of toddler-hood before reaching the old age of five and Marley was battling teenage drama. Tony was enduring therapy and effects of his PTSD. Even in the midst of everything, Ziva still took a moment to be still and reflect. She sat in the dark, mostly packed away living room and studied the copy of her ultrasound. The only image of her and Tony's first baby. A single tear rolled off her cheeks and landed on the homemade frame. The frame that was supposed to hold a happy memory. Instead it only held a bittersweet reminder of what could have been.

"I just remembered what today was." Tony said solemnly as he entered the bedroom.

"It's been on my mind all day." Ziva sniffed.

"The risk is never gone but at least we are to the point of knowing." Tony replied.

"So far everything looks great but they can't tell much more until twenty weeks." Ziva reminded.

"We will be OK." Tony assured.

"I know. I know. I just wonder what could have been. Would it have been a boy or a girl? What would they be like? What would we have called them?" Ziva lamented.

"I think it would have been another girl but we would have called her our Sunshine either way. She would have been happy and full of love." Tony explained.

"At least she is with her big brothers and sister." Ziva replied.

"Brothers?" Tony questioned.

"I think my first baby was another boy." Ziva explained.

"And each of them sent us our new baby." Tony added.

To take their minds off of the day Ziva and Tony were going to meet their friends Tammy and Lenore for an early dinner. It would be a strange meeting. The DiNozzo's knew Tammy and Lenore from their support group for parents of largely handicapped children. This would be their first time meeting up without AJ. It was even harder for Tony because he would be the only man. Tammy's husband Grant was staying home with their younger son and Lenore's husband Travis had to work. Tammy's son James was twenty and like AJ had been born normal and healthy. He was fine until he was four years old and without warning stopped breathing in his sleep. By the time his parents found him the damage had been done. Lenore's daughter Christine was seven and had some rare disorder that had been diagnosed before birth. Christine was in a wheelchair and mostly non-verbal. While James could walk had the communication abilities of a four year old.

"Tony? Ziva? How are you?" Lenore greeted calmly.

"We are hanging in their. Tony is in therapy for his PTSD. He is doing well but he really can't talk about AJ." Ziva explained.

"I understand." Lenore assured.

"Where's Tammy?" Ziva asked.

"I made it and nobody yelled!" James cried bounding towards the table.

"I know James and I am very proud but do not yell inside." Tammy reminded.

"Sorry" James apologized.

"It's alright just be quiet from now on or we will have to go." Tammy assured.

"James had a rough week. He went into the lady's room without Tammy at the mall on Saturday and a woman yelled at him and reported him to security. Then he had two accidents at school." Lenore whispered, explaining for Tammy.

"I feel terrible. I got distracted and I guess James thought I was in front of him." Tammy explained.

"It happens" Ziva assured.

"I know. Anyway it isn't all about me. Did you tell them Lenore?" Tammy asked.

"No. what's up?" Ziva asked.

"I am pregnant. I am twenty three weeks but we wanted to make sure she didn't have Christine's problems. We agreed to terminate if she had the same disorder. It sounds terrible. I mean Christine is so happy and we love her, but we cannot handle two with the condition and we really can't put Charlotte through that. She already gets so little with Christine. I know a healthy baby will take away but at least Charlotte will have an ally and somebody who understands her." Lenore explained.

"Congratulations" Tony replied.

"Mazel-Tov!" Ziva cried.

Hearing Lenore's news made it hard for Ziva not to announce pregnancy but like her friend. She did not want to spread the news too soon. While her child was not high risk for a debilitating and often fatal disorder. She had endured two miscarriages and she could not take the risk of having her heart broken again. She had only told a few close friends of her previous pregnancy but enough people knew. So she would do like Lenore and wait until she was sure that all was well. For now she smiled and looked at ultrasound images of baby Chyanne Bernadette Forest. She smiled knowing these children would be friends. Ziva was going to try to maintain her friendship with Tammy, Lenore and the other special needs moms. She prayed that her new baby would be healthy and that the girls would remain healthy, but she wanted the friendship. The special needs moms were the best mom friends she had ever had. They did not judge as much and these woman knew of AJ and were not afraid to speak his name. After an evening of laughter and tears. The DiNozzo's drove home to their waiting children.

"That was nice." Ziva remarked.

"James and Christine looked great." Tony replied, both had serious health issues and had not been well the last time the DiNozzo's had seen them.

"They did and I am so happy for Lenore." Ziva replied.

"Me too" Tony replied.

"I guess surprises come in twos." Tony laughed.

"That they do, I just hope ours is healthy." Ziva whispered.

A/N: Ziva may have a good friend in Lenore in the coming months. Even if she cannot disclose her pregnancy just yet. New chapter will be up soon. Please review and thanks for reading.