Chapter 11
The months passed quickly and imperceptibly. Sharon tried to forget about her pain and mistakes that were the reason for her breakup with Andy. Now she tried to think only for her baby and she couldn't wait to hug her son very soon. She consulted with Dr. Julie who had confirmed that everything with the baby is fine. Sharon was grateful because under all this stress, she was afraid for her baby. As always, Andrea and Rusty were the only ones who were beside her throughout this difficult period. Perhaps Sharon has understood that she is not twenty-five. She wasn't as young as before. While she was entering the ninth month of her pregnancy, the coldness between her and Andy continued the same way. As much as she hated to be away from him, Sharon tried to not take unnecessary discussions with him, as it didn't matter. One morning, Sharon was arranging the baby clothes in the nursery with Andrea, while Rusty was in college.
"Sharon, I can't believe you still work in this state." she said unhappily, taking baby clothes in hand. Sharon smiled slightly and patted her belly.
"You know, I love my job and I've always loved. When I had Emily and Ricky I was too young and then I didn't have time to devote to them. Jack was away and I was alone. I had to go back to work immediately. but this time I'll devote all my time to my son. This time will be different and I know that. So, I'll work to the end. " she said firmly. Andrea shook her head and shrugged.
"Yeah, maybe you're right, but this time nothing will be so different. This time, Andy is away from you and you're alone again. I am your friend and seeing you so sad, I feel bad." she said softly. Sharon left the baby clothes in the crib and took a deep breath. Abndrea was absolutely right. And this time she was alone, but this was her mistake. If she'd told the truth to Andy at the beginning, now she wouldn't have this problem.
"Andrea, you're absolutely right. But the mistake is mine. Andy has the right to behave so coldly to me. I lied to him terribly. He was right. I don't even know if it's Andy's child or Jack's." she said sadly. Andrea hushed quietly and squeezed her shoulder.
"Sharon, calm down. But I still think Andy is the father and he really will come back to you. Trust me, he won't abandon his son. He is not Jack." she said encouragingly. Sharon shrugged.
"Yes, he is not Jack. Maybe that's why everything seems more difficult. But I still love Andy with my whole heart. Whether he'll come back to me or not, I want this child to be his." she confessed and went to the living room. Andrea followed her and stood before her, seeing how tired she is.
"Sharon, it may be better for you to be at home. Look, you look tired and pale. It's not good for you to work in your state." she pressed lightly. Sharon took a deep breath and shook her head.
"Andrea, stop worrying. I'm completely fine. Today I'll be in the office if you come to talk this afternoon." she assured. Andrea nodded with a smile and agree. After Andrea left, Sharon decided to rest before going to work. She really needed this. During this time, Andy was having breakfast together with his daughter, who had decided to visit her father. She loved to spend her time with him, especially after the horror with Sharon. She knew how hurt is her father and as if she wanted to comfort him. But seeing that he constantly thinks about Sharon, she felt worse. She couldn't believe that her father continues to think of Sharon, anyway.
"Dad, the boys love you very much. Even they spend more time with you than their grandfather." Nicole said with a grin. Andy smiled softly, but if his smile was sad. He squeezed her hand.
"I know, honey. I also love to spend my time with them. They're like your truly children, then they are my grandchildren too, right? The boys are great. They make me go back. I feel happy when I'm with them . " he admitted, sipping his coffee. Nicole smiled slightly and looked at her father more carefully. She could feel his sadness.
"Dad, are you sure? You say you're happy, but I can see that you're not. What happens to you? I decided to visit you because I can see that you haven't slept all night or maybe a couple of nights. Am I right? " she asked gently strictly. Andy took a deep breath and closed his eyes for a moment.
"Who cares? Yes, I admit. I haven't slept for nearly three days since I can't sleep." he said quietly. Nicole's eyes widened. She couldn't believe that her father hadn't slept for three nights.
"Dad, why are you doing this? I'm concerned about you. Why do you say that?" she asked unhappily. Andy squeezed her shoulder and gave her a weak smile.
"Nicole, there are things that a person can't forget. You know very well what I'm talking about. When I talk I mean everything that happened between me and Sharon. You don't know how hard it is to be near and far at the same time with the person you love. I love Sharon, but the fact that she lied to me in this terrible way makes me be away from her. I've gotten used to the idea of this son and after so many months, I realized it was all a lie and nothing more. " he said sadly. Nicole looked at her father sadly.
"Dad, please, stop thinking about it. Sharon is to blame for everything. He made you very sad. You're already sure that this child is not yours. Then why do you still think of her? I know you love her but what she made have no forgiveness. " she said firmly. Andy pursed his lips and shrugged.
"No, Nicole. I'm not sure. More precisely, Sharon is not sure whether this child is mine or Jack's. But whatever happens, I don't think I can forgive her. It hurt me deeply and I can never forgive her. " he said decided. Nicole looked at him confused.
"So, does this mean that if that child is yours you will come back to Sharon?" she asked to be sure. For Andy this was a terribly difficult. He didn't know how to respond and what to say. As if that question had no answer.
"Nicole, believe me, if this child is mine, I won't leave him. If he is my son, I will always be with him whatever happens. In fact, I no longer have hope for this, but if this child is mine I'll accept my responsibilities."he said flatly. Nicole smiled slightly. Of course, if this child is her brother, she would accept it. But she thought that she would never be able to forgive Sharon. Several hours later, Sharon and Andy were working. Sharon was sitting in her office as usual while Andy was trying to find other clues about the case that they follow. Provenza looked at his friend carefully and approached him.
"Hey, Flynn, is everything okay?" he asked anxiously. Andy took a deep breath and nodded slightly.
"Yes, absolutely everything. Life is great." he said sarcastically. Provenza shook his head and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Why are you talking like that? I'm just worried about you. I don't want to ask anything about Sharon, don't worry." he said calmly. Andy rolled his eyes, sighed wearily and unhappily. He just didn't want to hear anything about Sharon.
"Stop talking about Sharon, please." he said indifferently and continue to work until Provenza returned to his desk. During this time, Detective Sykes was in Sharon's office. Sharon felt a slight pain in her belly and she panicked.
"Captain, are you okay? You want me to call someone?" she asked anxiously. Sharon took shallow breaths and shook her head.
"No, Amy, I'm fine. Don't worry." she assured with a smile and rubbed her belly. Amy nodded and put the folder she was holding onto her desk.
"Captain, it remains very little time. Perhaps you're very excited to be a mother again after so many years." she said with a grin. Sharon smiled slightly and leaned back.
"Absolutely. I can't wait to hug my son. It'll be very soon." she said happily. Amy smiled softly, but she'd like her boss be happier. She could see that Sharon is not as happy as it should be. In the evening, Sharon decided to go home earlier, as Dr. Julie didn't let her work. She was just stubborn. Tonight was very important for Andy. Tonight he would go to AA meeting. He just needed it, he wanted to share his sadness. Finally, he came and stood in front of the others. He cleared his throat, and greeted everyone ready to talk.
"Hi, I'm Andy and I'm an alcoholic I've been sober for 15 years but a few months ago, the woman I love with all my heart broke all my life into a thousand pieces. Since then I can't stop thinking about drinking. Yes, I know this is a terrible thing and I am ashamed. But I can't forget my pain and at the same time I know that I shouldn't grab the bottle again. No, I'm not drunk, I only thought about it, but then I decided that even it can't stop my pain. "He said sadly. The group listened carefully. Andy felt a little better. On the other hand, Sharon and Rusty were having dinner together.
"Sharon, today my day was great. You care about me, but I also care. I hope you're not too tired." he said anxiously. Sharon smiled softly and took his hand.
"Don't worry, I'm fine. My day was normal as ever." Rusty nodded and sighed.
"Sharon, when will you stop working? I mean that you're nine months pregnant. Shouldn't you stop?" he asked immediately. Sharon took a deep breath and leaned back, putting her hand on her belly.
"Rusty, of course I won't work. When the baby is born I should be home all day. I want to work a little before my maternity." she assured with a smile. Rusty smiled contentedly. He couldn't hide the fact that he is also excited about this baby. After his AA meeting, Andy met with Provenza, as he was calling him like crazy for hours. He looked at him sternly, showing his phone.
"So where the hell are you? I'm trying to reach you for hours!" Provenza almost shouted.
"Stop shouting old man. I was in AA meeting. I just needed AA meeting." he said discontented. Provenza took a deep breath and shook his head.
"Well, at least you were there. Thank God, you stopped to think that alcohol can heal wounds that even time can't." he said sternly. Andy rolled his eyes, and sighed discontented.
"Well, stop giving me advice. I'll see you tomorrow." he said quickly and got into his car on the way home. Sharon was fast asleep when suddenly she felt the same pain again. She took a deep breath and opened her eyes slowly, rubbing her belly. She had a few weeks her term, but as if her contractions had begun. She was worried about her baby more than ever.
The next day, in the evening, somehow Sharon and Andy were alone in the department. The whole team were on a crime scene, but somehow Andy didn't want to participate, knowing that Sharon would stay completely alone. No, she didn't want to talk to her, but he just needed to be here. Sharon, however, felt a desire to talk with him again in private. So she took off her glasses and put them on her desk. With slow steps, she walked over to Andy's desk. Andy looked at her coldly and took a deep breath, standing in front of her. Sharon looked at him with innocence.
"Sharon, what do you want?" he asked quietly, continuing to look at her coldly.
"Andy, please, stop treating me this way. I feel terrible when you're away. I can't stand this terrible coldness. I love you." she admitted quietly with a sad look. Andy took a deep breath.
"You ruined everything that was between us. I still love you, but this doesn't matter. You lied to me terribly. You lied to me, Sharon. I can't forgive that." he said firmly and swallowed the lump in his throat. Sharon was ready to give him an answer, but she couldn't, feeling strong contractions. In fact, she had a mild contractions all day, but she hadn't told anyone. She almost screamed in pain as Andy took her gently. He was more worried than ever.
"Sharon, are you okay? Do you want me to call Dr. Julie?" he asked anxiously, forgetting about everything for a moment. Sharon took a deep breath and closed her eyes for a moment.
"No, Andy, please don't leave me alone. I need you. Don't leave me alone right now." she said quietly, looking at him imploringly. Andy looked at her closely and anxiously. He didn't know what to do at this time ...
~~~ TBC ~~~