Chapter 13
Sharon closed the door tightly and walked over to Andy, who had taken the baby in his arms comfortably, trying to calm him down. She couldn't understand why he is here again and why he holds her son in my arms. She couldn't find any sense. But seeing Andy so concerned she sat across from him, watching him carefully. Andy smiled at the little baby who seemed to have stopped crying. Sharon sighed with relief as she hadn't been able to calm her son for hours. Andy had made a miracle for her.
"I love when you don't cry." he said softly and kissed the baby gently. He didn't know what he's doing right now, knowing that maybe this isn't his son, but as if something caused him to hug him and calm him down. He didn't want to see the little boy crying. Sharon was left without words. She didn't know what to say. Andy seemed lost in dreams along with the baby, even forgetting the fact that she is here.
"Andy, why are you here?" she asked immediately. Andy motioned her and turned his attention to the baby again. He could see that the little baby begins to relax completely. Sharon could see that her son had calmed down in Andy's arms. But she was irritated by the fact that Andy didn't answer her. Andy looked at her.
"He fell asleep." he said quietly, but he was still holding the baby in his arms. Sharon took a deep breath and walked closer to Andy, taking her son in her arms. Andy stood before her and continued to stare at Nicholas. Somehow, something made him embrace him again. Sharon kissed her little son tenderly and walked to the nursery, warning Andy to wait here. Andy sat on the couch thoughtfully, but his eyes were looking for Nicholas. He didn't want to let the little boy. He felt pretty comfortable with her. After a few minutes, Sharon returned to Andy and sat next to him with a cold look. Andy look at her occasionally. Sharon took a deep breath and bit her lip.
"You didn't give me an answer. Why did you come?" she asked quietly as not to wake the baby again. Andy shook his head and shrugged.
"Actually, I didn't want. But as if I needed to make sure everything is okay. Don't get me wrong. I don't want to meddle in your life." He answered quietly, with gentle sarcasm. Sharon looked at him angrily.
"My life? Andy, that was our life until a few months ago. We loved each other and we had a relationship." she said firmly. Andy rolled his eyes, dissatisfied.
"Yes, while your lies failed everything. Everything that happened between us was because of you! You lied to me terribly." he defended with anger. Sharon stood up and stood before him. Andy looked at her coldly. Because of you. Sharon hated to hear it. Because of you. Yes, as always it was all because of her. She hated those words. Yes, maybe he was right, and maybe she'd lied terribly, but she couldn't stand over it all.
"Yes, you're right. I lied. I lied to you, but it doesn't give you the right to behave so rudely with me. I'm tired you treat me like that. This child that you held in your arms maybe it is your son. Why do you behave so so indifferently? " she asked angrily. Andy stood before her. He could feel the bitterness behind her words.
"Sharon, I'm aware of that. But you don't know through what I went. When I hold your son in my arms I want to believe that I am the father, that Nicholas is really my son. I don't know, something makes me keep hold him in my arms, but considering the fact that Jack may also be the father I feel like I'll go mad. " he said firmly. Sharon swallowed the lump in her throat and shook her head.
"I know that my sin is unforgivable and I know that was a terrible mistake to be again with Jack. I'm sorry but I don't want forgiveness from you. I wanted to talk to you about the DNA test, but you always avoid me. When I wanted to ask you something, I was always busy and you never answered me on the phone. Then why are you here now? " she asked. Andy took her hand.
"Stop raise your voice. You want to wake the baby?" he asked quietly and sternly. "Sharon sighed and dropped his hand.
"I want to talk normally, but somehow we constantly argue. I can't anymore, I feel awful when you're away. I'm completely alone with my child and I'm not as young as before. My son needs a father's love, but you're not here. I want to confirm this once and for all. I want to make this DNA test as soon as possible. " she said firmly. Andy nodded and grabbed his coat, looking at her coldly.
"You see, you're not even sure. You want to make these damn tests to make sure. I can't believe that you don't know who the father is. Sharon, for months I lived in complete lie. You lied to me, saying that child is mine. You lied to me, and I believed you. I had full confidence in you and I loved you. I was used to the idea of our child, but you shattered all my dreams. You have to tell me the truth in the beginning. " he said sadly, shunning her eyes. Sharon took a deep breath and closed her eyes for a moment. She squeezed his shoulder and made him look at her.
"Andy, look at me. I'm didn't want that." she said sadly and in that moment, someone knocked on the door. When she opened the door and saw Jack, she almost fell into shock. Andy walked away seeing that scene before him. Every time seeing Jack he remembered her lies and her deception. Jack went inside and Sharon stood before him, looking at him angrily.
"Jack, what are you doing here?" she asked angrily.
"I came to understand the truth. Does this child is mine or Andy's." He answered immediately. Sharon rolled her eyes, angrily.
"Jack, I hate to talk about it. I told you that the probability you to be the father is only 20%. Why are you here? Even if this child is yours, you can't be a good father. You've never been a good father nor for Emily nor Ricky. So, get out. " she said angrily. Jack took her hand.
"Remember the fact that if this child is mine, I'll always be around." he said insolently, and left. Sharon closed the door in anger so strongly that the baby woke up again. She quickly went to the nursery while Andy was back in the department. He sat at his desk thoughtfully while Provenza was watching his movements.
"Flynn, what happened, you look nervous." he noted with concern. Andy threw his pen and took a deep breath, looking around.
"Everything's fine. I just went to see if everything with Sharon and the baby is fine. Luckily, I was there and I was able to calm the little baby who felt quite comfortable in my arms. You know, I didn't want to let him go. As if something makes me hug him and never let him go. I don't know, I feel weird. " Provenza nodded and squeezed his shoulder.
"That's probably why he's your son. Look, Flynn when we were in the hospital we all felt that this is your son. I am almost convinced that Nicholas is your son, believe me." He said reliable. Andy shrugged and shook his head.
"But I still have doubts. When I left, Jack came there. Perhaps he is the father. Why would he come there?" he asked unhappily. Provenza sighed and rolled his eyes.
"The fact that Jack Raydor was there doesn't mean anything. He also might want to know the truth. Look, don't do that. I understand you're hurt and you can't forgive Sharon, but if it's your child, then you have to be with him. " he said firmly. Andy nodded and leaned back. He hoped that Nicholas was his son, because he just loved that child and be away from him comes hard. On the other hand, Andrea had visited Sharon and now she explained everything that had happened this morning.
"Andrea, you may not believe it but my son calmed down in Andy's embrace. Watching the two of them so close I felt much better. I hate the fact that Andy is away from me, but when Jack came here he went like the wind. I don't know, but I still fear that this is Jack's child, not Andy's. Andrea, I'm afraid. " Sharon admitted, looking at her little baby who was fast asleep. Andrea sighed and looked at the baby.
"Sharon, I have no doubt that Andy and Nicholas felt comfortable. Trust me, they are father and son. Andy's the father, not Jack. Right from the beginning I repeat it, but nobody believes me. Neither you nor Andy. I think the only way out is the DNA test. " she said firmly. Sharon took a deep breath and shook her head.
"The DNA test? Oh, God, Andrea! We had an argument with Andy because of this damn test. Not that he doesn't want to do this test, he hates the fact that I'm not sure. Yes, he is right to be angry, but how can I be so sure when I was with them at the same time? No, I have to take this test to calm down. I want to know who the father is. " she said firmly. Andrea nodded and squeezed her hand reassuringly. In the evening, Sharon fed her baby while Rusty returned from college and tried to be quiet, seeing the baby falling asleep. He sat next to Sharon with a smile and gently stroked the baby.
"How was your day?" Sharon asked quietly, looking at Rusty. He shrugged and sighed wearily.
"I have no idea. In fact, ordinary day, I think it was good. I hope that yours is an easy but when I look how tired you are, I don't think it was so good." he remarked sarcastically. Sharon shook her head and handed him the baby carefully. Rusty smiled looking at the little boy as if he was smiling. Rusty was pleased, seeing this. Sharon quickly went into the kitchen to prepare dinner for him. But Rusty was indeed right. She felt terribly tired. She served the dinner and took the baby in the nursery. Rusty sat down and started with his dinner. After a few minutes, Sharon joined him and sat across from him wearily. She sipped her water and sighed, looking at her dinner. Rusty watched her closely and he couldn't understand what was happening to her.
"Hey, Sharon, are you okay? You look pale." he said anxiously. Sharon smiled slightly and leaned back.
"I'm fine. Just the baby was crying and I was all alone." she replied hastily. Rusty nodded and squeezed her hand.
"Why Andy doesn't help you? I know that he is not like your ex-husband, but why he is not with his son?" he asked sadly.
"Rusty, I lied Andy. I don't know whether he is the father or Jack. I feel terrible because I love Andy. But he'll never forgive me. I hope that Andy's the father." she said softly. On the other hand, Nicole was a guest at her father because she wanted to talk to him. Andy was pleased that his daughter was closer to him.
"Dad, you look distracted. Are you all right?" Nicole asked anxiously. Andy took a deep breath and shrugged.
"Nicole, I just think of this kid. I wonder if he's my son or not. Could I have this chance or it's all a lie. I don't know, but I'd very much like Nicholas is my son." he admitted sadly. Nicole hushed and took his hand.
"Dad, I want you to be happy. But please, don't be again with Sharon. She lied and she slept with her ex-husband. Why should you forgive her?" she asked unhappily. Andy sighed and stood up.
"Maybe because I love her more than anything." he said quietly and left. He had to talk with Sharon again. When Andy again went to Sharon, she wasn't so surprised. They had to talk about the DNA test. Rusty was pleased with that. He wanted them to reconcile.
"Good evening, Lieutenant." he said politely. Andy smiled slightly and patted his back slightly. When Rusty went to his room, Sharon and Andy went into the nursery. Somehow, Andy wanted to hug the baby again. Sharon decided to check Rusty, while Andy was alone with the little baby. After a few minutes, Sharon walked to the nursery, but stopped to listen to Andy, who spoke to the baby.
"Hey, sunshine, don't know why, but when I hug you, I don't want to let go. I'm attached to you and I can't be away from you. I hope you're my son. I loved your mother with all my heart but she lied to me and she broke my heart. If you're really my son, I'd be very happy. I know you won't hurt me as your mother. " he muttered softly to the baby. Hearing this, Sharon's eyes filled with tears and she swallowed the lump in her throat, leaning on the wall. She was to blame for all this ...
~~~ TBC ~~~