11/01-17
Dear diary
Today was pretty quiet and normal. I had a test in math, but I couldn't concentrate. Ludwig sat right in front of me, so I got distracted by him. I even had a little day dream where we went on our future date and kissed. He was a good kisser. I know it was just a day dream, but it seemed so real. Alfred tried to cheer me up today, we went to his home which was pretty fun. Alfred has a Wii so we played Mario Kart, it was really funny. I enjoy being around Alfred, he's good at keeping a conversation going. Maybe I should hang out with him more often, that'd be nice, haha.
Kiku didn't talk to me at all today, actually I think he tried to avoid me. Whenever I spoke to him he said he had to go. Do you think Kiku hates me? It makes me so scared. What if he does? Ludwig is really close with Kiku maybe even more close than I am with him, so if I lose Kiku, will I lose Ludwig? That would be an awful lot of friends to lose in such a short period. Oh dear, I think I'm going to cry just at the thought of it. That would be so horrible.
Bye diary - Feliciano Vargas
Hi diary, it's 2am and I just woke up because I needed something to drink. Then I started to think about the whole thing with Antonio and Lovino and then I started I thinking… what if the same thing happens to me? I know that Ludwig is not the kind of person to do such a thing, but Antonio didn't seem to be either. Suddenly I panicked, I hyperventilated, my body shook slightly and I just didn't seem to be able to calm down again. I was so scared because I've never experienced something like that before. What does this mean? Am I getting sick?
It's in the middle of the night and I feel so alone and scared.
Thank you for being here for me diary - Feliciano Vargas