Chapter 15
Andy kept looking at the result thoroughly, until Sharon looked at him with fear. She was afraid from the result and Andy's behavior. As if her heart would stop. She went to Andy and looked at the result.
"Andy, what is the result? Why are you silent? Tell me, what is the result!" she almost shouted impatiently but in her eyes there was fear. Andy took a deep breath and closed his eyes for a moment. He handed the result to Sharon.
"Nicholas ... He's my son Sharon. The result is positive. He's my son." Andy said softly, and smiled. Sharon sighed with relief and re-check the result. She hugged tightly Andy weeping with joy on his shoulder. Andy wrapped his arms around her and snuggled in her silky hair. He couldn't believe that this is true. Nicholas was his son. He couldn't describe his joy in words. He was embraced Sharon so hard that he didn't want to let her go. They looked at each other with a smile a few minutes. After so many months, after so many enigmas and mysteries, they were already sure. They already knew that Nicholas was their son. Sharon couldn't say another word. She was afraid that Jack is the father, but now after this result, when she knew that Andy is the father, she was more relaxed. For the first time, she and Andy were calm.
"Andy, Nicholas is your son. Now you're convinced. He's your son. I'm sorry for all these months and all that I've brought. I'm sorry that I hurt you. So, that I hurt so much. This wound is terribly deep I know that. But I hope that now you feel more relaxed and better. " she said softly, wiping her tears.
"Sharon, I come here, I felt terrible fear. I was terrified that Jack might be Nicholas' father. I was afraid that I would lose the child who is everything to me from the beginning. I was terrified that he isn't my son because I didn't want to leave him alone. Every time I hugged him, I didn't want to leave him alone and to leave just like that. " he said softly and swallowed the lump in his throat. Sharon took a deep breath and squeezed his hand.
"I think that now is the time. Rusty needs to know the truth and you have the need to embrace your son. They were in Rusty's room if you want to go there." she said softly. Andy nodded and walked to Rusty's room. At this point, Rusty was close to Nicholas, who was fast asleep. He wasn't surprised that Andy came to see the baby, but he wanted to know the result immediately.
"Hey, Andy, what is the result? Please tell me I'm right." he asked quietly as not to wake the baby. Andy smiled and squeezed his shoulder, looking at his little son.
"You're right, Rusty. The result is positive. Nicholas is my son." he said proudly. Rusty sighed and smiled happy embracing Andy. He couldn't believe that finally they received as good news.
"Andy, I'm glad he's your son. Really, I knew that the result will be positive. By the way, where's Sharon?" he asked, confused. Andy shrugged.
"She wanted to be in the living room." he replied hastily. Rusty nodded with a smile and decided to talk to Sharon, leaving father and son alone, finally. Andy sat down carefully and took his son in his arms quietly, kissing him gently. He smiled softly and sighed with relief. He was terribly happy. He loved Nicholas from the beginning, but now that he knew the truth, everything was different. In the meantime, Sharon sat pensively on the couch when Rusty sat down beside her smiling and squeezed her shoulder.
"Hey Sharon, I feel happy. I knew that Andy is the father, but after this result I am convinced that you and he feel better. Now you can be a family." He said reliable. Sharon shook her head.
"Family? Rusty, this will never happen. The fact that Andy's thr father doesn't mean that we'll be together. Whatever happens, Andy will never forgive me, and he's right. Yes, he'll be near his son , but not to me. " she said sadly and bit her lip. Rusty sighed and took her hand.
"Why do you say that? Andy needs time. But perhaps he'll forgive you. Still, he loves you." he said thoughtfully. Sharon smiled and kissed him on the forehead.
"Sometimes love can't save the relationship. The relationship is built with faith. What I lost, lying to Andy. He'll never trust me, never. And maybe this is the best solution." she said firmly. Andy felt quite comfortable holding his son in his arms. Finally, he had a chance to be with him. Finally, he could forget about his lost son years ago. Finally, he could forget the pain. While Rusty decided to watch a movie, Andy went into the nursery and Sharon followed him. She stood by the door, watching Andy and their son carefully. She didn't want to ruin their moment.
"I can't believe that I learned the truth too late. Every time when you were in my arms as if I felt that you're my son. You can't believe how much I love you, even when I realized that I would have you. I'm sorry that your mom lied to me. I'm sorry that I had to be away from you for so long. I love you and I promise to be with you always. " he said softly to the baby, who was sleeping peacefully in his warm embrace. Hearing this, Sharon almost wept. She took a deep breath and wiped her tears, entering inside. She walked to Andy with a smile. Andy looked at her, but this time his gaze wasn't so cold. He handed Nicholas carefully to her.
"If you want, you can stay here tonight." she said softly, holding the baby in her arms tightly. Andy sighed and shook his head.
"No need, I'll go." he said firmly and walked toward the door, but Sharon grabbed his hand, causing him to look into her eyes.
"Andy, you just understood the truth. Now ypu will leave your son?" she asked softly. Andy rolled his eyes, dissatisfied.
"Of course not. I'll always be close to my son, but that doesn't mean that I'll live with you after all that happened between us." he said sternly. Sharon closed her eyes for a moment.
"I didn't say that. Look, I just want my son to get paternal love. I don't want my son to experience what his sister and his brother suffered years ago. Jack was never around and my children were deprived of their father's love . I don't want Nicholas to have the same fate. " she said firmly. Fortunately, Rusty was in the living room and didn't hear this little dispute. Greatest miracle was that the little baby was still sleeping. Andy didn't want to argue right now. He took his son in his arms and kissed him tenderly, then put him in the crib. He grabbed Sharon's hand and they went into the bedroom. He immediately locked the door and stood before Sharon.
"You think I'm like Jack? That I will leave my son?" he asked angrily, trying to be quiet. However, he didn;'t want to wake his son and get Rusty to hear their dispute. Sharon took a deep breath and glared at him.
"No, I don't think so. I know you're not Jack, but while I was alone almost a month I felt terrible. You don't even know what I experienced myself. What sleepless nights and how I took care for my son all alone. You wasn't here." she said with anger. Andy laughed derisively.
"It was because of you. Because of your lies. You think it doesn't hurt? It hurts. I was away from my son because of you, because of your uncertainty." he almost shouted. Sharon put her hand over his mouth to shut him up.
"Stop yelling. I hate the moments when you lose control. In addition, think about your blood pressure." she said firmly and concerned. Andy took her hand and nodded slightly.
"As you wish, Captain." he said sarcastically and walked away without saying anything. Sharon took a deep breath and went into the living room and stood in front of Rusty. He looked at her confused. He hadn't even realized that Andy is gone.
"Sharon, what's the problem?" he asked immediately.
"Rusty tomorrow you're in college, don't forget that. Now, it's too late for watching movies." she replied sternly. Rusty took a deep breath and went to his room displeased. Sharon closed her eyes for a moment and returned to her bedroom for a good sleep - somewhat. On the other hand, Andy was already in his house. He was calm as never before. Nicholas was his son. He wanted to share this with Nicole, who was eager to learn the truth. And especially with Provenza, who probably would say that he was always right. The next morning, while Sharon tried to prepare breakfast for Rusty and feed her son, Andy had gone to the department earlier to share all this with Provenza. He was happy for his friend, but he could see that he wasn't so happy.
"I know that now you're calm because Nicholas is your son, but you're not happy. Admit it, there is something which doesn't allow you to be completely happy." he said firmly. Andy took a deep breath and shrugged.
"Maybe you're right. Yes, I'll always be close to my son, but I can't forgive Sharon. I don't know, but I feel weird. Last night I had an argument with her about my fatherhood. I promised her that I'll always be close to Nicholas, but somehow, she doesn't believe me because we're not living together. " he admitted.
"Then why don't you live with her? Don't get me wrong. Then you will have a chance to be with your son completely. Sharon is right. When you're away as if the child will be without a father. Think about it. Just visiting him, doesn't mean you can be a good father. You have to live with him. " he said sternly. Andy rolled his eyes and leaned back. But what could he do? How does he live with Sharon after all this? He didn't know the answer ... Several hours later, Sharon was home alone with the baby as ever. Rusty was in the college and Nicholas slept. Andrea had come eagerly to understand the result. She was happy with this result and she'd been right, but she could see the sadness in her friend's eyes.
"Sharon, what is it this time? It's okay. Andy's the father and now everyone is calm. What happened? You seem distracted." she noted with concern. Sharon shrugged and looked at her son.
"Last night I had an argument with Andy. For his fatherhood. Andrea, my son needs a father's love, but Andy refused to live here. Yes, he may be right, but he can't be so close to Nicholas if he is away. He doesn't want to live together, because between us there is nothing and he can't forgive me. I don't blame him. But if he doesn't live here, my son wil grow without his parents' love. " she admitted. Andrea hushed and squeezed her hand.
"Sharon, he realized that Nicholas is his son last night. Let's give him time. I'm sure that eventually he'll agree to live together for the sake of the child. He'll never let his son. I felt it the first time in the hospital. You'll see, everything will be fine. This time you won't be alone while you raise your son. " She encouraged with a smile. Sharon gave her a weak smile. She hoped that Andrea was right. Afternoon Andy couldn't stop thinking about his son. He couldn't stand without seeing him only a few hours. How, then he could live away from him? He threw several folders on his desk in anger and took a deep breath. The entire team looked at him confused. Sykes nudged Provenza to talk to Flynn. He rolled his eyes, dissatisfied and went to his friend, watching him carefully.
"Well, Flynn, what is the problem? Stop getting nervous and think about your blood pressure." he said sternly. Andy glared at him and confront him.
"Stop talking about blood pressure! I'm tired of hearing it from Sharon and now from you. The only thing I want is to find a solution to my problems." he almost shouted. Provenza gritted his teeth in anger.
"Then go to the Sharon and find a solution instead of scream!" he shouted. Andy grabbed his jacket and headed for the elevators. He couldn't take it anymore. Provenza sat on his desk and leaned back in anger. God, how stubborn was his friend! Andy decided to go to Sharon and talk to her about their way of life from now on. They had a son and they had to think about it. Sharon was sleeping on the couch with the baby on her chest when someone knocked on the door. She quickly put the baby on the couch without waking him and cautiously opened the door. After last night's dispute, she was surprised to see Andy here so early. He looked at her coldly, but Sharon could understand that he wants to talk to her ...
~~~ TBC ~~~