16/01-17
Dear diary
This morning I found something weird in the bathroom… There was this blade? Not one that you shave with, or maybe it was, but then again it wasn't in the shaver. Sebastiano confiscated it from me. He told me not to tell grandpa. I am little confused, but I don't think my brother would keep any secrets from me. I think I might ask him what it was now that he has calmed down. I was supposed to hang out with Gilbert today, but he told me he was grounded and didn't really dare to try and sneak out. It's understandable, Mr. Beilschmidt is quite scary. He is always so strict, so Gilbert probably didn't even do anything seriously bad.
Ludwig, Kiku and I decided to do homework together though. It was cosy and all, but I still think Kiku has something against me. He is so quiet around me and around Ludwig he talks a surprising lot. I don't know why he has started to act like this around me, or maybe I just never noticed?
Kiku left a little earlier because he had to work on some cosplay thing he has going on. Then I told Ludwig about the blade. He said that he didn't know what it could be, but I could see in his eyes he knew. I'm fifteen for god's sake, it'd be nice if people treated me like that instead of a five-year-old. I guess that's just what that is. Ludwig and I watched a movie since it was too cold to go outside. Guess what?
Oh, it makes me so excited just to think about it! He laid an arm around me! It was so sweet, hehe. I can still feel the tingling on my shoulders. That's surely a sign he likes me, right? If it isn't, then I don't know what is. If Ludwig has a diary, do you think he writes about me?
That reminds me, Francis still hasn't found his diary. Arthur has been walking around with a smug face lately, so he probably found it and is reading it. Arthur and Lovino used to be best friends, but apparently, he was the one to cheat with Antonio, so now Lovino is alone. It's a little sad. I don't think it's because Lovino has no friends at all, he just tends to isolate himself when he's sad. Maybe I should try talking to him? It's just, he always pushes me away, at least he has been recently.
Perhaps he just has a hard time understanding that I just want to help, or maybe it's because he doesn't want to understand. He puzzles me sometimes. I actually talked a little to Antonio today, it's been a while, but it was just sort of awkward. He asked me how Lovino was, which I was a little pissed about. I'm not sure why though.
Today I'm feeling better, but there is still a lump-feeling in my throat. The only weird thing I've noticed is how jumpy I am. It's strange.
Diary, I'm so glad to have you - Feliciano Vargas