Chapter 23

Sharon put the baby in the crib and turning, she saw that Andy was looking at her with a smile. She looked at her son and went to Andy. They looked at each other in silence for a few minutes. He took her hand and they walked out of the nursery.

"I didn't know that you look at me." Sharon admitted. Andy smiled and squeezed her shoulder.

"Sharon, I love watching you and Nicholas together. You make me forget about all my problems and all my mistakes. I am grateful that our son is here with us. I forgot the past and I've changed, especially after the incident with you. " he said sadly. Sharon looked at him carefully and gently touched his face. Although she had amnesia, she wanted to reassure the man who loves her with all his heart.

"Andy, calm down and stop thinking about the past. Whether I remember something or not, I'll always be here with you." she said softly with a smile and kissed him tenderly on the cheek. Andy smiled contentedly and bit his lip. He embraced Sharon tightly. He had no patience she to remember everything, but he knew very well that when Sharon remembered she probably will not be able to forgive him. He sensed the coming storm. Namely, the fact that he hadn't forgiven Sharon on time. And now he knew very well that Sharon will not forgive him. He felt terrible, thinking about it. As he returned to the living room, Sharon went into her bedroom to continue sleeping. The next morning, she woke up early and decided to make breakfast. Rusty, however, loved to cook, so he decided to help her. Incidentally, Andy was getting ready for work. Rusty loved her pancakes and despite her amnesia, she was the perfect mother for him. Sharon put the plates on the table and looked at Rusty with a smile.

"Well, what do you think? I think the breakfast looks wonderful." she said happily. Rusty chuckled softly and kissed her cheek.

"You are wonderful Sharon. Andy loves your pancakes like me. Good breakfast for a good start." he assured. Sharon sighed wearily and looked at the table thoughtfully. Rusty could feel her distraction.

"I'd like to remember everything. You know, Rusty, I didn't even know my name. Andy helped me to get here, otherwise I wouldn't have had the same courage. Trust me, I feel weird. You're a very good kid, but I don't remember you. I don't remember how I met you. I don't remember Andy, the man who loves me anyway. I don't remember my kids. I feel like a living corpse. " she confessed and swallowed the lump in her throat. Rusty shushed softly and hugged her tightly. Andy felt bad hearing her conversation with Rusty. His eyes filled with tears and he took a deep breath. After a few minutes, he finally managed to enter the kitchen and walked to Sharon with a smile. Rusty sat down, while Sharon was looking at Andy.

"Uh ... Sharon, can you help me with the tie?" he asked hesitantly. Sharon nodded with a smile and approached him. It was just cause. Andy wanted Sharon to be near him. While she was putting his tie, Andy stared into her green eyes sadly. He couldn't find the same warm look. She was cold as never before. Rusty watched them carefully. He looked at his watch and grabbed his bag.

"Well, I don't want to be late for college. I'll see you later." he interrupted them and left. Andy sat down and Sharon put his breakfast before him. She took a cup of raspberry tea and sat across from him. Andy knew that the baby sleeps and that he has little time to talk to Sharon. He sipped his coffee and took her hand.

"Sharon, are you okay? You seem distracted." he noted with concern. Sharon took a deep breath and shook his head.

"I don't know, I just think. I think about my grim future. Andy, has passed almost a month but I don't remember anything. Tell me what to do? I feel terrible. I'm trying to move on and forget my pain but I can't. Believe me, I really try. I want to remember you, my children, my work. " she admitted sadly and tears streamed down her cheeks silently. Andy hushed quietly and sat beside her, taking her in his arms. He rubbed her back soothingly, kissing her gently on the forehead.

"Sharon, calm down. Everything will be fine. You'll remember everything, absolutely everything. Believe me, everything will be fine. I am with you." he assured her and gave her a weak smile. Sharon hoped he was right. When the baby began to cry, Andy decided to take care, as Sharon was unable. She sat in her chair sadly for a few minutes until Andy returned to her with their son in his arms. He handed the baby to her carefully, watching her carefully. Sharon kissed her little son dearly, but her smile was sad. She swallowed the lump in her throat and tried to calm the baby. Andy wasn't surprised by the fact that Nicholas had stopped crying as soon as Sharon had taken him in her arms. He knew that his son needs his mother, but he also knew that for Sharon, all seems overwhelming and difficult. Still, she couldn't remember anything. Suddenly Provenza called about one case and Andy went to a crime scene, leaving Sharon and their son alone. They needed this. Sharon could admit that this is the first time for her, in which she and Nicholas were alone. She loved her son as before, but her love was not quite true, as she didn't remember anything. All day, Andy sat at his desk thoughtfully and the entire team could feel it. Especially Provenza, who hated to see his friend so sad. He decided to talk to him because now they had a lunch break.

"Flynn, I think it's time for a good lunch. What do you say?" he said loudly. Andy rolled his eyes, and sighed unhappily leaning back.

"Do you really think that I am able to have lunch?" he asked sarcastically. Provenza shook his head and squeezed his shoulder.

"Well, it was simply an occasion to start a conversation with you. But what happens to you? I thought everything is fine." he said, confused. Andy closed his eyes for a moment and looked up at Sharon's office.

"No, Provenza. Sharon feels bad. The amnesia is tormenting her and it makes me feel bad. She doesn't remember anything and we have conflicts about this constantly. I don't know what to do she to remember. But seeing her so, I feel that I won't have more courage to move on. " He explained briefly and bit his lip. Provenza nodded slightly.

"Well, this is a serious problem. But you have to calm down and keep encouraging Sharon. She'll remember soon, I'm convinced. Let's get Andrea to talk to her again. They've always been good friends . " he suggested reliably. Andy sighed and nodded slightly. They had no choice. Perhaps Andrea could help Sharon. That afternoon, Andrea visited her friend. She'd always done this, but now her goal was another. She was trying to get Sharon to remember, but she knew that it was difficult and it will take time. However, Sharon was pleased with Andrea's visit. Now that her son slept in the nursery, she had time to share her feelings.

"There was no need for this tea." Andrea said, frowning. Sharon smiled and sat down across from her.

"Don't talk nonsense. Andy told me that you always drink tea with me. I wanted to do it, maybe it will help me remember something. Who knows?" she said thoughtfully. Andrea took a sip of her tea and squeezed her hand.

"Sharon, it's a lot better. Seeing that you are trying to remember, I feel good. You know, today I had a lot of work and I didn't think that I can visit you right now, but for my friend I'm ready for anything. " she added. Sharon sighed and nodded slightly.

"Thank you, Andrea. You, Andy and Lieutenant Provenza trying to help me. I don't want to talk about Rusty. He constantly attempts to allow me to recover my memory, but I lose hope with each passing day. This situation is terrible for me. I don't know how I feel. My feelings are a mixture. Andy constantly is telling me the same thing. He asks me to forgive him, but I told him that I can't forgive him without remembering anything. Andrea, you're my friend right? Tell me, then. What happened between me and Andy, why he behaves this way and asks forgiveness? " she asked, determined to discover the truth. Andrea took a deep breath and shrugged. She couldn't tell her this, especially when Sharon has amnesia.

"Sharon, why do you want to know this now? Why don't you ask Andy?" she asked her question immediately, wanting to flee her answer. Sharon took a deep breath and shook her head.

"You think I haven't tried? Andrea, he refused to tell me the truth but I need. I need the truth to be able to forgive him. He sleeps on this uncomfortable couch and he refused to tell me why. I feel terrible, seeing that he sleeps here. " she admitted and looked down sadly. Andrea sighed wearily. No, she couldn't tell the truth. She could see that Andy isn't telling the truth on purpose. Maybe he was afraid of her reaction as she has amnesia.

"Sharon, forget about it. I am convinced that you'll remember everything very soon and then you won't ask these questions." she said with an encouraging smile. Sharon agrees, but she wasn't sure she can remember. But she was sure of one thing. She wanted to talk to Andy tonight. She wanted and she needed the truth to find out why he sleeps on the couch and why he refused to tell her why. On the other hand, Nicole tried to find the courage to share the truth with her father. She already couldn't wait to tell him that her mother is here and she's uncovered a terrible secret about her brother years ago. She wanted to reassure her father once, but she couldn't find the courage. In the evening, Andy was getting ready to go home. He was surprised, seeing Andrea there. She came to him and asked to talk to him about her conversation today with Sharon. They walked toward the elevators, because now there was more calm and they could talk in private. Andy was anxious to find out what was their conversation.

"Andrea, what happened? Sharon remembered something?" he asked immediately. Andrea shook her head.

"Andy, calm down. She still doesn't remember anything, but she feels terrible by the fact that you sleep on the couch. She wants to know what happened between you. She wants to know the truth. She wanted me to tell her but of course, this should do you. Andy, why didn't you say anything? Although she has amnesia, she has a right to know. " she said firmly. Andy took a deep breath and put his hands in his pockets.

"Andrea, believe me, I tried. But I'm afraid of her reaction. I know that she'll remember everything soon, I'm sure. I know that when she regain her memory, she'll never forgive me and she'll blame me . So, now I want us to be calm. Especially because of Nicholas. I think about my son. I don't want conflicts with Sharon while she has amnesia. " he admitted sadly. Andrea nodded and squeezed his shoulder.

"Andy, I understand perfectly. But you have to tell her the truth as soon as possible. You remember the doctor's words. The amnesia can continue even years. You can't hide the truth." she warned him sternly. Andy sighed wearily and closed his eyes for a moment. But how he could say all this now? Even he didn't know ... When Andy returned home around was quiet. Only now, he'd remembered that Rusty will be with friends that night. He threw the keys and decided to check the nursery since he was convinced that Sharon was there. Yes, he was right. Sharon looked at their son who was fast asleep. Andy came up to her with a smile and squeezed her shoulder. She motioned him to be quiet. They came out from the nursery and went into the bedroom, as Sharon had asked Andy to talk. Andy knew why Sharon wants to talk with him. He wasn't ready for such a conversation, but he had no choice. She locked the door and stood before him, looking at him coldly.

"I guess you know what I want to talk about." she began uncertainly. Andy nodded slightly and put his hands in his pockets.

"Yes, I know. Obviously, so why I sleep in the uncomfortable couch." he said sarcastically. Sharon took a deep breath and approached him, looking into his brown eyes.

"Why? Why Andy? Why didn't you tell the truth? Seeing that you sleep on this uncomfortable couch, I feel bad, believe me. I feel terrible. Tell me, why are you doing this? Forget my amnesia and tell me the truth. I want to know what happened between us and why between us there is similar coldness. " she said firmly expecting an answer. Andy took a deep breath and rolled his eyes.

"I can't do this. You will soon remember everything. Why should I tell you anything now?" he asked dissatisfied with slight anger. Sharon took his hand.

"Because I can't understand what is happening between us. I want the truth, Andy. Now." she said firmly. Andy sighed and looked into her green eyes. He was trapped. He had to tell her the truth, despite her amnesia and his fear...

~~~ TBC ~~~