Chapter 27

1 year later ...

Although it was passed a year, as if the coldness between Sharon and Andy continued. No, it wasn't dispute or conflict. It was just coldness and nothing else. Since Andy had learned that his firstborn son was alive, he was like a living corpse. Although his little son was with him always, he couldn't forget about it. Sharon tried to help him in any way, but she knew that was impossible. Andy was still looking for his son, but unsuccessfully. Every time he fell into disappointment because he could find no trace of his firstborn son. Of course, that made Sharon angry because she thought that Andy is not concerned so much about Nicholas as for his lost son. She couldn't tolerate the fact that Andy is away from their son. Yes, he was here and they lived together but, Andy was behaving coldly. Today was a pretty exciting day as Nicholas will turn 1 year old. Sharon had organized a party and had invited her entire team. That morning, Sharon was in her bedroom to get ready for the big day, while Andy was in the nursery with Nicholas. Rusty and Nicole were busy to prepare everything for the party. Nicole was grateful that her little brother has a birthday as her father could forget about her lost brother at least for a while. Sharon stood before the mirror and looked at her reflection. She thought for a moment and decided to see Andy and their son.

"What a miracle. You take care of our son. I'm glad that you remembered that you have a son." she said sarcastically, moving toward him. Andy rolled his eyes, dissatisfied and kissed his son ignoring Sharon and her harsh words.

"Sharon, I was always with my son. You have no right to blame me." he said angrily. Sharon laughed derisively.

"Yes, you are always with him but he just not only needs your presence. He needs a father's love and you don't give him enough thinking about your lost son." she almost shouted. Andy looked at her in anger and left his son in the crib, then took Sharon's hand and they went outside. He didn't want conflict before his son and especially today.

"Sharon, stop talking nonsense. I've always been a good father for Nicholas. The fact that I think about my lost son doesn't mean I don't love Nicholas. He is everything to me, and you know this very well. I can't believe that you're so selfish. " he said firmly, trying to be quiet because he didn't want Nicole and Rusty to hear them. Sharon clenched her teeth in anger and went into the bedroom. During this time, Nicole and Rusty adorned the living room for the party.

"I think that everything is ready. What do you think?" Nicole said with a smile, looking at, Rusty. He shrugged and looked around.

"Yes, everything is wonderful and today is a very exciting day as Nicholas turns 1 year old but seeing the coldness between Mom and Andy I feel bad. I don't know, at the beginning I was always against their relationship but now I don't want them to be so far apart. " he admitted thoughtfully. Nicole nodded and squeezed his shoulder.

"Yes, you're right. But I think that whatever happens, Sharon and dad will always be together. I can see that their love is stronger than anything else. Look, today is very nice day and I think that today they have no conflict as before. They'll try at least for Nicholas. " she said reliable. Rusty nodded and continued to put decorations. Today, everything had to be perfect. Sharon couldn't miss anything. On the other hand, Andy had gone to work because he had to finish some things. The whole team was surprised that he came to work today just as his son has a birthday. Provenza couldn't find meaning in his behavior.

"Hey Flynn, I didn't expect you'd come here today. Your son has a birthday. Why are you here?" he asked suspiciously. Andy sighed and leaned back.

"Maybe because I love my job and perhaps because home is like hell." he muttered discontented, taking folder in hand. Provenza nodded and approached him.

"Come on, tell me. What can happen in such a nice day? Nicole turns 1 year old. What could be better than that?" he asked again. Andy threw the folder with anger and stood before him.

"I have problems with Sharon. She keeps blaming me that I didn't care for my son. I can't believe she's so selfish. Yeah, I think about my lost son and my pain is huge. But that doesn't mean that I don't love Nicholas. He is everything to me. My life would be too unbearable without my son. " he said discontented, looking around. Fortunately, almost the entire team was on a crime scene. Provenza sighed and shook his head.

"Flynn, don't get me wrong, but perhaps Sharon's right. Now, a whole year you talk about your lost son. You behave quite coldly with all and maybe Sharon doesn't like this coldness. Understand me, we continue to look for your son, but you must realize the fact that you have Nicholas. Now you should be happy because he is with you. You should be grateful that you get this chance. " he said firmly. Andy took a deep breath and put his hands in his pockets.

"Okay, I admit. I was rough with Sharon and couldn't devote enough time to my little son. But I love my children Provenza and you know this very well. I love my children more than anything. My issues with Sharon doesn't end I think that soon I'll lose my composure and patience. I'm tired of these conflicts. " he said, frowning. Provenza squeezed his shoulder.

"Let's not talk such things today. You know, I'm excited about that I'll see the little boy tonight. Come on, if you're here, come with me to the crime scene." he said sternly. Andy grinned and grabbed his jacket. In the meantime, Sharon, Rusty and Nicole were making final preparations for the party. Nicole and Rusty could feel that Sharon is quite distracted.

"Hey, Sharon, are you okay? You seem distracted." Nicole noted with concern. Sharon took a deep breath.

"I think of Emily and Ricky. They can't come to the party. Their brother has a birthday, but they can't be here." she said sadly. Nicole and Rusty looked at each other. Rusty took her hand with a slight smile.

"Don't worry Mom, they said that they will come in a few weeks. They just can't leave their work. But I assure you, the party will be wonderful." he said contentedly. Sharon chuckled softly and kissed him tenderly on the cheek. Suddenly, Nicole's phone rang and she grabbed her purse.

"Uh ... Sharon, I have to go now. I need to see Dean and the boys. But don't worry, we'll be here in time for the party. Kiss my brother." she said hurriedly and left. Rusty went into his room while Sharon sat on the couch thoughtfully, leaning back. She thought a few times. Who was Andy for her? Just the father of her son. They weren't even married and for Sharon, it was also kind of sin. But how could she marry a man who behaves so coldly and avoids her permanently? She'd begun to believe that the love between her and Andy melts with each passing day. When she looked into his eyes, she couldn't find the same warmth. As if he wasn't the same Andy with whom she had fallen in love. She took a deep breath and grabbed a pillow in her hands. She tried not to think about such things, at least today, but she didn't know what to do. This whole life with Andy seemed to have no meaning. She wanted to be with him and help him to find his son, but he just avoided her constantly. She hated the fact that he stays away from their son who needed a father's love. She felt that Andy is distracted constantly and that he is not the same Andy. She went into the nursery as only her little son could comfort her. She took Nicholas in her arms, kissing him gently. He smiled at his mother and grabbed her hair with his little hands. Sharon grinned and at that moment, someone knocked on the door. She wasn't surprised seeing Andrea, but she'd forgotten that she'll come earlier.

"Well, I decided to surprise you. Do you want me to help you?" she asked, entering inside. Sharon smiled and shook her head, holding her son in her arms.

"No, no need. Rusty and Nicole helped me and everything is ready." she assured. Andrea took Nicholas in her arms and kissed him on the cheek, then looked at Sharon carefully. She could see that her friend is quite distracted.

"Sharon, are you sure you're okay? I have a feeling that you're not happy. But you should be, because this little angel will celebrate his first birthday." she said anxiously. Sharon looked at her son and took a deep breath.

"Andrea, I feel terrible. This morning I had an argument with Andy. Okay, I admit it. I started the dispute, but I couldn't be quiet. He is behaving coldly with me and with everyone because of his lost son. I try to be with him and help him find his lostson, but he constantly avoided me. And besides, he is not so concerned about Nicholas as before. It hurts me. " she admitted. Andrea hushed quietly and squeezed her hand.

"Sharon, calm down, please. Andy loves his son. Don't think like that especially today. Today your son has a birthday. Let this day be happy." she said encouragingly. Sharon smiled slightly and agreed. However, Andrea was right. The party passed as Sharon had planned. All guests were thrilled to celebrate Nicolas' first birthday and give him gifts. Sharon was pleased to see that her team is quite excited even more than her. She could feel that everyone is happy. The funniest part was when Nicholas flipped into the cake and Sharon had to clean up the mess. Fortunately, Andy had forgotten about all his problems for a moment. He enjoyed the lovely evening together with his son. Sharon could see that father and son are happy together as it should be, but why only this night? Sharon wanted Andy to be happy always, as tonight. After all the guests had left, Sharon took her son to the nursery and returned to the living room to clean around. She saw Andy, who sat pensively on the couch. She took a deep breath and bit her lip, watching him carefully.

"And what's the problem this time?" she asked dissatisfied. Andy looked at her coldly and sighed. He stood up and stood before her. Sharon looked at his brown eyes which were filled with disappointment.

"What do you want me to say? That I think about my lost son again. When we celebrated Nicholas' first birthday, I realized that I never got that chance with my eldest son. You don't know how I feel right now." he said quietly, but behind his words there was pain. Sharon swallowed the lump in her throat and shook her head.

"You're wrong. I understand your pain perfect. But you don't want to understand what I feel when you're so far away from me and when you act so coldly to me. Andy, I can't find the same man with whom I fell in love . You're not the same Andy, whom I know. You keep ignoring me and I already can't stand it. I don't want conflicts exactly today, but you keep talking about the same thing. " she said angrily. Andy rolled his eyes and shook his head.

"Sharon, I'm sorry, but I want to find my son. I want to know where he is now and with whom. Sorry, maybe I really hurt you, but I love my kids. Nicholas is all about me and believe me, I will never leave him alone. "He said firmly, and asked to go into the bedroom to escape the awkward conversation, but Sharon grabbed his hand and stopped him.

"Andy, I don't know what happened between us and I'm trying to understand. Who are you to me? We've been together for two years now, but we're not married. We're not even engaged and for me it is a sin . I live with a man with whom I am not married. I wanted to be your wife, but you gave me a thousand reasons to not believe you. " she said with bitterness in her words. Andy closed his eyes for a moment.

"Yes, I'm aware of that. But you also gave me a thousand reasons to leave you but I didn't. You'd slept with Jack when we had a relationship. You lied to me and made me live in fear that Nicholas is not mu son. We had to do stupid tests to find out the truth. No, Sharon. You hurt me deeply and if you want to know the truth. I'm only here because of my son. I don't want to have a relationship with you. " he said firmly and walked to the nursery. Sharon's eyes filled with tears. She couldn't believe that Andy was behaving that way ...

~~~ TBC ~~~