Chapter 28
Sharon wept quietly and went into the bedroom. She locked the door and sat on the floor. She couldn't believe that Andy tells her things like that and that he didn't feel anything for her. He didn't want a relationship with her and she has just couldn't understand in what delusion she lived for a year. On the other hand, Andy was embraced his little son, who was fast asleep. He was grateful that he had the chance, and he knew that Nicholas is the most beautiful gift in his life. He kissed his son dearly and put him back in the crib, then walked to the bedroom. He tried to open the door but it was locked. He knocked on the door several times, but no one answered. He began to worry.
"Sharon? Are you all right? Why is the door locked? Sharon, can you hear me?" he asked several times, but Sharon didn't give him an answer, and it made him worry even more. Hearing his cries, Rusty came to him worried.
"Andy, what's happening? Why do you scream?" he asked immediately.
"Sharon has locked the door, but don't know why. Rusty, go to the nursery, please. Don't let Nicholas alone." he said firmly. Rusty nodded and walked to the nursery. Andy continued to knock furiously on the door and finally Sharon opened the door. She looked pale and she had drops of tears on her cheeks. Andy felt bad seeing her that way. They went inside and shut the door. Andy stood before her, watching her carefully.
"Sharon, what's happening? Why you lock the door?" he asked sternly. Sharon looked at him coldly and wiped her tears.
"What would you do if you learn that you lived in complete illusion for a year?" she answered him with a question. Andy sighed wearily and looked at her more confused than ever. He knew that she had in mind his words. But what could he do?
"Sharon, I know you're sad because of what I told you. Yes, you're right, but I feel terrible. Yes, we love each other but love is not relationship. We hurt each other when we're together and I think that parting is our only way out. " he said sadly and looked into her green eyes. Sharon shook her head and bit her lip.
"I can't believe that you talk to me about separation so calmly. Don't worry, we're not married. Our separation will not be difficult, but I worry about my son. He's your son too and he needs you. I can't believe that you lied to me whole year. Why Andy? Because I had amnesia? " she almost shouted. Andy shushed softly and hugged her comfortingly. She wept on his shoulder, and as she hated to admit, Andy was her only consolation anyway. In his embrace she felt more relaxed.
"Sharon, look at me. I love you, but seeing that we hurt each other, I feel terrible and I want to go. Don't get me wrong. I'll always be close to our son and give him paternal love, but I can't live with you. I don't want to hurt you. A year ago when you were on the verge of death, I thought a lot. I realized that I'm nothing without you and that to some extent I am to blame for your condition. But, I beg you, don't stop me now. I can't stay here. " he said softly and swallowed the lump in his throat, trying to hide his tears. Sharon's eyes filled with tears, but she couldn't tell him anything. Andy opened the wardrobe and took his clothes, then grabbed his suitcase. He was determined to leave. Sharon looked at him silently. She'd experienced the worst day in her life. He gathered his luggage and looked at her sadly.
"I can't believe that you decide to go after your son's birthday. What a birthday ... My son is experiencing the worst first birthday because of you. You want to be a good father and fix the mistakes of the past? But you never will succeed running away from us. " she said angrily. Andy took a deep breath and closed his eyes for a moment.
"Sharon, I don't leave my son. I'll always be near him, but I can't live with you. There are some things, I can't explain. We both have unforgivable mistakes and mortal sins. Let's split up while it's not too late. " he said quietly and walked toward the door. He went to the nursery to see his son before he left, then he took his suitcase and walked away without saying anything more. Sharon closed the door tightly. At this point, Rusty stood before her, watching her carefully.
"Mom, what's happening? Where did go Andy?" he asked, more confused than ever. Sharon took a deep breath and bit her lip. She went to Rusty and squeezed his shoulder.
"Don't worry, he didn't go forever nor he left his son. He just knew what I couldn't. Anyway. Let's sleep. I'll tell you everything tomorrow." she assured. Rusty nodded and went to his room while Sharon went into the nursery and took her son in her arms. She needed him tonight. She went back into her bedroom with Nicholas.
"Little one, I'm sorry that you had to spend such a terrible first birthday. Forgive me. Your mother makes mistake after mistake." she murmured softly to the little boy and kissed him gently. During this time, Andy went back into his apartment and threw the keys. He left his suitcase next to the door and went into the living room. One year later ... He was here one year later ... He didn't know how he feels. But according to him, it was the right decision. He didn't want to hurt Sharon. He sat on the couch thoughtfully, thinking that it was a mistake. Apparently, it was another mistake, but he had no choice. The next morning, Sharon prepare breakfast for Rusty and sat down to feed her little son. Rusty sat down sleepily. He looked around and he couldn't see Andy.
"Mom, Andy is not here again." he said anxiously. Sharon took a deep breath and looked at him.
"Rusty, he no longer lives here. We decided that the separation is the best solution for us. He will always be close to Nicholas, just we don't live together that's all." she explained hastily. Rusty's eyes widened. He couldn't believe that they are separated again. He looked at his little brother and turned his attention to his mother.
"Mom, why are you doing this? You love each other. Why?" he asked several times. Sharon took Nicholas in her arms and shrugged.
"Rusty, as I said, there are things that I can't explain it. Please don't ask me stupid questions." she said discontented, and went into her bedroom. Rusty took a deep breath and shook his head. He couldn't believe that they have to relive it again. Sharon couldn't share her pain with Andrea, as she had to go to see her sick mother. She felt worse than ever. On the other hand, Andy was in the department and he'd told all to Provenza in the restroom. Provenza couldn't believe that his friend made similar nonsense. He just made mistake after mistake.
"My God, Flynn! You make mistake after mistake! I can't believe that you want separation from Sharon just after your son's birthday. No, it's just unique. You're an idiot!" he said angrily. Andy rolled his eyes, dissatisfied and took a deep breath.
"Provenza, stop blaming me. The fact that I'll live in another home doesn't mean that I will be away from my son. I'kk always be close to Nicholas. Why no one wants to understand me?" he almost shouted. Provenza turned his head and glared at him.
"You know what? Do what you want, I don't want to know anything about you and your personal life. I can't believe that my friend is such an idiot. You love Sharon and you want separation! You're a fool who leaves his son. You'll regret it. " he said firmly, and left. Andy closed his eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. His life couldn't be more horrible. This afternoon, Sharon decided to go out together with Nicholas. Rusty decided to be friends and she wasn't going to be home alone. She was grateful that Rusty is with him and that he was like his son. She loved when he called her Mom. Sharon walked pensively along with her son. Suddenly, she met a big surprise. Brenda stood before her, looking at her with a smile. She hugged Sharon unable to believe that they see each other after so much time.
"Sharon, I can't believe that I see you after so much time." Brenda said with a smile.
"Me too. Brenda, when you arrived in LA? I thought that you're still in New York with Fritz." Sharon said confused. Brenda sighed wearily and shrugged.
"Fritz will be back in a few days. I decided to surprise the team and I wanted to see you." she explained hurriedly and looked at the little boy in Sharon's arms. She smiled softly.
"And this little boy? I guess it is our little baby Flynn." Brenda said with a grin. Sharon smiled and looked at her son.
"Absolutely. Brenda, I think we need to talk. There are many things that you don't know." Sharon said quietly, looking at her sadly. Brenda was surprised and both decided to go to a cafeteria to be able to talk in peace. Brenda couldn't believe what is happening between Sharon and Andy.
"Sharon, I can't believe what you say. I can't believe that Andy could ask seperation and leave you alone with your son." Brenda said sadly. Sharon took a deep breath and shrugged.
"I have no idea. But he is like a living corpse, since he learned that his firstborn son is alive. I want to be with him and help him find his son, but he avoids me constantly. He says that he loves me but he consistently avoids me. " she said discontented, holding Nicholas in her arms. Brenda sighed wearily and took her hand.
"Sharon, I'm in LA and if I am here, I will do everything possible to improve your relationship. I don't want controversy, since I know very well how stubborn you are either. So, please, let me do it what I think that will be good for you. " she said firmly and encouragingly. Sharon took a deep breath and agreed. Nevertheless, she didn't want to lose Andy and she had to think about their son. Several hours later, Brenda made a surprise visit to the team. Everyone was happy to see chief Johnson after so much time. After long conversations with them, Brenda decided to talk to Flynn and both went into the restroom. Andy knew very well that Brenda spoke to Sharon and she will give him strong advice.
"Lieutenant Flynn, coming to LA I was unpleasantly surprised. I thought that you were a man who stands behind his words. I never would have thought that you will decide to leave Sharon and your son alone. What do you want to do?" she asked sternly. Andy took a deep breath and put his hands in his pockets.
"I just want peace. I love Sharon, but when we are together, we hurt each other. I don't want that. Yes, I know I can't live without her and I'm nothing without her, but I don't want to hurt her. She'd done an unforgivable sin, and I can't forget about it. It's not so easy. " he replied sadly. Brenda took a deep breath and shook her head.
"Andy, that doesn't mean anything. Sharon told me everything. But I think that this punishment is too much for her. She has your son. You have to be with her and your son, whatever happens. Listen to me and do this which is true. " she said firmly. Andy closed his eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. It was not so easy. At night, Sharon was fast asleep, while Rusty had decided to stay with friends for the weekend. Knock on the door, woke her suddenly. Sharon looked at the clock and was surprised. Who can come so late? Not to wake her son, she decided to check who it was. Opening the door, she fell into shock. It was 3am and Andy stood before her, watching her guilty...
~~~ TBC ~~~