I don't really get any reviews and there is barely any Maddison fans out there, so I'm like one of the very few people to still ship them. Actually I decided to make Addison a bit younger so now she's 38 instead of 42 and Emma's now 20/21, and she's in college. This is only flashbacks because I am trying to resolve my writers block, fun stuff will be next chapter. There is a flashback that never takes place in the show so it is AU and set in Season 3, after 3x9 and it includes a miscarriage plus I'm also pretending that the conceival is in 3x02 before McDreamy shows up during the whole shower sex that we never got to see.
"I don't want him. I want to continue College." Emma cried.
"I know, I know." Addison stroked her red hair in an attempt to comfort her daughter, who she barely knows besides giving birth to her, only to never see her again.
"Where's Dad?" Emma continues to cry. "I want Dad."
"Well, he's here. Your Father's here, and he's gonna be here in just a few minutes."
"I don't want him. I don't want any of this, I don't want a baby, I just want to go home. I want my life back, I want to go home."
Twenty-One years later, she never thought this is where she would end up. Thirty-eight, divorced, dating the ex-husband's best friend, has a twenty year-old daughter with said best friend, and raising their grandson together. They didn't agree on much. In fact, they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time, and they challenged each other every day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other.
"I don't care what Sam says. This is ideal." Mark said as they laid in her bed after sex.
"What did Sam say?" Addison asked concerned and adjusted the sheets. She was at the end of the bed.
"Forget about Sam. This is ideal. Three parents- No one gets overwhelmed, Everyone still gets to have a life, Red."
"Mark. This is our second chance. Don't you see it? What if there wasn't a baby?"
"Why? What happened?" he was worried.
"Nothing. Nothing happened. The baby's fine, our daughter is fine. It's just, what...What if Emma changed her mind or there wasn't a baby, would you still want to move down here, Join the practice, be with me? Because you keep asking, and you paint a pretty picture. And I'm just lonely enough and I'm just scared enough and I'm just freaked out enough that if you ask me again...I might say yes. So I'm asking you not to ask me again If it's not about me. If you're just heartbroken or in love with someone else or you just want me to help you with a baby that you may or may not be able to raise, even though it's my grandchild too...Don't ask me. Because I don't know...Anything. I don't know...Anything anymore, except, I can't fall in love with a man who's in love with someone else. That much I know. I can't do that again. So please, if you're still in love with the Grey girl, then go back to Seattle. But if you're not... I mean, if you're serious, and you want me, then ask again." she assured him.
"Red, will you move back to Seattle and raise this baby with me?"
"Yes!" she exclaimed and moved over to where he was.
"God, I love you." he smiled and began to kiss her.
"I love you too."
They made love again that night.
She wanted something else, something different, something more. Passion and romance perhaps, or maybe conversations in candlelight rooms, or something as simple as not being second.
November 2006.
"Oh my god, you need to wake up." Addison said as she saw blood and had excruciating pain.
"Addie baby, go back to bed." Mark replied sleepily as he pulled her back onto the bed.
"It's our baby, Mark." she felt another pain go through her body.
As soon as she said that, he jumped out of bed and carried her to his car in the pouring rain.
Mark ran to the desk of SGH with Addison in his arms. He didn't know what he would do if they lost their baby, especially since it was their second chance after she aborted the first baby in New York.
"Can I help you Doctor Sloan?" the nurse at the desk asks.
For once, he was glad that none of their friends were there. "Um yes, it's my girlfriend. She's nine weeks pregnant. There is cramping and blood."
"OK we will run an ultrasound." the nurse informed him.
"We can't find a heartbeat. I'm so sorry to say that you lost the baby."
Addison began to cry and Mark held her close to him as they mourned the loss of their unborn child.
Nothing would ever be the same anymore, neither would their relationship. They tried to make it work but then it was the supposed to-be birthdate of their aborted child, the sixty-day pact, the sex with Karev, and her moving to Los Angeles in the next months which left the both of them heartbroken.
It was inevitable.
A person can get used to anything if given enough time.
All the tests were positive. Great, this is just what I needed. she laughed at that and the breakdown of their three year relationship, even though that was more Bizzy's fault than anyone else's.
"Anyone here?" Savvy asked as she threw her purse down and her friend came out. "I found this great guy for you, maybe we could all go on a date. Me and-" she trailed off.
"Savvy, I'm pregnant!" Addison blurted out.
"What did you say?"
"I'm pregnant."
"Oh, Addie. That's amazing." she hugged her best friend. "When?" she asked knowing that her friend was still devastated over her breakup with Mark.
"Three weeks before I moved."
"When did you find out?" Savvy questioned.
"Right before you came in." Addison explained. "Bizzy is going to kill me. She didn't like Mark as it is and now I'm having his baby. I'm only seventeen." she smiled a little.
"Hey, your mother is not going to kill you. If anything, it is more her fault." Savvy hugged her.
You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don't know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have.
Derek and Richard are walking through the hall of the hospital.
"The police haven't found anything on our Jane Doe." Richard said.
"I believe she calls herself Ava now." Derek replied.
"Yes, well, she doesn't seem to be getting her memory back." Richard agrees.
"Well, now that the rest of her medical problems are taken care of I'll see what I can do."
"That'd be great, thanks."
Mark walks up. "Anybody seen Addison?" he asked.
"She's gone." Richard informed him.
"Gone?" Mark is surprised.
"She took a leave of absence."
"Why? I mean, did she tell you why?"
"What'd you do to her, Mark?" Derek questioned.
"She didn't give a reason." Richard answered.
"Did she tell you where she was going?" Mark asks.
"All she said was she needed some time...to be happy and free if I recall correctly. Excuse me." Richard exits.
"Of course." Mark muttered as their chief of surgery exits.
"What?" Derek asked even though he knew where this was going.
Mark began to explain all the details of the past few months. "Right after you two divorced, we found out she was pregnant and we were so excited but she wanted to keep it a secret before the 12th week so we kept it a secret. But at the ninth week, she had a miscarriage. It-it was our second chance at parenthood after-" he stopped before he could reveal the abortion knowing it still brought up painful memories. "Our relationship was never the same again."
The screen changes to Addison in her car driving down the interstate. She is grinding gears as she goes and finally arrives at a building. The sign out front reads Oceanside Wellness Group. She nearly gets run over by bicyclists while attempting to take her jacket off and enter the building. She gets into the elevator and a guy, Pete, gets in after her. She begins laughing.
She had come back into his life like a sudden flame, blazing and streaming into his heart. Mark stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony he knew would be his if he were to lose her four times.
"Do you ever get used to this view?" Mark asked.
"No." Addison replied immediately.
"This is so beautiful. I've always wanted to learn to surf. I mean, do you ever get used to this view?" He gave a smile.
"Mark, your little girl is not ready to be a mother. How's she gonna handle it the first time the baby spits up in her mouth?" Naomi questions, wondering about their two friend's sanity.
"I'm gonna be there with her, every step of the way. Maybe Red too." Mark assured them.
"Really? How are you gonna handle spit up in the mouth? It happens quite frequently." Sam stated.
"I can handle it. I grew up, you guys. You all ran off to live on the beach, And... I went and grew up on you." He defended himself.
"OK, now that's just crazy talk." Naomi pointed out.
"I think I might move here." Mark said.
"What?" Addison questioned, astonished by her ex-boyfriend.
"I could join your practice. This is L.A. I'm a plastic surgeon. I'd bring in a fortune. And you could help me raise the baby, since it is your grandson too." Mark inquires.
"Are you out of your mind?" she asked him.
"Please tell me you're not...Serious." Sam exclaims.
"Addison and I are good together. Tell him." Mark answered.
"Mark..." Addison began.
"Lexie... like you said, she's a kid. But you. You know me. You get me. You all do. You're my friends- My old friends, my good friends. And this? This feels right. It feels really right." He interrupted.
On and off romances end for all kinds of reasons. But when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: They are shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity. And in a flash, they're gone.
This is during Ex-Life.
"What are you gonna do, Red?" Mark asked as they stood in the hallways of SGH.
"I don't know." Addison answered.
"We're back to that? Are we back there? What about the past couple of days? They happened, you know." he replied.
"I know that they happened, and they were wonderful. But they were also very irresponsible. I have friends waiting for me at a hotel and a brother who was in a hospital bed who's going to be crushed when they find out what I did." she said.
"So you make love to me, and go back to Los Angeles. Was that your plan? Was that a test I didn't pass?"
"No, I made a promise to people. They gave me a job and I gave them my word."
"And your word is shot to hell now, don't you think?"
"I don't know. I'll find out when I talk to them."
"This is not about keeping your promise, and it's not about following your heart. It's about security."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"Money!"
"What are you talking about?"
"They have a lot of money."
"Now I hate you, you smug bastard."
"Well, I hate you. If you leave here, I hate you."
"Have you been paying attention to anything that's happening?"
"I guess not, I think I must have misread all of those signals."
"Well I guess you did!"
"You're bored! You're bored and you know it! You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing."
"You arrogant son of a bitch."
"Would you just stay with me?"
"Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fighting."
"Well, that's what we do! We fight! You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ass, which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. They have, like, a two second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing."
"So what?"
"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Can you do something for me? Please? Will you just picture your life for me? Thirty years from now? Forty years from now? What's it look like? If it's with those friends, go. Go! I lost you twice. I think I can do it again if I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."
"What easy way? There is no easy way. No matter what I do, somebody gets hurt!"
"Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants?! Stop thinking about what I want, what they want, what your parents want. What do you want? What do you want?"
"It's not that simple!"
"What do you want? Goddammit, what do you want?" He kissed her.
"I have to go."
"No." he pulled her into an empty on-call room, pinned her to a wall, and started undressing her.
Thoughts please? I'm dedicating the story to hushedgreylily who also writes amazing Maddison stories too. This is probably a bit sad but I was running out of ideas and I wanted to explore more of their past. If I get some reviews and suggestions, I promise it won't take me 4 days even though I don't think anybody is really reading it because there is only 146 views and 3 reviews in comparism to other stories. I think I am the biggest Maddison shipper in the whole wide world, OMG. They are so hot and the best pairing of the show. The other characters will be featured in the coming chapters. I love the episode If Then even though the pairings such as Addek(especially because they are my least favorite couple and their pairing is not very liked anyways), April/Alex, and Callie/Owen were pretty stupid even though I loved the Cristina/Meredith at the end, Calzona having chemistry, MerDer in the bar, Jackson/Lexie, Richard/Ellis, Richard being Meredith's dad, and Alex/Meredith but the best part of the episode is when we find out Addison is actually pregnant with Mark's baby. That was freaking awesome and shows that all the couples who are meant to be are meant to be. Review.