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* That english is not my first langues so there are going to be a few spell errors.

* My chapters are never going to be very long, that way i can keep it going and don't get bored.

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Mikey snorted. His mind was clouded, he never felt flustered like this before. Never by anyone else that...

Yes, everyone else that Raphael. His own brother. Mikey had despiced himself for having those feelings and hide them deep inside him till this day. But sometimes they would surface for just a moment.

"Anoying..." Mikey mumbled to himself, his eyes focused on the ceilling. Yes, these feeling where anoying. They should't not exist. It's incest. He shut his eyes tightly. A single though strike him.

He sat up slowly. His hand moved over his mouth as he gasped slightly. Maybe...

Maybe Cole could be Mikey's cure to these rotten feeling he had. That stern violet pair of eyes that left a haunting feeling over him. He shivered at the though of those eyes again.

He felt relieved yet his chest felt hurting. These feeling.. Are bad right? I can't take it. I need to see Cole again soon. He will cure me.

Another though comes to his mind. A grin crawled into his lips. The only way to forget about those feelings are to fall in love and be rejected...

To be in love and rejected. Maybe, the chance that rejection will overrule these rotted dirty feeling mikey had. It will hurt but it's better then now.

"Rejection..." Mikey mumbled. The words sounded so cold to him. His eyes casted down to his lap. Will he reject me..? "Cole..." He said thinking.

"Who's Cole?" A rough voice asked. Mikey jerked his head up to see Raphael. Mikey remained silence as he stared at Raphael. He stepped closer, leaning over the coach as he looked straigh at Mikey.

"Well...?" Raphael said, his voice sounded deeper than usual.

Mikey swallowed thickly. His chest hurted. I will lose those feeling of love for Raphael in place of the feeling of rejection, huh?

Mikey turned to look at his lap. "Cole is..." He mumbled unsure. Raphael eyes burned with curieusty.

Mikey shut his mouth tight, and smiled at Raphael. If he was going to be miserable he might at well enjoy those moment right now. These rotten feeling that will be crushed by rejection can now flow freely for a moment untill he will see Cole again.

"Cole is someone who's a secret." He whispered softly, just able for Raphael to hear. He might as well enjoy teasing Raphael, after all he's his big brother.

"Mikey, you bette-"
"Now now Raphael!" Mikey interrupted him. Raphael went silence at the mention of his full name. Someting was wrong.

"It's not nice to pry in your little brother's private life, right?" Mikey stated. He had a smile, but it just seemed weird to Raphael.

"Mikey, what's wrong with you?" He asked, his voice sounding rougher then intended. No, he did't wanted to say it so harsh. "I mean.. Uhh.."

Mikey just watched his big brother struggle over his words. He felt relieved right now. Raphael was worried about him right now. Mikey felt so relieved, yet his chest kept hurting so much that he wanted to cry.

"Raphael. I... " mikey pauzed to take a breath. "I will be fine. There's just something that i have to sort out."

"And what's that?" Raphael asked, not missing a heartbeat. Mikey watched him for a moment, thinking how to answer.

"That's..." Mikey said, unsure how to answer. "It's something you cannot help me with. " he stated, mikey looked up at Raphael. "Please, give it a rest now okay?"

Raphael looked angry. He growled as he turned and left for the tunnel. Mikey exhaled relieved. "That was heavy..." He
Mumbled, closing his eyes.

"Why won't you tell him, Mikey?" Donnie said from his labdoor. "And what's this 'something' you need to do?" He asked. His eyes looked serieus yet worried. Don always had a special way of reading Mikey, and the other way around.

"What are you talking about, don?" Mikey asked, shifting away from him on the couch.

So this is the first part of the plot, but it's going to change soon guys hold on!