The next morning Sandra was already up and standing under the hot shower. She enjoyed it very much, as she did not get to it last night and could think about the last night. She gently put two of her fingers on her lips as she remembered Lavi's kisses and touches.
"Is this really happening?" She asked herself, still unable to believe she had "done it" last night. Her heart beat wildly in her breast and, despite the hot water, she got goose bumps. She longed for more, after wide kisses from him, his touches, just to feel his closeness. She knew she'd fallen in love with him.
"I ... I have to tell him ...", she thought completely excited. "How will he react? I hope it goes the same way after what was last night ... "

Lavi, who had awoken in the meantime, noticed that Sandra was no longer lying next to him in bed. He sat up and looked around the room, surprised, as her clothes were gone, except for her uniform, which was still lying on the other bed. His things were still scattered on the ground.
"Where is she gone?" He wondered. Then he heard sounds from the bathroom and knew that she was in the shower. He sighed with relief and looked toward the bathroom door. Directly he began to grin as he remembered the last night with her. He dropped back on the bed.
"I will not forget that night so quickly", he thought, relaxed, closed his eye, and watched this night again. Suddenly he heard in his mind, as Bookman once again pointed him, since a bookman is not allowed to build ties.
"Oh shit!", Lavi thought, jumping up, "how do I tell her this now? When the old man learns about it, I'm done. "He quickly dressed his things and pondered how to make her realize that the night had fallen with her, but he could not have a relationship with her.
"Hm ...?" Lavi went aimlessly through the room, wondering what he could tell her.
"Perhaps ... The night with you was really nice, but I can not be together with you ... Hm ... Ne, that does not sound good." He considered further how to make it clear to him that he is not allowed to enter into a Bookman , Even if he wanted it so much.
"It's not you, it's me ..." he began, then immediately decided against it and sighed.
"How about: Sweety, listen to me, I think you're really nice, but ...", he continued, then became more direct, "I'm sorry, but I can´t be with you."
"Eh ... what ...?", suddenly it came shocked from the direction of the bathroom. Sandra stood ready and showered in the door. She had heard what he had just said, and was visibly shocked at the fact that she now wanted to confess to him her feelings for her. Lavi turned to her and was visibly perplexed that he had heard her and looked directly at her and wanted to tell her so immediately what he had meant, but he did not.
"Then ... was that for you just one night and nothing more?" She asked, shocked.
"Sandra ... please ...", he began, "Let me explain ... So that what I meant ..." He took a step towards her.
"No, it's all right. I've already understood!", she said irritably, turned away from him and did not want to hear him anymore. She was visibly injured as she had not expected. Sandra walked past him dumbly, grabbed her uniform and ran out of the room.
"Sandra wait!" He called after her, but she was ready.
"Oh shit!" He shouted loudly into the room and sat down frustratedly on the bed. So he had not imagined the conversation with her.

Sandra ran aimlessly through the city. Somehow she disappeared into an alley, sank to the ground, and leaned against the wall. She pulled her knees to her body and leaned her head on it.
"Such an idiot", she murmured, and began to cry. "Why ... why did I fall in love with these idiots?" Sandra was too deeply hurt. Just now she began to trust him, even fell in love with him and then he dropped her after a night.
"How could I be so stupid?", she thought, "fall upon these women's wives ..." It was not otherwise their way to wrap themselves around the finger so easily. She had already regretted having let herself into it.
"This shit mission! If it were not, it would never have happened! "Sandra cried once, now she needed to process that pain in her chest. She felt terribly worn out, she was so happy this morning.
Suddenly her little black golem came and fluttered beside her.
"Hm?" Sandra raised her head from her knees and directed her tearstained blue eyes to the golem.
"A message from headquarters?", she murmured, wondering what Komui wanted from her. Sandra sat up, took the little golem, and went back to the city to listen to the news.

Lavi, who was still in the guest room, was now nervously pacing.
"Oh, what shall I do now?", he mused, "Should I search for her? But she probably does not want to talk to me." He sighed deeply. He only wanted to explain to her why he could not be together with her. He could not even explain why it had come so far at all. He really enjoyed that night with her, and he didn´t want to lose her, now that they had finally understood themselves better. Lavi finally decided to look for her and turned to the door when she suddenly stood there.
"Sandra ...", he said, looking at her, "There you are." There was a slight smile on his lips. He was visibly relieved that she had come back by herself.
"Where have you been? I have…"
"Komui has called. We should get back to headquarters right now," she said directly, interrupting him. Immediately she turned back to go.
"Eh ... Ok ... but ...", Lavi was completely perplexed. "Now wait!" He shouted at her, followed her and reached for her arm.
"Let me!" She hissed irritably, turned to him briefly and broke away from him. At that moment he saw her tearful eyes.
"She cried ... and it´s my fault ...", he thought sadly, looked down and let her go.

A little later they sat already in the train, in the direction of the Black Order. Sandra had sat in the seat row on the other side directly to the window and looked out so she did not have to look at Lavi. She was still too much hurt to talk to him. It made him very sad, right now, when he began to trust her and open her, even though he did not really know why he developed these feelings for her. His tear-eyed eyes did not go out of his head. He felt guilty because he knew it was because of him. He wanted to talk to her and explain it to her, but he left her alone, but now and then she looked over at her. So they did not talk a single word on the whole trip.

Even as they arrived at the order, Sandra still did not speak to him, did not even look at him. She went directly to Komui's office to report, Lavi followed suit. Together, they briefly reported on the course of their mission, leaving the personal details, of course, with Sandra still avoiding Lavi directly speaking or watching him. It was immediately apparent that there was a tense between the two tensions.

Then Sandra left the office immediately and went to her room without any detours. Lavi looked after her and sighed.
"So you're back. How was the mission. Have you been able to find something?", suddenly a rough voice came up beside him.
"Eh ... What?" Lavi turned around, frightened, "Old Panda! What are you creeping at?"
"I've been here for a long time! Where are you again with your thoughts? Now answer my question!"
"Boah it´s fine," he murmured, "There was nothing special ... just as usual ..." This meant he was defeating Akuma and finding Innocence. Nothing really spectacular, which would interest a Bookman.
"And this girl? Could you find out something about her? ", Bookman asked.
"No, I could not", he lied and he himself did not even know why, "Was it that now?" Lavi was visibly irritated by Bookman's question. He certainly did not want to talk about her now, and especially not tell Bookman what had happened between them.
"All right, go for a rest", Bookman dismissed, as Lavi went to his room.

The next morning Allen, of course, with lots of food, sat down at Lavi's table in the dining room.
"Hey Lavi. I've heard from Lenalee that you and Sandra have been back since, "he said, beginning to eat.
"Oh, hey Allen", Lavi said, not at all enthusiastic, poking around more in his food than eating something of it.
"Hm? Everything okay?", Allen asked while his mouth was full of food.
Lavi sighed. "Yes ... Sure ..."
"Really?" Allen asked, swallowing down his food, "But you don´t look like."
"It´s ok ...", Lavi said, looking down at his plate.
Allen spotted Sandra at one of the other tables and wondered why she was not sitting at Lavi, although the two were just on a mission together. Immediately saw Allen Lavi annoyed.
"What have you done?"
"I didn´t do anything!", Lavi hissed irritably, which was clearly a lie.
"Come on, tell me now. Something was wrong", Allen said worried.
"Let me", said Lavi annoyed, "I do not want to talk about it."
"Oh okay ... If you mean", Allen then left him alone and shoved his food into himself.
Lavi watches as Sandra leaves the room. Immediately he jumped up.
"I'll be right back!" He shouted to Allen and ran off.
"Oh okay ...", Allen said, wondering what was wrong with him. "What is he doing?"

Lavi followed Sandra across the passage when he'd caught her.
"Sandra!", he shouted, "Please wait!"
At last she stopped and turned to him.
"What is it?" She asked him annoyed.
"Please listen to me", he looked at her imploringly, "Let me explain."
"What? What do you want to explain? "
"Why I said that ... Why I can´t be with you."
"And? Do I want to know it?", she asked irritably.
"It is not that I do not want to ... And that I did not like it ...", he began to explain calmly.
"But?" She raced, looking at him expectantly.
"I can´t be in a relationship as a bookman", he said sadly, looking down, "The Bookman are there to capture the story and remain unbound. That's why I wanted to talk to you yesterday morning ..."
"I Understand ...", she said sadly. "So that means it´s over?"
"Yeah ... I'm sorry ...", he said with a heavy heart.
"Alright ...", she tried to smile, but the first tears came into her eyes, "it´s okay."
Lavi saw her tears in her blue eyes. Too much tore him the heart to see her. How gladly he wanted to embrace her now and hold her close.
"Sandra ...", he said, and suffered the same way as she did. Lavi was about to say something, but she could no longer hold her tears and ran to her room, crying. Sadly, he looked after her, then he also went to his room. There, leaning against the door, he sank to the ground.
"Shit ...", he murmured as tears came into his eye. There was an inner conflict in him. As much as he wanted her, he knew he could not be with her.