authors note: sorry for the delay in posting I hope you're enjoying this story so far! This chapter is short and I haven't had time to edit so I'm sorry for any mistakes. Anyway enjoy chapter 4! :)
Four months later:
It's been four months since Jake and I went on our first date, four months since we became official and four months since my life became better than I thought it would be well until a few days ago.
Jake and my relationship has been going strong i haven't had a romantic thought about Eli in three months and I couldn't be happier about that it was supposed to make our friendship stronger and prevent me from losing him altogether but I think I might lose him anyway and I don't even know why.
His relationship with Julia seem to be well toxic if they aren't having sex they are fighting that's pretty much all they do ever do anymore. They were happy at first and then things slowly deteriorated but when she had an abortion behind his back is when things really fell apart for them. I couldn't believe she did that it was pretty low Eli didn't even know until he found the papers in her room. He was so pissed off I've never seen him act so hostile I was even scared for Julia but somehow they are still together.
Eli however has been odd lately he just doesn't seem himself and I feel like our friendship is slowly falling apart. We don't talk like we used to or spend time together really other than school i miss him so much it's insane, I think I'm gonna talk to him tonight after I leave the party.
The party is at Jake's in about an hour hopefully I can come up with a reason to leave he gets kind of irritated with me easily sometimes and he can be somewhat controlling I suppose but it's nothing bad just a little much sometimes.
I begin getting ready when halfway through curling my hair I hear my phone Buzzing. Curious as to who it is calling I place my curling iron down and walk over to my bed where my phone is lying, when I read the name on the screen to say I'm surprised would be an understatement.
"Hey Julia, everything okay?" I answer skeptically. Julia and I are friends now but after the abortion situation we haven't been very close we never call or text.
"Hey Clare. Have you talked to Eli? He isn't answering my calls or text since our fight in the hall today" she asks worriedly. I feel for her.
Their fight today was one of the worst, I'm not sure what started it but I remembering hearing Eli yell at Julia that she was a lying baby killer true or not that has to hurt. I think she did what she thought was best for her but just went the wrong way about it. Eli calling her that was a low blow.
"No I haven't I'm sorry Julia. I have to go though bye." I apologize before hanging up i would have talked to her but I don't want to be late to Jake's party he might get upset with me.
After getting dressed in a knee length flowy black dress paired with my jean jacket and black flats I go straight to Jake's house arriving right on time.
"Hey baby" He greets me with a kiss I'm taken back a little when I smell alcohol already on his breath
"You smell Jake" I state flatly.
"lighten up, here." He says handing me a beer I think for a moment but decide one beer won't hurt so i take it and start to sip.
"It taste awful Jake"
"But it'll make you feel wonderful" He laughs before taking my hand and walking me to the living room where the party is mostly happening.
After a few beers i have to admit I'm feeling breezy and the taste doesn't even bother me now. Jake and I have been dancing for the past half hour and admittedly it's gotten a bit heated. One minute we're dancing while he's placing sloppy kisses on my neck and the next thing I know he's carried me up to his room and I'm being tossed on his bed.
I don't think much of it Jake and I have made out in his bed before but when I feel him hike my dress up exposing more of my body than I'm comfortable with him seeing I start to feel a bit uneasy however I let it slide that is until I feel his hand start lightly rubbing my personal area.
"Jake stop!" I pant breathlessly my hearts racing.
"Come on clare, you love me right?" He says continuing his actions.
"Yes but, I'm not ready Jake" I say firmly as I push him off of me.
"Whatever you're so uptight Clare just leave and call me when you get that stick out of your ass." He shouts angrily before storming out.
In a flash I'm up off the bed I hurry up and pull my dress down not even considering the rest of my appearance before bolting out of Jake's house as fast as my legs will take me with tears streaming down my face i knock on the door of the only place I want to be right now. In what felt like hours but was merely a few seconds the door swings open.
"Eli" I whisper quietly my lip trembling.
"Clare, what's wrong?" Eli asks concerned pulling me into his house careful not to hurt me.
"Ja-Jake he" I begin but can't finish because my voice gives out.
"What did he do? Did he hurt you? I'll kill him" Eli growls frightening me a bit.
"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you I'd never hurt you Clare you know that" He says softly pulling me into his chest.
Instead of questioning me anymore Eli takes me up to his room and we lay on his bed, he's running his hands through my hair while I rest my head on his chest. After what could have been hours Eli speaks up.
"So you smell like beer" He says giving me a questioning look with one eyebrow raised.
"Yeah I do" I giggle.
"So do you wanna tell me what happened?"
"I suppose" I sigh. He gives me a look telling me to continue so I take a deep breath and tell him everything that happened tonight.
"What a dick." Eli says after listening to what happened.
"Tell me about it. I didn't realize sex was mandatory to love someone" I joke.
"If that was the case we should have done that a long time ago" Eli laughs.
"That would be so weird wouldn't?" I ask rhetorically.
"You never know" He wiggled his eyebrows flirtatiously.
"Wanna find out" I joke moving my lips inches away from his waiting for a response however I'm completely flabbergasted by the response he gives me.
He presses his lips against mine and slowly kisses kissed me I know it's wrong I'm still dating Jake and he's dating Julia but I kiss him back anyway. The kids feels just as memorizing as the last one. Eli moved swiftly so now he's hovering over me, he breaks the kiss and begins kissing my next expertly all I can do is bite my lip trying to hold back moans threatening to escape my lips.
I feel his hand move under my dress touching me the same way Jake had just hours before only with Eli it feels right my heart rate picks up in a good way and i feel tingles surge through my body. Things got heated so fast before I realize what's happening we're both completely naked with Eli still on top of me.
"Do you want to do this Clare? We can stop" He says sweetly before light kissing me.
I attempt to speak but words won't come out so i nod my head telling him I do what this. I know I should care that this is wrong but I don't think I can bring myself to stop now. I want this I want Eli; and that is exactly what I got.
Laying in Eli's bed cuddled to his bare chest I can't believe we just had sex. I admit I've imagined losing my virginity to him but never thought it would happen. It wasn't what I expected it was more uncomfortable than pleasurable but he did his best to be gentle and considerate. In the back of my mind however knowing I cheated on Jake is taunting me.