authors note- this story is about to take a bit of a dark turn so be cautions, also once again sorry or errors I don't have a beta and just don't have extra time to edit :(
Beep...Beep...Beep….
I hear the sound of my alarm waking me from my sleep, I roll over and smack it off the table that pretty much explains my outlook on today. I have to face Jake which means I have to either tell him and confess to my infidelity or lie and hope it doesn't somehow come out or eat me alive inside, this decision feels like a double edge sword either way I'm going to get stabbed.
I get up and throw on the first decent thing I can find not bothering with my hair or makeup or even showering gross I know but might as well look the part of how I feel. I grab my bag and start my journey to school skipping breakfast and any unwanted questioning from my mom. When I arrive at school the first thing I notice is Julia and Eli; Julia sends me a friendly wave whine Eli just glares at me both reactions making me feel like a terrible person.
"Hey Clare, what's up with him?" Adam greets questioning Eli's abnormal behavior.
"No-nothing" I lie. So Eli hasn't told him that's shocking.
"Clare I know you're lying just tell me we both know I'll eventually find out." He responds.
"Adam, I really can't it's a big deal." I say holding my ground.
"It's not like you two had sex or something" Adam laughs until he notice my guilty expression. "You and Eli had sex!" He practically shouts choking on his spit.
"Adam keep it down I don't need anyone finding out, Jake and Julia don't Know" I whisper.
"Well Julia might not but Jake does" Adam states worriedly.
"Wha-" I begin to ask
"He sure does" I hear Jake's voice appear the sounding infuriated sending a cold chill down my spine as I turn to see him standing behind me his eyes shooting daggers at me.
"Jake it was an accident." I say quietly.
"An accident? He asks rhetorically his voice calm but menacing "An accident!" he shouts this time stepping closer to me cause me to flinch.
"I swear I didn't mean too" I whisper not sure if he can hear it.
At this point we have the attention of quite a few people including Eli and Julia, I'm sure Eli knows what's going on but I doubt Julia does not that I can focus on that with Jake intimidatingly close to me full of rage. Poor Adam is standing here not sure what to do and I can feel myself shaking. Suddenly I feel myself hit the ground. Did Jake push me? My question is answered immediately by Eli being over to us in a flash lunging at Jake.
I stay on the ground in horror watching the scene unfold both of them have obvious animosity behind their hits I see blood unsure of of who it belongs to. Finally the fights broken up and Adam pulls me to my feet both Jake and Eli are fighting to get back to the other to continue their brawl until thankfully a teacher walks by.
"This isn't over Eli" Jake hollers before looking over to me. "Come on Clare" Jake calls for me anger still evident in his voice.
I looks at Jake seeing his nose dripping a little blood a scowl on his face glaring my way, then over to Eli; his lip is busted and he's raising his eyebrows at me questioningly probably confused as to why it's take me so long to tell Jake to take a hike. I see Adam waiting to see what happens and Julia nowhere in sight. I wonder if she knows but I wonder more why Eli Defended me. I take a deep breath before taking action.
I walk over to Jake shocking everyone, I hear Adam call me name sounding flabbergasted and disappointed. I feel Jake take a strong possessive hold on my wrist that will surely bruise badly by tomorrow then he yanks me roughly towards his truck. I give Eli an apologetic look knowing he probably feels betrayed that I went with Jake, even though our friendship is non existent right now probably even more so after this. We get a few steps before I hear Eli again.
"Clare, we might not be friends now and what you just did just now going with him is probably the biggest mistake you've ever made but, if he lays a finger on you and I find out I will hurt him. He assures glaring at Jake.
"The biggest mistake she made was you Eli." Jake laugh humorless before continuing to drag me towards his truck.
He forces me into his truck and starts driving, I have no idea where or what he's planning but I'm terrified. I don't know why I came with him, maybe the guilt of cheating feeling as if I deserve to be punished or maybe I was just in pure shock from what was taking place but, I already regret this decision. We arrive at Jake's and he tells me to get out of the car as we reach the door I feel my heart pumping, I follow him up to his room where he shuts the door.
"you're not gonna take to Eli again, got it?" He asks in a threatening way. I hesitantly shake my head not trusting myself to speak. "good, you wanna make it up to me right?" He says Stepping closer to me pushing my hair out of my face.
"Of course" I answer shakily. My nerves only get worse when I hear the sound of his belt being undone. What is he going to do to me? At this point I'm completely frightened.
"Then make me feel good" He says kissing Down my neck. "Get on your knees" he whispers tugging my hair hard.
I gulp trembling over what I'm about to do but listen to his demand In fear of what he might do if I resist. After we finish I feel disgusted with myself and what I just did. I no longer want to be with Jake but I don't feel like it's a choice anymore I'm afraid of him and what he's capable of. I walk home not wanting to go to school I feel to ashamed of myself.
When I get home I Look in the mirror before feeling bile rise from my gut I rush over to the toilet and empty my stomach. Once I finish I was my mouth thoroughly however I still feel gross. I decide to take a scalding hot shower not that any amount of washing will make me feel clean. Before going in my room I notice text from Adam and Jake, I ignore them and instead fall asleep in an attempt to escape my new nightmare of a reality.