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The next morning, I begin to dread seeing Finn. After my talk with Mum I thought about what would happen. I wondered if he'd tell me about him and Marina. I'm not sure what hurts more actually; the fact I saw the guy I like and the girl I hate making out or that he didn't tell me about it. Wow. The more I say it, the cheesier it sounds. I've only admitted it a couple of times. I like him. I have feelings for Finn. I laugh at little and shake my head.
My laugh turns into a sigh when there's a knock at the door.
"Good morning!" Finn's dressed in dark jeans and a long sleeved burgundy t-shirt. But the thing that makes my mouth go dry isn't the way his shirt clings to his muscles, it's his smile. His perfect white teeth peek out from behind his lazy half smile. I swallow, desperate to get some moisture into my mouth. "Ready to go?" I can only nod.
We make it to school faster than usual due to the fact that Finn was practically skipping the whole way. The initial pain of him not telling me has passed and has turned into irritation. My heart stops when he rushes down the opposite hallway without as much as a goodbye.
After that, the day passes painfully slowly. In English, I catch Marina and Finn making eyes at each other. I can't help but roll my own. What didn't help was that he was supposed to be helping me with our project. I end up doing most of the work by myself while he didn't think I noticed what he was doing.
When the lunch bell rings, I can't get out of the classroom fast enough. He doesn't even notice. I don't know why I expected him too. Marina notices though, as she gives me a triumphant smirk when I look over my shoulder.
I run down the steps to our tree, throw my bag down next to Maddie and sit with my arms crossed, breathing heavily.
"Are you okay, Rye?" asks Jack.
"I'm fine," I grumble, getting out my lunch. I know Maddie will get it out of me eventually or figure it out on her own, but for now, I really don't want to talk about it.
I sit and listen to Jack and Maddie's banter. I smile a couple of times. I'm happy that Maddie is finally happy with someone, I'm just hoping he'll hurry up and ask her out, although, I wouldn't mind a 'stuff your face and watch sad movies because boys suck' sleepover.
Maddie throws a grape at Jack and he catches it in his mouth. Both of them fall about laughing and he kisses her on the cheek, causing her to blush.
"I swear to god, if you two get any cuter I'm going to vomit rainbows," I state. Both of them flush bright red and mumble sorry. "Trade?"
Maddie and I begin to trade our food when a voice calls out.
"Good 'morrow, Faggots!" I smile at the familiarity of his voice. I say hi as he sits down next to me. "Ooh! Froot loops!" He reaches for the packet but Maddie slaps his hand away and snatches the small bag saying, "My froot loops," in a slight Gollum style manner.
"Jesus Christ, okay," says Leo, rubbing his hand slightly. "Oh, Jack, remember the game is next Friday."
Jack nods. "I know. I'm just trying to mentally prepare myself. If I drop the ball, I'll never hear the end of it from my Dad," he says somewhat glumly.
"You're going to be fine, dude. You haven't dropped it in practice once," Leo reassures him.
"No, but I ran so fast to catch that one throw that I couldn't stop and went head first into the bleachers!"
I can't help it. A laugh bubbles in my stomach and makes its way out of my lips. Maddie takes one look at me, tears brimming in her eyes before we're all rolling around with laughter.
"Uh, hey guys," says someone from behind me. We all turn and see Finn standing with an awkward smile, but I can see he's looking at Leo, a little confused. I jump slightly as I feel an arm go around my waist. Leo smiles at him.
"Alright, bro. What's up?"
"Um," he looks at me, then at the ground, then at anyone but me. "Is it cool if I sit?"
"Of course it is," says Jack, as if it was the most ridiculous thing Finn could have asked. Which I guess it was. He doesn't know that I know. Or does he? No, no that's ridiculous. Maybe it's just because I stormed out of English.
And maybe everything isn't about you, says the voice in my head. I almost laugh it's so true.
"You coming to the game, Finn?"
"Maybe. I'll see if my Dad'll let me," he says with a small shrug.
"Since when has Uncle Finnick not let you go to watch sports? The three of us used to watch the game all the time," I say with a confused look. But he just stares at me, as if the strangest thing just came out of his mouth. "Oh." He doesn't remember it. Of course he doesn't. I still forget that I faded from memory. "Never mind."
"You've got to come, dude. It's the first game of the season. Mad's going to wear my jersey," Jack says, nudging her. She nudges him back and he bumps he shoulder again. Getting fed up, Maddie puts her hand on his face and pushes him over sideways. He sits back up quickly, leaves in his hair, playfully scowling at Maddie.
Finn smiles at our friends. It's such a natural and easy smile. But then his eyes flick over to me, and I see it brighten. For the first time in the past week, after listening to him go on and on about how beautiful Marina is and how perfect she is, he finally gives me the one smile he keeps for me. The one he uses when he laughs when I trip over my own feet. Or if I have flour in my hair. Or when he hears me sing. Then his eyes flit down to Leo's arm and it falters. I almost feel sick at the look on his face. Because it doesn't make any sense.
We hear the bell ring and we all stand up. Leo kisses my cheek in the brotherly way he always does, as he knows I hate it and runs off to class. Jack and Maddie walk off quickly behind him and I can tell what Maddie is doing when she turns around and nods towards Finn.
I sigh, swinging my bag onto my shoulder and we start walking slowly back to the building. I can tell Finn is setting the pace like this because he wants to talk about something. He's always done it. Just another thing I remember about him that he doesn't. He probably doesn't even remember me pointing it out.
"So…" he starts. I refuse to look at him. I don't know if I'll be able to stop myself from blurting everything out. "You and Leo, huh?"
"Yup. Me and Leo."
"When were you going to tell me that you two were a, uh… a thing?" he asks.
"What? Don't you listen to gossip? I'm sure it's already around the whole school by now," I say jokily, although I can hear the nervousness in my voice.
"Of course I heard it around, but I was waiting for you to tell me that it was true. It kind of hurts that you didn't even bother."
I feel like I've hit a brick wall and I stop walking, causing him to turn and look at me.
"It hurts? It hurts?" I laugh. "Let's talk about your 'good day' shall we?" I say, putting quote marks around the words, not bothering to keep the venom out of my voice. I can only see red. "When were you going to tell me about you and Marina? When were you going to tell about that, huh?"
"Me and Marina?" Finn asks incredulously. "I have no idea what you're smoking, Rye, but there's nothing going on between-"
"You little shit! You fucking hypocrite! You give me the whole lecture, with your kicked puppy dog face, about how it hurts that I didn't tell you that I was in a relationship, and yet you lie to my face about something that you have not stopped talking about for the past week? No, that's fucked up."
"Rye, I have no idea what you're talking about!"
"So you really just had a 'good day' yesterday?"
"Yes!"
"Maybe next time you should find a better make out spot then the lockers during free period."
His face goes stark white and he looks at me with wide eyes and an open mouth. My bottom lip starts to quiver and my vision is blurry from the tears that are about to spill over onto my cheeks.
"Riley, I-"
"No!" My voice shakes so badly I can barely get the words out. "Just don't, Finn! Don't try and 'Riley' me now! It's not going to work. You fucking wanker!"
I storm away as fast as I can, the tears now freely streaming down my cheeks with no sign of stopping.
And I leave Finn standing there with his mouth wide open.
HELLO!
Sorry, it's been so long! I've done so much recently and I've just had no time to write anything! For example, I had to revise for my German speaking exam (which, I actually got an A in, even though I was aiming for a C. If I'm honest, it was quite shit I just think my teacher likes me for some reason idek), I had to learn my lines and perform in a play (which I have now been asked to perform in assembly which means the entire school is going to hear my say the words 'I love big men' (most of my monologue has been cut because it contained so many euphemisms and they didn't want to scare the Year 7s)) and tonight I had to perform in a concert where everyone dressed up in 70s fancy dress. I went for 70s punk, black boots, black jeans, leather jacket and sang David Bowie... it was fun I guess.
Ok, please leave me a review and tell me what you think should happen next, all help and ideas are greatly appreciated :)