Chapter 4:
Who would you go to for help if you need it, would you go to your mom, would you go to a family friend, or would you figure out a way to get through the issue?
It has been 5 weeks since Meredith's last ultrasound where we found out that we are expecting a baby girl. I was excited until this morning when Meredith was rushed to the emergency room by ambulance. I am afraid of losing my baby girl as I have a lot of things that I would like to do with both Zola and her. "Dadda is mummy going to be okay" asked my 2 year old son Derek "Bailey" Shepherd. "Bail's I don't know if Mommy is going to be okay I hope both Mommy and your baby sister are going to be okay" I explained to my son. Zola looked sad like when she thought that Meredith and I forgot about her when Bailey was first born. I felt sad looking at her face I then reinsured Zola that her mommy and sister were probably going to be okay.
As I walked into the Emergency room with Zola and Bailey I heard Alex and Arizona talking. I was concerned about the both of them talking as Alex is a NICU baby doctor and other sick children's doctor, and Arizona is a gynecologist ever since my sister did brain surgery on her mentor. "Alex is Meredith okay" I asked panicky. "Derek I don't know what is going on but I think that Arizona is getting her into a room with all kinds of I'vs and fluids that could help Meredith and your baby" explained Alex. What if Meredith and the baby didn't make it how would I be able to raise two children alone, what if Meredith lives but our daughter dies, will we be able to go on in our lives or would we just die inside. As I walked in the bed where Meredith was Arizona came in and explained that Meredith is dehydrated and is having contractions at 26 weeks and needs to be admitted as the baby could be coming sooner than we want her to come as Meredith is dilated 3 ½ centimeters .
"Derek I'm fine just take care of Zola, Bailey, and Ellie for me that's my dying wish if I were to die" explained Meredith. "Meredith you aren't going to die, Ellie is going to be fine, and we are going to be a happy family" I explained to my concerned wife. I have heard of babies being born early but I'm afraid that Ellie is sick and that's why Meredith is having premature labor. Meredith was admitted and was put of magnesium phosphate to slow the contractions to keep Ellis in a little longer. It seems like girls in my family can't really carry girl that well, as Amelia was born 8 weeks premature, Liz apparently had a daughter at 28 weeks. But I really don't care how far Liz was when my niece was born I just want my baby girl to be safe.
Thinking about Ellis was just making me upset and I just wanted to cry but I had to be strong for Zola and Bailey. Meredith begged me to take them home so they didn't have to see her like this with the baby still inside her because Bailey was still a baby and couldn't understand. I agreed to take Zola and Bailey home but the only two people on my mind are my wife and daughter. Worrying about my wife and daughter was taking a toll on my health because I was getting a severe headache, which isn't a good sign because it could trigger a seizure and Zola would have to call 911 because I'm the only adult that is home at the moment. I've experienced a few seizures since my last surgery but Amelia said it should go away after another surgery which I will have when her babies are born because it would be an intensive surgery and Amelia doesn't need to be like Meredith and have premature labor with her daughters.