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DPOV
As Lissa and Rose continue to talk, Christian turns to me. "Jeez Belikov, it's just like old times isn't it? You and me waitin' around for the girls to stop talking. Wanna go get a drink? I heard there's an open bar" he says pointing over to a table between two bunches of balloons next to a table filled with punch, cookies, and some finger foods.
With one more look at Rose's smiling and happy face, I nod to Christian and we walk over. We both order beer, which is pretty much the only thing they are serving. As we stand here for a minute sipping our beer, I look over to Rose again. She is so beautiful. So beautiful that it hurts. As I stand, gawking at her, Christian clears his throat. "Sooo….," he starts. He looks like he has something to say but he's afraid to say it. That's weird. Christian has never been afraid to say what's on his mind. It's why he and Rose bicker all the time. They are too much alike.
"If you have something to say Christian, just say it."
"Well, Rose is back. How uh, how ya feel about that?" he asks looking like he thinks I might punch him for asking. I kind of want to because I don't want to think about what I'm feeling having her back, let alone talk to him about it.
After a minute of thinking, I finally cave. "Honestly, I don't know. I haven't stopped thinking about her for five years. I finally thought I was over her, until I got that damn reunion invitation. I figured she wouldn't come but…here she is. You wanna know what the crazy part is? It feels like she never left. Although, she is pretty pissed off. I don't know why though," I ramble on thinking it feels good to get it off my chest. Christian is the closest thing I had to a best friend in high school and we have stayed close throughout the years. He's one of the few people I can show my emotions to.
"Look, I remember how you two were in high school. You guys were so in love that it even put Lissa and I's relationship to shame, and we were, and still are, super in love. Plus, we got together long before you guys did. I can see you still love her, and I'm just as surprised as you are that she's here. Now that she is though, what are you gonna do about it? You let her go once, do you really wanna do it again?" He looked genuinely concerned that I would let her go. He and Lissa more than anyone have seen how lonely and miserable I have been the last five years. Just when I was starting to get better, she came back and I think he's afraid I will go back to being as depressed as I was when she left the first time.
"I want her back. I don't want her to leave again. I didn't put up a fight the first time because I knew how much she wanted to leave. Now though, I am gonna fight and do whatever it takes to get her back," I say with complete determination.
"That's the spirit! Okay so what's the plan? She's here till the end of the week and she said she had a month off before her tour starts up again. I say you're best bet is to come up with a plan to get her to extend her trip to the end of the month, then come up with a plan to get her back," Christian says with that evil mastermind glint in his eyes he gets every time he schemes.
"What are you two gossiping about over here?" Lissa interrupts as she and Rose walk up to us. Rose walks past me to order some wine from the bartender. As she walks past me, I can smell that familiar scent of jasmine and rose. I have always loved the way she smelled. Snap out of it Belikov! Focus on the task at hand. Okay think, how are you going to get her to stay. Better yet, how are you going to get her to forgive you? I don't know why she's mad but I'm going to find out. Okay, first part of the plan, find out why she's mad and get her to forgive you by the end of the night. Okay, now just to get her to engage in a civil conversation.
RPOV
Lissa and I are catching up about everything. She tells me that Christian is a chemistry teacher at the high school now and she is a nurse. She also tells me that about two years ago her parents and brother died in a car crash. I'm really sad to hear about that. Her parents were amazing people and I looked at them as my own. The same went for her brother, Andre. It made me guilty too. Just another thing in her life that I should have been there for and I wasn't. As Lissa and I are talking, I notice Dimitri and Christian are walking over to the bar. As I watch them walk over, Lissa notices and follows my line of vision. "So," she starts, "What were you and Dimitri talking about before Christian and I came up?"
"Not much, honestly," I say bluntly with that same tone of bitterness I used when I was talking to him. I can see Lissa pursing her lips and squinting her eyes, trying to hold something back. "What? I know that look. If you have something to say, spit it out Liss."
"Oh, well, I was just trying to figure out why you sound so angry when talking about Dimitri. You know, he was a wreck after you left. Still kind of is honestly. Hasn't dated anyone or even been on a single date since you left, even though I know there have been quite a few offers. What do you have to be angry at him for?" I have never heard Lissa be so blunt before. She's always been so shy and reserved. I guess Christian must have rubbed off on her too much over the last few years.
I was a little shocked when she said he hasn't even gone on a date. Sure, I haven't had a serious boyfriend since him, but I've gone on a few dates. As much as I don't want to tell her my reason for being angry with him because it's so selfish, I decide to tell her anyways. "I know I shouldn't be angry with him Liss. He was so amazing and understanding when I left. It's just…I wanted him to come with me. I wanted him to follow me. I know that it's selfish but he didn't even fight for me. He didn't fight for us. He just said 'do what you have to do, I understand.' I know it should have been a relief that we didn't end in a terrible fight but I kind of wish we had. It just feels like there are so many unresolved feelings between us and I can't shake the feeling of what would have happened if he had fought for me. Would I have considered staying? Would he have come with me? I don't know, it probably sounds stupid."
"It doesn't sound stupid or selfish Rose," she says with an understanding smile. "I know he should have fought for you. Christian and I gave him hell for it after you left. I think he really regrets it too. And I know there are unresolved feelings between you two. You never got closure. It's why he never moved on and why you are still holding a grudge against him. I saw the way you two were looking at each other before we started talking. I know he still loves you and I think you still love him too."
With every word coming out of her mouth, I know she's right. Even after all these years, I still love him. The problem is, I just don't know how it would work. My life is in L.A. I have no privacy. I live in the public eye. Do I really want to drag Dimitri into all of that? Will he even want me back if it means all of those things? What if he gives up everything for me and resents me for it later on? What if I give everything up for him and resent him in the end? My brain is spinning with all of the unanswered questions. I know what I need to do though. "Liss, I want him back. Truly I do, but…there's just so many unanswered questions. We live such different lives now. I just don't know if we would be able to get through all the obstacles."
"Well then," she says with a new found determination in her voice, "we are just going to have to get those questions answered. You are here for the rest of the week. That is plenty of time to figure it all out. Let's just start with a drink shall we?"
I laugh. "Liss you can't even drink."
"But you can. Plus Mr. tall, dark, and handsome keeps looking over here so you should probably move closer so all these people don't get caught up in your sexual tension," she says winking and starts to walk over to the bar, with me laughing and shaking my head beside her.
When we get up there, and Lissa interrupts them, I walk past Dimitri to get a drink. As I walk past, I can smell his familiar aftershave. God, I love his aftershave. Okay, focus Rose, just order a drink and act causal. I order a wine, since that and beer is all they are offering. When I get it, I walk and stand next to Dimitri. He looks down at me and we make eye contact again. I love his eyes. I just love everything about him. I just love him. All of him. I have missed him so much and all I want to do is grab him and kiss him, but I know that we still have a lot of talking to do before we can even think about that.
I finally have an idea (kind of) of where I want this story to go. I still would love people's inputs though! PM me with your ideas if you have any and review to let me know how I'm doing! :)
