This is probably the longest chapter I have written of this story so far. Big plot point in this chapter! Thanks for the reviews! :)
WARNING: MAJOR LEMON IN THIS CHAPTER! It will be marked so if you want to skip it you can. First lemon I have ever written so I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I don't own VA or "Dark Paradise" by Lana Del Ray
DPOV
I have to say, when they called Rose to the stage, I was a little scared and insecure. I had heard all of her songs and each one lit up my heart because it was her that was singing them. However, after I learned the lyrics, I was not so happy to hear them. Most of her songs are about lost love, about me. They make me feel so guilty and I couldn't stand it. They also reflected my own emotions perfectly.
Rose walks up onto the stage and the DJ brings her a mic and a stand and whispers something to her. She nods and he goes back to his set up. Everyone starts to migrate towards the stage and our friends and I make our way to the front of the pack somehow. I stand, front and center, right in front of Rose. She sees me and as the music starts to play, we make eye contact. She begins to sing and it makes me want to cry. I haven't heard her sing to me, really sing to me, in person, for so long. I love to watch her sing too. She gets into this euphoric state where nothing can touch her. She sways her hips, moves her arms, runs her hands through her hair, it's such a turn on. The turn off though is the lyrics she is singing.
All my friends tell me I should move on
I'm lying in the ocean singing your song
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ahhh
That's how you sang it
Loving you forever can't be wrong
Even though you're not here, won't move on
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ahhh
That's how we played it
And there's no remedy for memory your face is
Like a melody, it won't leave my head
Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine
But I wish I was dead
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side
All my friends ask me why I stay strong
Tell 'em when you find true love, it lives on
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ahhh
That's why I stay here
And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody
It won't leave my head
Your soul is holding me and telling me that everything is fine
But I wish I was dead
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
But there's no you, except in my dreams tonight
Oh-oh-oh-oh-hah-hah-hah-hah.
I don't want to wake up from this tonight
Oh-oh-oh-oh-hah-hah-hah-hah.
I don't want to wake up from this tonight
There's no relief, I see you in my sleep
And everybody's rushing me, but I can feel you touching me
There's no release, I feel you in my dreams
Telling me I'm fine
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise.
No one compares to you
But there's no you, except in my dreams tonight
Oh-oh-oh-oh-hah-hah-hah-hah
I don't want to wake up from this tonight
Oh-oh-oh-oh-hah-hah-hah-hah
I don't want to wake up from this tonight
Her lyrics and the fact that she is staring directly at me while she sings it breaks my heart. The line that affects me the most though is I wish I was dead. Did she really or was it just for artistic effect? I know a couple times I wished I was dead during our break up, but I would never do that. Rose on the other hand…
When we first got together, she was suffering from depression. Suicide was a real problem that her parents, her friends, and I were all extremely worried about. It got better once we became serious and for that, we were all grateful. It didn't even cross my mind that her depression could have come back until the first time I heard this song about four years ago.
After she was finished, everyone cheered and applauded. I just stared at her. I could see she was trying not to cry and I have to admit, I was as well. Then, I did something that shocked even myself. I walked right up on stage and kissed her. I kissed her with everything I had, every emotion I was experiencing. I hoped she could feel them in the kiss, the longing, guilt, sadness, joy, and love. I think she understood because when we pulled apart, she had an understanding smile on her face. "I love you," she whispered and she held my face in her hands.
"I love you too my Roza," I whispered and gave her another peck on the lips. She smiled again, this time a happy, bright, full smile that made my heart melt. As if there our minds were connected, we both realized how much we wanted each other in that moment. We wanted to reconnect in every way. We walked off the stage and ignored the crowd of cheering people. We continued walking through the gym, all the way until we got to my car.
She hopped in the passengers seat, not even asking where we were going or what we were doing. We didn't even say goodbye to anyone, but neither of us cared. We eventually reached my apartment and I led her upstairs. I opened the door for her and let her walk in first. She stepped inside and took off her shoes immediately. "Those bitches hurt," she muttered to herself and I couldn't help but chuckle. She looked around my apartment and nodded in approval. "Wow, nice place, it's so homey. I love it."
I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist and leaned down to kiss her neck. She leaned her head to the side to give me more access and let out a small moan. "I love you," I whispered as I kissed behind her earlobe, a spot I knew was her weakness. She was panting and biting her lip, trying not to moan loudly. Her whole body was leaning back into me and it felt amazing.
Her arm reached around to keep my lips in place as she laced her fingers through my hair. My hands left her hips and I rubbed across her stomach, up her sides, and down her thighs. She was completely under my control and I loved it. When it came to the outside world, I was what many people called "whipped" and everyone thought Rose made all the decisions. That isn't necessarily true but I do love giving her what she wants. In the bedroom however…that's a different story. She loves when I'm in control and I love being in control. Sure, there are times when the roles reverse but the majority of the time, I was in charge.
One of my hands made its way down the outside of her thigh before traveling back up the inside towards her wet core. "Dimitri," she moaned, "Please." With that, I turned her around and kissed her sweetly on the lips. I grabbed her hands and took her to the bedroom.
M Scene
I opened my bedroom door and pulled her in behind me. I turned around and kissed her passionately. It was the kind of kiss that made your lips sore and your body hot. Our tongues entwined and battled for dominance. I won and she retreated her tongue back into her mouth and moaned. I left her lips and began kissing down her neck. "Please," she moaned again quietly. She didn't have to say any more or tell me twice. I moved my hands to her back and found the zipper to the dress. I unzipped it and let it fall to the ground. Her hands went to my chest and she ripped my shirt open, buttons flying everywhere. Now it was my turn to moan. I love when she gets aggressive like that.
I moved my lips back to hers and let my hands wander her body. She was so beautiful. Her hands moved down my chest and towards my pants. I then moved my hands to her breasts and started to squeeze and play with them. They were even bigger than they used to be! Her hands momentarily paused by my waistline as she threw her head back and moaned, pressing her chest into my hands more aggressively.
I removed my hands and moved them to her clasp. I easily discarded the black lacy material and removed my lips from hers. Her hands returned to my pants and she easily unbuckled my belt and removed my pants, leaving us both in only our underwear. My lips moved back down her neck and towards her breasts. I was too tall to stay like that for long so I grabbed her ass and hoisted her up. She wrapped her legs around my waist and started grinding our hips together. We both moaned in pleasure and I moved my mouth down to her hard peaks. She threw her head back again and laced her fingers though my hair and pushed my mouth harder against her breasts.
"Dimitri. Bed. Now," she gasped out. I walked towards the bed, lips never leaving her breasts and fell onto it, careful not to crush her. She removed her legs from my waist and my lips left her breasts and went back to her mouth. Her hand reached down and started stroking my hardened manhood. I groaned and bit her bottom lip, causing her to moan. She rubbed and rubbed and rubbed as I pinched and squeezed her breasts. "I need you," she whimpered.
I chucked. "Roza, I haven't had you for five years. I plan on touching and kissing every single part of your body. I'm going to take my time with you until you are begging for my cock," I murmured in her ear. I used to think dirty talk was weird but I knew how much she loved it. She moaned in reply and I got off of her. She made a sound of complaint and I smirked.
I kneeled on the end of the bed in front of her. I could see her eyes were almost completely black and filled with lust. I grabbed her right ankle and began to kiss the inside of it. I kissed all the way to the inside if her knee and then stopped and started again on the other leg. With the left, I kissed all the way into her inner thigh until I was only a couple inches away from her core. I could smell her arousal and it turned me on even more. I removed my head and started kissing her other thigh. When I got to her core, I looked into her eyes for permission. She was sitting up on her elbows with her hair everywhere, watching me. She looked amazing, delicious even. She gave me a slight nod and I smirked. I kissed her core through her panties and she fell flat on the bed, moaning. I ran my nose through her folds and sniffed. "You smell delectable," I moaned.
I then removed myself again. She groaned and I slid my hands down her legs until I reached her panties. I leaned forward and kissed down her stomach as I hooked my fingers around the fabric and ripped it. She gasped and moaned at the same time. I knew later she would be mad at me for ruining them but right now, neither of us cared. I threw the fabric somewhere across the room and placed her legs on my shoulders. With one more look to ask permission, she nodded and I licked her clit. She cried out in pleasure and her hands found there way into my hair, gently pulling. I moaned and the vibrations hit all of the right places and she moaned my name loudly. I licked and sucked until she was sweating and writhing beneath me. "I'm so close. Oh Dimitri, please."
I removed my mouth and replaced it with my fingers. This entire time, I hadn't even entered her yet and she was already about to come. "Please what," I told her.
"Please, oh god, please make me come. Please please please," she begged.
I went back in with my mouth and continued to lick, suck and lightly bite her clit. Then suddenly, I entered two fingers into her and gave a few hard, quick thrusts. She screamed my name so load I think all of the neighbors heard it. She came hard and I continued to rub her and lick up her juices while she came down from her high.
I kissed my way back up her body and she kept her hands in my hair. She pulled me up and pulled my face towards hers like she was going to kiss me. Right before our lips could meet, she rolled us over so that she was straddling me. She began kissing down my neck and then back up towards my ear. She nibbled on my earlobe. "I think you deserve a treat after that Comrade," she murmured. I thrust my hips up and she gasped. "I'll take that as a yes," she said with a smirk.
She began to kiss down my neck and chest, all the way to my waistband. She started to pull down my boxers but stopped to kiss my tip. I moaned and she smirked. She continued to pull them off and once they were discarded on the floor, she trailed a hand up each of my legs until her face was by my dick. She gave a long lick up the length of it and I moaned her name. She kissed my tip again before putting me all in her mouth, or at least most of me since I couldn't completely fit. She used her hand to pump what she couldn't fit in her mouth. "God Roza, I missed that little mouth of yours. You missed my big dick in your mouth didn't you?" She moaned in reply and it sent vibrations through my dick. She continued to pump me with her mouth and hand, switching paces and changing the pressure of her sucking. It was mind blowing and within a couple short minutes I was ready to cum. I put my hands in her hair to lead her on and let her know I was close. She just looked at me and smiled, at least smiled as much as she could with my cock in her mouth. She sucked really hard one last time and cupped my balls. I came long and hard in the back of her throat, yelling her name. She swallowed everything I gave her.
She came back up and straddled me again, kissing me long and hard, the taste of each other's cum in our mouths mixing and making me instantly hard again. I flipped us over and placed myself at her entrance. I kissed her slowly and sweetly and looked into her eyes. "I love you," she murmured.
"I love you too," I said breathless and then buried myself in her.
"OH GOD!" she moaned as I entered her. "Yes baby, oh god yes, I've missed your cock." I grunted in reply and set a steady pace. "Yes Dimitri, harder!" I quickened my pace and thrusted my hips harder. She met me thrust for thrust. After a few minutes, her moaning became more frequent. "Oh God, I'm close. Ahh Dimitri, I love you!" she moaned loudly.
"Uhh Roza," I moaned, "I love you too." I was really close but I didn't want to come before her. I reached with one hand to pinch her nipple and with the other I began to rub her clit. She was close and I could feel it. "Я люблю тебя. Приходи за мной Милая, Я хочу чтобы вы пришли (I love you. Come for me Beautiful, I want you to come)" I said to her in Russian. She loves it when I talk dirty but she loves it even more if I say it in Russian. That was her undoing and she came hard, me following right behind her. We continued to rock against each other until we came down from our orgasms.
End M Scene
After we stopped, I rolled off of her and pulled her sweaty body into my arms. She laid her head on my chest and sighed in contentment as I began stroking her hair. She chuckled. "What?" I asked amused. She lifted her head off of my chest and looked into my eyes. "You," she laughed, "You and your obsession with my hair." I chuckled at her comment because it was true. It was one of my favorite physical characteristics about her. "I missed it. I missed you too but I love your hair." She smiled and rested her head back on my chest. As she snuggled against me, I could feel myself get turned on again. She looked at me and grinned. "Again?" she asked as she straddled me. I nodded and we made love again, this time slower and sweeter. That was how the night continued until we fell asleep, wrapped in each other's arms.
Okay so I know I mentioned a new story I'm working on in a previous chapter. I have a couple chapters of it so I think I may upload it soon. I also have another story I'm working on called "Going for the Gold." Have any guesses what it's about? Let me know and if you get it right I might just give you a sneak preview! ;)