Chapter 13

A/N. Edited by the lovely HRSMITH

CPOV

I have never considered myself as a murderer before but tonight that's exactly how I am classing myself. I don't think I will ever get the look of Ana's face out of my head seeing my stunning girl look so disgusted will stick with me for life. Elliot stopped me from going after her as I was covered in blood I love my brother no matter what he has my back even when I don't deserve it. I briefly question Carrick but he just gives the same old excuses and bullshit he has really done it this time I don't think we will ever come back from this.
I get cleaned up while I have Taylor and Sawyer try to figure out where Ana has gone.

After a quick shower and a change of clothes I still feel like the disgusting murderer Ana has just saw I doubt I will ever feel clean again. While waiting for news on Ana I decide that I need a stiff drink while pouring myself a drink my phone dings an it's a text from EL telling me Ana is at Katherine Kavanagh's apartment and he is there with her and she is safe. For one moment I feel happy at ease but the feeling of utter disgust hits me pretty quickly.

I decide to switch off that part of my brain that is telling me that I shouldn't be selfish and I should leave Ana to live her life but I refuse to listen I need to see my girl. I drive so erratic I am thankful that all Seattle police know all my cars and would never stop me to give me a ticket as this is an emergency and I need to get to my girl. I am actually nervous heading up the path to the apartment I know it's a ground floor one so no stairs to climb or elevator to take to collect my thoughts.

I knock on the door and EL lets me into the apartment and I see my beautiful girl sitting on the sofa. I just want to run at her and grab her and never let go but I think I am best keeping a distance. EL leaves the apartment before any conversation is exchanged and I am glad that we have some privacy.

"Hello Ana."

"Christian." That's all she says while I can see that her brain is working overtime.

"I think we should talk that's why I have come here. I know you are most likely confused and hurt but please baby give me the chance to try and explain things and just talk to you."

"Your right I do feel those things and then some. Your right I think a conversation is needed." She stands up and heads to the kitchen and grabs a bottle of water and then sits back down.

"Baby I never wanted you to see the man I really am. I will never forgive myself for what you saw and I know I can never make it go away or make you feel any better but I am truly sorry and I never wanted to hurt you in any way. My father will have to pay for what he has put you through and believe me baby I will make sure he is punished for what he has done." I promise.

"So I am guessing everything your dad said about you and your family is true?" She asks.

"Yes baby everything is true. I know I told you otherwise but I just wanted to protect you and keep you from seeing the beast that is inside of me." Ana gets up and walks towards the window.
I want nothing more than to walk towards her and touch her but I know she is not ready for me to be close.

"Christian who was that man and what did he do to deserve what you did to him?" Her voice squeaks when saying that last part.

"It was Jack Hyde and he planned on kidnapping you and taking you away from me. I couldn't allow that so I took care of him."

"That guy was creepy Christian but I highly doubt he would be capable of doing such things he is just a publisher."

"And am just a CEO baby."

"So he is just like you." I feel sick at her words as I could never be like him I know she is making the comparison based on what she saw me do but I can't allow her to believe it.

"I am nothing like him baby please don't think that of me. I would never hurt you. I want to be with you and take you on dates and do
the couple stuff and I have never wanted to do that with anyone else." I plead with soulful eyes.

"So all those women you have been with never meant enough to you to have that with? Will I be one of those women to you Christian?, once you get me and the chase is over, you will just toss me aside?" I feel sick that she could even believe I would treat her like she means nothing.

"Baby look at me please." I have now got up and went to her as I can't stand the distance anymore.
"You already mean more to me than any other woman on the earth could ever. If you want this with me, you will be treated like a queen I will be devoted to you. I will love you with everything I have and you will never have to question my feelings or love for you. I killed that fucker tonight because I lost my shit over the thought of another man being inside of you." I admit.

"I am a virgin Christian I never even kissed that vile man let alone anything else. So obviously he was lying to you." She says ever so bluntly.

I can't control myself when I hear this and I launch at her and attack her with my mouth. I honestly believe that she will push me away any second but it doesn't come. She deepens our kiss and it gets more passionate and hot. I am ready to pull away to give her time to process everything but she grabs my ass and pulls me back into her. The little minx is making sure my hard cock is rubbing up against her I don't know what I did to create this kind of response from her but I am loving it.

Before I have time to take control Ana has already pushed me down onto the sofa and is now straddling me. I see her hands grab her top and I know she is going to take it off. I can't allow this not here not now my girls first time should not be in someone's shitty apartment on a sofa. I need to stop this.

"Baby lets head home believe me there is nothing I want more than to get you into my bed but we need this to be right and I want to take you on a date and romance you."

Ana looks so confused and I feel like shit for stopping this but my girl deserves so much more than this and I am going to make it happen.

"Ok hot stuff let's go home maybe we can eat after all, I am hungry."

"Anything for you baby." I kiss her once more as I can't get enough of her.

Apov

I think I need to seek professional help. I was so turned on by bad ass Christian that I was grinding on him grabbing his ass and even enjoying rubbing myself on his erection. I should feel ashamed or something but I don't. Is it so weird that I am turned on by him so much I know what I saw and what he did but knowing he did it for me makes me wet and horny and for a virgin that is big.

I felt really disappointed when Christian stopped are little make out grinding session but know I am so glad he did as he is right, we should do things properly. I am so happy that he said that I would mean something to him unlike the other women that I have been so worried about. I actually believed every word he said and I really hope I am not wrong. Christian drives us home and I can't help but stare at him he is just a god and I really want to worship him oh fuck Ana you need therapy or a strait jacket or something.
Once we are in Christians apartment it is dark until he takes my hand and leads me towards the main room where there are candles lit everywhere and music playing.

"Baby I haven't said it yet but you look so beautiful."

"Wow Christian if this how you do the romance thing no wonder women are obsessed with you."

"You are the only one who I have ever and will ever do romance for baby." I get the feeling he's being truthful.

We have a lovely dinner and talk about what's next and what we are. I now officially have a boyfriend. Yes, bitches Christian Grey is my boyfriend. The end of the night comes to soon and I am unsure on what to do I really want to spend the night with him but I don't what him to think I am easy.

"Baby please don't over think things. How about you stay at your place tonight and we can spend the whole day together tomorrow and get out and have some fun what you say?"

"Sounds Great I will head down to my place as I think Mia is still there she might as well move in with me."

"Come here and kiss me good night baby." He says while grabbing me at my waist.
The way he kisses me makes me not want to leave him and I think he knew exactly what he was doing.

"Oh Christian we haven't discussed the whole watching me in the shower situation." I pulled back.

"Ask away baby I will tell you anything you want to know."

"Did you enjoy watching me cum screaming your name?" Wow where the hell did I get that kind of confidence from? I actually shocked me and him.

"You have no idea baby. I will give you a performance so we are even how about that?"

"Yes I want it now how about you get your fine ass into the shower and I will watch you touch this." I say as I put my hand on his erection. Fuck why am I being so bold.

"Follow me baby anything you want you can have."

Oh fuck I am so nervous now why they hell did those words come out of my mouth I am not confident enough for this. I know I am going to freak out as I have never seen a man naked before.
What possessed me to do this, oh Ana you're a dumbass.
He leads me into his bedroom and my panic gets worse.

"Baby my bathroom is through this door, please relax, I wasn't trying to fool you to get you into my bed."

I feel calmer as his voice is so mesmerizing I have to remember that he can use that voice to get me to do anything he wants from me oh but how fun it would be submitting to him. Once we are both inside the bathroom he looks the door behind us with confuses me as no one else is here.

"Just relax baby this is all for you so enjoy yourself."

He starts the shower and starts to take off his clothes in front of me and I can't take my eyes from him his body is a work of art. I feel my eyes come out of their sockets when he removes his pants oh fuck he is massive where is that even going to go?

Yes, Ana lets freak out in front of a naked man, that is going to send a great message.
Christian comes at me at such a fast pace I can't even think about what the hell he has planned. He kisses me and I can feel his massive cock get bigger and bigger I can't even believe that can actually fit in his pants. He stops the kiss and gets into the shower he starts touching himself slowly while keeping his eyes on me. This is hot I don't know what comes over me but I start to remove my clothes and I see Christians eyes darken. Before I realize it I am standing in front of him naked I walk towards to shower and I feel brave that I walk right in into his arms.

"Baby you are seriously trying to kill me. You have such a beautiful body I don't know how I am supposed to keep my hands to myself here."

"Don't, I want your hands and mouth on me. Show me what it feels like, make me cum please Christian show me how good you can make me feel." Did that just come out of my virginal mouth.

Our kiss starts off slow and builds rather quickly. Christian has pinned me to the wall and is exploring my body with his hands and my body could not be happier.

"Tell me baby." He whispers into my ear.

"Tell you what."

"Tell me that you're mine."

"I am all yours Christian, YOURS!"

I don't know if it was me saying I was his or that I can see his cock pulsating but he starts to rub my clit and fuck me it's so much better than me doing it myself.

"I'm all yours baby. No other man's."

I have to remind myself that telling him I am his is a turn on for him. He starts to rub faster and faster suddenly I feel to overwhelmed I try to push him away from me but it's no good he just continues his pace and I explode everywhere while screaming his name. I am breathless and wanting more. Once I feel like I have calmed down slightly I get bolder by touching his cock I know that's what Christian likes it to be called so yes, Anastasia Steele will be calling it a cock from now on.

I think he senses my lack of experience and guides me and shows me how to touch him. I get the hang of it pretty quickly and before I know it I am actually giving him a hand job and I must say a pretty good one to as he is moaning for me and looking like he is enjoying himself just as much as I am. I don't expect what comes next as he leans into me and bites my neck while I feel warm liquid run down my leg and I know it's not water. I feel like doing a happy dance as I made him cum I am so happy that I pleased him as he has just pleased me.

"Please stay with me tonight baby."

Hmm…. should I?