Chapter 17 already! MAN I LOVE WRITING ABOUT FOUR.

Right, calm down Iris.

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Four

'Because I think I'm... I think I'm pregnant, Tobias,' she said. My eyes widened, no... This couldn't be happening! My heart started pounding, I didn't know what to do. The first image that popped into my head was my father. Marcus as he took off his belt and walked up to me. My body stiffened and my breath quickened. I always thought I shouldn't have kids, ever. How could I be a good father without having had a good example? I couldn't let myself turn into Marcus, but what was that strange feeling in my stomach? That spark I felt? I shook my head, realizing I was torn between feelings. Iris was the love of my life, and the thought of that love being turned into a child was incredible... Had I not been Tobias Eaton; afraid of the well-being of that child.

I looked into her doe-eyes and noticed they were blurry, causing her green eyes to grow lighter. A tear escaped her right eye, and I instinctively grabbed her hands. 'I don't know what to do, Tobi,' she whispered. I wiped her tear away with my thumb and kissed the spot on her cheek. I didn't know either, what was I supposed to say?

Great, we're having a baby! But do keep him or her away from me please, you know my temper. NO!

My mind was racing on top speed and my heart was still beating rapidly. I couldn't deny that feeling I had when she told me, that spark. The thought of her and me together, spending time with or little guy or girl, being happy without me turning into Marcus... Could I ever just be happy?

'I don't know either, Iris,' I said softly, my voice cracking at the end. She let go of my hands and shook her head. 'Eric can NEVER know about this, he thinks you actually hate my guts,' she said and sniffled. My heart skipped a beat, how could I forget about Eric! He would find out about me being Tobias immediately, because the rude "Four" would never like Iris or want her baby. But what about Tobias, did he want it? Damn it, I had no idea how to feel.

'We have to discuss this with Damon, Amar and possibly all our friends,' I said, shaking my head. /span'We have to keep you safe and I have to retrieve from my status as Eric's best friend.' She sighed as she nodded. 'I feel so terrible, putting you in this position,' she said softly, looking into my eyes. I had been shocked, real shocked and paralyzed, but that comment struck me as a thunderbolt. I was afraid of my child, but so was she. I was afraid of myself, but so was she. She had no idea what kind of mother she would be either. Could our love for each other be enough?

'You didn't do this, we caused this to happen together,' I said and grabbed her hands again. She turned her head away but I pulled her chin up to face me again. 'You know why I'm afraid. Yes we're young, terribly young, but I'm not afraid of our love surviving: I'm afraid of Marcus,' I admitted. She shook her head quickly and wrapped her arms around me. 'Tobias, I love you more than anything. You are not, AND NEVER WILL BE, Marcus. You are kind, tough... And brave. Something he never was,' she said firmly.

My eyesight became blurry, she was right... But I knew that my fear of becoming Marcus would never really go away. I was still freaked out of my mind, by the idea of having a baby, but that was nothing new to a guy, probably. Damon had told me how crazy he'd gone when Eliza told him she was pregnant. I took a deep breath and tried to think of everything we had to face now. Eric, Jeanine's check that would happen the next day, the fact that this may-happen baby would probably be Divergent... And then it happened, the protector vibes kicked in. I clenched my fist and gritted my teeth, I had to keep my girlfriend and my may-happen baby safe.

'Come with me to my new family?' I asked. We had to talk to Damon about this. She looked a bit surprised, but before she could answer we heard Amar calling for her. 'IRIS! PLEASE!' She jumped up and ran towards the fence. 'AMAR I'M HERE!' She called loudly and waved at him. 'IRIS! THANK GOD, WHY DO YOU KEEP BEING A MAJOR PAIN IN THE BUTT' he said and was about to jump when she stopped him. 'We're coming, and I'm sorry,' she said and looked at me. I nodded as I stood up and walked over to her.

I could barely feel my legs, I was still numb from the news she'd given me. 'Four?' Amar asked surprised as he saw me appearing next to Iris. 'Yeah I found her a little while ago. Sorry, we had much to talk about,' I apologised as I rubbed my neck uncomfortably. He nodded understandingly, 'we have to talk about this.' Iris looked at me and nodded. 'I'm ready to meet your family, we have to tell them, or at least talk about it,' she said and climbed over the fence. She climbed upon the railing, towards the other railing, and Amar helped her down. I followed her example and jumped off when I reached them, swallowing the lump that had formed itself in my throat once I'd looked down the chasm.

I suddenly realised how much impact her words actually had on me. When I crawled down the railing and looked at the chasm, my heartbeat quickened. Not because I feared falling, but because I suddenly had someone else to think of. It was crazy, my life had changed immediately... 'Is there a slight possibility that you are not... You know?' Amar asked when we had reached the bridge. My head jerked up and I observed Iris carefully. A big part of me hoped she wasn't, but that newly formed protector part in my heart kind of hoped she was.

'It would be for the best... But I'm afraid not,' she said softly, putting a hand on her not yet existing belly. It was weird how torn I felt by that little movement. I felt stupid, as I realised I had continuously thought of that night as terrible because we couldn't remember a single thing about our first time together, but I felt worse about having created a baby, who will be loved by everyone, and not remembering it.

Wait, did I say loved? By me as well?

No, what was I saying... Of course I would love this baby, I loved Iris without hurting her as well, right? I couldn't think anymore, I had to see Beth. 'Let's go,' I said with a nod and we walked over to the cafeteria. I wasn't actually allowed to see my family during initiation, but once I had gotten to know Beth, I just couldn't miss her anymore. I stopped dead in my tracks, causing Iris and Amar to bump into me. 'Four, there are no traffic lights around here,what are you doing,' Amar moped as Iris chuckled. I rubbed my neck and shook my head, 'nothing, I was just thinking about their whereabouts, if they'd be home or working,' I said quickly, receiving a nod from Amar and raised eyebrows from Iris.

She knew that I'd thought about something else, but I would have to tell her later. I had thought about Beth, and how much I loved being around her. She was a baby, and I was doing fine with her, right? God I had to stop asking myself questions, I was going insane... But what did I expect. 'I bet they're at home,' Amar said, continuing walking. 'What was that?' Iris hissed as she walked next to me. I shook my head. 'You'll see later.' She nodded quickly and stepped aside again.

It slightly surprised me that I hadn't seen Eric and Layla all day, but knowing them by then, they always appeared out of nowhere, so we had to keep moving. We followed Amar and arrived at my new family home. Iris looked nervous as Amar knocked on the door. 'I know Damon, but what if Eliza doesn't like me?' She hissed. I grinned slightly.

Here we were, two teenagers. One presumably pregnant, which made the other teenager father to be. Two Divergent pregnant teenagers caught up in a few very shitty situations with Eric, Layla and their boss Jeanine who was looking for the true identity of one of the teenagers (hence: we could get killed), and what was she concerned about? Whether my new mother liked her or not. 'What,' she said with raised eyebrows. 'So much crap going on right now and you're concerned about Eliza,' I chuckled. Her mouth fell slightly open. 'Yeah, well, she's my mother in law all right,' she said, then decided I was right and chuckled as well. Amar grinned and nodded. 'Eliza is great.'

We heard quick footsteps and the door opened, revealing Eliza who was holding Beth. Beth looked up and immediately stuck her hands out at me. 'FOAW!' She squealed. I grabbed her from Eliza's hands and smiled big. 'Hi, B,' I said and hugged her. 'Now have I ever, tough Four hugging his little baby sister,' Amar said teasingly. 'Hi, E,' he continued and hugged Eliza as he walked in. 'Hi Amar, it's good to see you again!' She said, her voice warm as always. Then she noticed Iris and smiled big, causing Iris to smile big as well. 'You must be Iris! Come in sweetheart, we've been waiting for you!' She said and hugged Iris immediately. The latter blushed slightly but wrapped her arms around Eliza as well. 'It's great to meet you too!' She said happily, then looked at Beth. Beth looked surprised, as she had never seen her before.

Amar walked up to Beth and tickled her, causing her to giggle. 'Mawr,' she giggled, attempting to say his name. We all laughed at this and I beckoned Iris to come closer, wrapping an arm around her. 'Look Beth, this is my girlfriend Iris,' I smiled. Beth didn't understand the word girlfriend, I knew that, but she understood the underlying thought that Iris would be of no harm to her. She smiled big and stuck her arms out at Iris, who looked shocked. 'I have never seen this before,' Eliza said with a smile. 'She's not usually willing to touch new people, but she did with Four and now she trusts you too!' Iris picked her out of my arms and pressed her nose against Beth's, what made the latter giggle.

'She's a darling,' Eliza whispered to me as Iris softly rocked Beth and talked to her. I smiled big and nodded. Amar grinned, 'yeah, but she's cheeky as well, don't let her fool you!' Eliza laughed, 'she reminds me of me.' Then her face became serious. 'Guys, why are you here? Not that I don't like surprise visits, you're always welcome, but you brought Iris,' she asked. I nodded and Iris walked up to us, handing Beth back to Eliza. 'Beth is amazing, Eliza,' she smiled, then looked at our serious faces. 'Oh, are we going to tell her now already?'

I shook my head. 'Is Damon here?' Eliza nodded. 'Yes, he's in the kitchen. I'll get him, you take a seat okay?' We nodded in response and took a seat on the couch. Eliza returned quickly with Damon, and they took a seat on the other couch in front of us. 'Guys, what's going on?' Damon asked, his voice sounding a bit worried. 'Well, first of all,' Amar started and scraped his throat.

'There is no way that Iris can get through her fear landscape exam when Jeanine's watching. She's had too less time to practice being Dauntless, she'll never make it.' My head jerked up again and I stared at him. He hadn't told me that before! 'What do you mean,' I demanded, grabbing Iris' hand. 'Jeanine will be looking at her actions, and being Dauntless is all about saving yourself by using objects or brute strength. Iris saved herself by thinking that it wasn't real and using her imagination to save herself,' he explained, then looked at Iris. 'At one fear, fire, you saved yourself by using your own arms as a water pump. You can't do that, idiot.'

She smiled because of the idiot part. 'I'm glad you still refer to me as idiot, even how bad things are looking,' she joked, then became serious. 'But what am I going to do, I don't know what else to do.' 'We could go again today?' I suggested. 'I could come with you.' She shook her head. 'You don't want to see yourself, Tobias.' Damon's eyebrows shot up. 'Why is Four one of your fears?' I shook my head quickly. 'Not me, really...' I looked at her and she grew pale. 'Then what?' Eliza asked surprised.

'He appeared in one of my fears because something's happened of which he's always said he never wanted, what scared me,' Iris explained, her voice slightly broke at the end. 'What happened?' Damon asked, his voice firm yet vulnerable. He cared about us, more than he let on on first sight.

Iris and I caught each others eyes, her eyes filled with worry as we had no idea how to tell them. She turned her head away and pointed at Beth.

'How did we look with Beth?' She asked softly.