Matt stares out into the fields, His eyes were drooping, He was about to fall asleep. His hands were cold from the chill morning air but he wasn't ready to leave yet, He wasn't ready to confront Jeff just yet, He didn't know if Jeff would still be angry with him or not but he really didn't care, He just felt like sitting here, Sitting here and continue to watch all the people climbing on and off the buses, Watching them waving good-bye to their families, Who were standing there or those that were arriving back from where-ever they had run off to, Seeing them hugging their mothers and tipping their hats to their fathers, Before their dads pull them into their embrace. It was like sneaking into someone else rooms, Watching them from behind the shadows. Seeing them in their life's routine but them not knowing. Matt wanted to know why his life got shafted, Why his family wasn't like these peoples. Why didn't his mother be there when he went off to collage?, Why she didn't have her arms all wrapped up in his, Her fingers clutched in his hands, Not willing to let go. Why wasn't she crying tears?. Why wasn't she there?. Why did God take her away?. Didn't he realize we still needed her.

Our dad wasn't always like he is today, He used to be like those others fathers, But something happened to him the day Our mother passed. Something died inside of him, Maybe it was his heart, Maybe it just shattered in pieces. And He just hasn't the energy to find the pieces that have fallen somewhere in the dark. Maybe He can't, Maybe he just doesn't want to. Matthew could understand, If Mackie died, He'd probably feel the same, He'd die right along with her and Matt thinks that's want happened to his dad when their mother died. He just died too. And someone else was put in his place. Someone who Matt just doesn't love. Matt of course couldn't ever speak aloud the words, But he knows he doesn't love this father that he has to call his own, He hates him, Hates him for what he does to Jeffrey, He puts that boy through hell, He knows, He used to do the same thing to me but I've learned on what not to do, Jeffrey just can't stand being told what to do, At-least not when it's Gilbert doing the ordering.

Matt watches one family in particular, Their demeanor so peaceful, They were standing side by side, Smiles on their faces, One of them was wearing a army outfit, He must have been serving in the army. Matt feels a cold wind rush by and he had wished he had grabbed some-kind of coat before he left home.

Matt watches the last few remaining folks rush off to their cars before finally getting up and leaving himself.

He walked and walked, Just taking in the people, The shops, He had to have been out here for a good hour and a half already.

Matt watches the rain clouds pull in, He looks up and see's the sky getting darker, It's gonna be a morning shower, Probably won't last long, A few minutes, That's usually how long they last Matt thinks. He remembered how when he was younger, Jeffrey was probably only two at the time, It was early morning, Matthew's mom was inside cooking breakfast, A little too early but Gilbert had finally got a job and had to be at work to start his shift before 8:00 AM.

So Ruby got up three hours earlier then usual to make sure he had a good breakfast to start his day off. It was raining and Gilbert had left the door open when letting their cat whiskers out the back door. Jeffrey was not yet walking, But he still could crawl and he had noticed the door open. He sneaked right out and Matt could remember the smile on their mother's face when she had found Jeffery playing in the mud, Soaked but with a huge tooth-less smile spread acrossed his little chubby face. She laughed and picked up Jeff, Pulling him to her chest.

Matt would dream sometimes about his mother's laugh, About her smile. How his dad used to be, He would smile and laugh, It's hard to imagine that now but it was real, It happened, He used to be a loving father, And a devoted husband. If only their mother never left, Things would have been different.

It starts raining down, Matt watches others run for cover, Running to their cars or into some buildings but Matt doesn't care, He finds it refreshing, He stands there in the middle of the street, His head held up to the sky, The rain-drops falling on his face. Almost like fresh tears.

He waits for it to let up before continuing his slow walk home, He notices a pay-phone, He checks his pants-pocket for some change, He only had enough for one phone call but one was enough.

He walks up to it, And enters the phone-booth, Reaching for the phone, He dials Mackenzie's number.

"Hello." Mackie's little sister Jesse whispers.

"Hey Jess, It's Matthew. Is Mackie up?." Matt asks.

"Yeah, She's right here. Wait a minute."

Matt stands tapping his fingers on-top the phone-book.

"Matthew, How's it going over there?" She asks

Matt could envision the huge smile spread acrossed her face.

"It's okay, I just missed you, I had to call you." Matt stats.

"That's sweet Matthew, I've missed you too." She whispers.

"So is everything okay, Nothing's happened." She asks.

"No, Everything is great." Matt lies.

"Matthew Hardy, You better not be lying to me?." She threats.

Matt laughs "No, I just wanted to call you, Hear your voice."

Mackie knew he was lying, But she insistent that if he wanted to talk to her about what's going on, He would.

"Okay Matthew."

"Well, I'll let you go now, I love you." Matt responds.

" I love you too, See you in a few days." She replies.

"Yep, Bye baby." Matt whispers.

"Kisses." She announces before hanging up.

Matt places the phone down, He smiles before walking out the booth and heading down the road.

He had felt better, Less worried about Jeff. If he was still angry then fine, He can still be angry with him.

Matt wasn't gonna worry about it none. In fact, Matt had thought of going to the movies, He'd still have to head home and get his wallet but he was gonna go and enjoy himself. Not worry over his brother's feelings.

He had feelings of his own, That was enough to have to worry over.

He shouldn't have to worry about anyone elses.

Matt decides to stop by the theater to see what was playing, Just in-case there was nothing of interest to him, He would not have wasted all that time and get there and there would be no movie he would want to watch. This way he'd know for sure.

He gets to the theaters and see's that they were playing Carrie at 1:00. He wouldn't mind watching that, It's been along time since he had watched it.

He heads home and grabs his wallet and heads back to the theaters.

He had thought of leaving a note but why bother, Jeff probably didn't want to see him anyways.

He'd find out later where I've been Matt thinks.

TBC

Infection13: Gilbert is mean, But I hope that through reading some of their past flash-backs, That you see that he wasn't ALWAYS mean. And I think this chapter tells you that Matt hasn't gone. Just out for a little while. THANKS FOR READING AND REVIEWING.

Slashdlite: He's angry. I'm writing as I go along so I'm not sure exactly WHEN the surprise person will enter into the picture, But I'm assuming AFTER Matt leaves to go back to collage. Jeff and Gilbert will have a fight and Jeff will run away from home, And run into this person who will take him in. PS: If you look in the characters or summary, You should beable to find out who this mystery person will be, I hope that my decision of who this person is doesn't make you not interested in the story. I know not too many people like that pairing. But it's one of my favorite Jeff parings, Thanks for reading and reviewing.

Ortonholic: Thank you so much, I really hope your gonna enjoy the rest of the story once I get to writing it lol =D THANKS!

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