Jeff runs off the bus, He was hoping to find Matthew sitting and watching t.v.

He just felt so guilty for the mean way he treated him earlier in the morning and the feeling just intensified during the long school day.

He just wanted to find him and apologize.

Maybe spend some time with him, Watch t.v., Joke around some.

Maybe we could go walk to the ice-cream shop, Get a milkshake or something thinks Jeff.

He just really wanted to make it up to Matt, Make him see how sorry he was.

If only he is still here, I sure hope he came back from where-ever he went to earlier Jeff whispers outloud,

Jeff gets a strange look from one of the guys hanging out on the steps who overheard Jeff talking to himself.

Jeff does not worry about it, He by-passes the hoodlums and goes on to his apartment.

Jeff turns the key in the lock and swings the door open, Hoping to see Matthew sitting down or at-least somewhere in the small inclosure that was their home but nothing, Just a empty room after empty room.

Jeff checked everywhere that there was to check, The living room, Kitchen, Bathroom, His own room and even their father's just in case he was in there for some unknown reason.

Matthew was not no-where in the apartment.

Jeff was breathing heavy, Yelling and shouting out Matt's name, Screaming for Matthew to respond, To come out from where-ever he was hiding but Matt was not hiding, He was just gone.

Jeff flopped down on the couch,

He needed to calm down before he really had an attack.

But he could not help but think that he upset Matthew so much that he left, Left and went back... With out saying goodbye.

He would do it, Jeffrey remembered times when they were younger, Matt would get so upset over something, He would just run off for hours, Not being found by anyone, Not even dad. Jeff never knew where Matt went to when he did this but where-ever he went, It was one hell of a hiding spot. Matt of course always came back once cooled down but you knew you really hurt him when he did this, Jeff always felt so scared when-ever Matt took off, He was afraid that Matt wouldn't come back even-though he always did or Jeff was afraid that something would happen to him once it got dark, Jeff may have been young but he knew what kind of people there were in this world, People who liked little kids, He litterly prayed that Matt would come back safe, He was also afraid to be alone with their father, He hated it when it was just the two of them. Jeff was thankful when Matt would come through the door later those evenings, Jeff always signed a sign of relief when-ever Matt would return safe and unharmed. He would be happy that He wasn't the only one to have to deal with Gilbert. But also for Jeff having his brother back, His best friend back.

This time was different though, When Matt did this before, He was still young, Where would he go, He always HAD to come back for it was the only place there was for him to be, But now He had his collage, His dorm room, His collage friends, He even had a girlfriend he could go too, This time he could leave and NEVER have to look back.

Jeff was so frighted that He had made a huge mistake.

He just wanted to find Matt, He wanted to say sorry.

"Sorry for being such a dick, I was just tired. You should know I'm not a morning person, I didn't mean to make you upset or hurt your feelings, I just didn't think Matthew, I'm sorry. Really sorry. Just come home please. So I can say I'm sorry." Jeff pleads

He went to his room and fell down on the mattress, He looked over towards the photo of his mother, He often wondered what she was like, Jeff really could not remember her, He was still pretty young when she died. But it never stopped the dreams that he would often have of her. He would sometimes get the courage to ask his father about his mother, But his father would just look at him, With a blank stare, He had such cold eyes whenever his mother's name was mentioned, His eyes did not have the anger that they usually had, They were just dead, Nothing behind them. No emotion, They were emotionless, Jeff would sometimes have nightmares, Those eyes in the pitch dark, It could frighten anyone. It frighten him.

He wanted to know what had happened, But he felt the need to just let it go without ever knowing, He felt like it would be something better left alone. It would not change anything anyways. His mother would be still be gone, and His dad would still be the mean bastard that he is. Plus how could he find out about anything if no-one would talk about it. His dad will not say anything and Matthew just wants to forget about it. So He says.

Jeff grabs his headphones from off the dresser, He puts them on. Pearl Jam was blaring through-out the headphones. One of Jeff's favorite bands. He eventually fell asleep while the music was still playing.

TBC

Infection13: Thanks for the review, The whole family has things that they need to work on. I don't know if I'm gonna go into details about them, Probably not seeing as I'd liked to get to the good parts! :) Jeff and the mystery man. :( Sorry Matthew's not gay, He got himself a girlfriend. But who knows what he thinks about ;)

Slashdlite: Matt has a tendency to run away from problems or issues even when it is just a simple little thing. You have to remember he's gone through alot too. But yeah, He is being somewhat selfish. Thanks for the reviews! =d okay, Well that's good. I hope I'll do their pairing justice. I've only written one other very short story with the said pairing so I'm not sure how good I am with them.

THANKS AGAIN FOR THE REVIEWS!

I'm hoping to write a another chapter and have it posted in a few days, If I take too long to update just send me a message. :)