Mark could hear his inner voice screaming. What are you doing?. You can't do this, it's wrong. No, stop. He's just a kid.

Jeff leaned into the kiss but before he could get another taste of Mark's lips, Mark moves away.

Mark scoots further from Jeff, he looks down at the car-floor. He coughs. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that to you. Please forgive me."

Jeff shakes his head slightly. He wanted to speak the truth, he wanted to tell Mark that he didn't mind it at all. In-fact he would confess his feelings if it meant that Mark would return those same feelings. But Jeff was afraid, he couldn't really tell if what Mark was doing, was just him getting caught up in the emotions of the day, because of the pain of having to put to sleep Zeus or if he really felt the same secretly, just like Jeff but he was keeping it locked up inside of himself for his own reasons. Jeff had doubts and those doubts were keeping him from speaking the truth. Regardless of his strong feelings, regardless if what he really wanted was for Mark to place him in his embrace once more.

He wanted to desperately touch those moist lips of Mark's again. The kiss if you could call it that, lasted only for a mere 7 seconds or so but Jeff knew that he'd dream about it later in the night. He'd please himself thinking about it. He had denied these feelings for the most part but now this happens and he had to admit to himself. He liked him, and there wasn't no changing that. He didn't ever want too actually, Mark is the first person to ever care for him in this manner, and Jeff didn't want to ever have to go through life without that one person who cared for him like that, and that one person just had to be Mark. There was no-one else that Jeff had ever meet before that was like him, and Jeff doubted that he'd ever meet someone like him ever again. He had to make this work out somehow, someway. But would it be worth it, speaking the truth, would it change things for the better or for the worse?. Jeff couldn't decide. He kept going back and forth in his head. Tell him, don't. Jeff just wanted to know how he was feeling. He wanted to know if what had just happened was something that had meaning. And how else could he find this out, but to confess his own feelings. He just hoped that things would work out for the best. He kept his fingers crossed.

Jeff looks over to Mark who was probably fighting his inner-thoughts aswell. It had been a whirl-wind of emotions today and Jeff even had to admit that the day was full of unexpected surprises for all involved. So Jeff could understand if Mark was being a little distant then usual. After all, he did just kiss you, well sort of. Thinks Jeff.

"...Mark." Jeff whispers

Mark lifts his head and turns to stare over to Jeff.

Jeff could still see Mark's tear-stained face. His eyes were red from crying.

" I...I don't know how to do this. It's never happened to me before. But I need you to know this." Jeff begins.

Mark takes a deep breath "Look, Jeff I know what just happened was inappropriate. And I will understand if you would rather have me not come around anymore. I just guess... I am a pervert, like you said when we first meet. You shouldn't have even trusted me. I'm so sorry. I didn't think that this would ever happen. I have never in my life had feelings like that before."

Jeff grabs Mark's hand which was laying on his leg, just above his knee.

Mark stares down at the gesture, blinking his eyes. He whispers "..What are you doing Jeffrey. Why are you still here for. Ain't you afraid of me?, ain't you afraid I'm gonna hurt you?.."

Jeff scoots closer to Mark, pulling his arm around Mark's neck. "You would never hurt me, I know you wouldn't."

Mark is confused, Jeff could tell he was with the expression displayed on his face. And maybe Jeff was putting it on too strongly. Maybe he should slow down some. Before he freaks.

Mark pulls his hand away from Jeff's, he places both hands up in front of Jeff. "Look, I don't know what's going on here but I think I need out of this vehicle. I just need a few moments by myself, I need to catch my breath and collect my thoughts. Just stay in here okay. I'm not leaving you, I'm just gonna go over to that bench over there. I'll be back in a few minutes." Mark explains through whispers.

Jeff nods.

What did I do, I can't believe this is happening. I can't, I just can't let this happen. I can't feel for this kid, he's just a kid. But you know you like him, you can't possibly deny that fact, are you gonna leave him. Do the one thing you kept repeating over and over to the kid that you wouldn't do, that you'd never do. Are you gonna do that?. Will you leave him, abandon him like everyone else has in his life. Your supposed to be the one that stays, to show him that people can be trusted, loved and relied on.

Your just gonna ruin your life, and this kid's life if you allow this to happen again, can't you see your messing up the kids mind. He's already thinking he likes you. You've just got to convince yourself that this isn't how you feel. You don't like this kid like that. Nowhere near that. You just think of him as a friend, a kid, nothing more. But I can't. I do like him, I can't just make those feelings disappear. There's something special about him, something that attracts me to him. He's like a magnet and I'm the metal. How can I keep myself away from him. I don't want to crush him, I don't want to hurt him. I don't know what to do that to him. How can I be in this mess. I need guidance. I need someone to tell me what to do.

Jeff was waiting for Mark's return, when he stares out the window, he notices Mark coming up to the Jeep. His hands were tucked in his black jeans, his head was down watching the pavement underneath his feet. His glasses were back on but it didn't matter to Jeff, he was captivated by his sight. The sun was blaring down on the day, it seemed to Jeff that the sun was shining only on Mark. Lighting his surroundings, Jeff's breath was lost. How could a man be so beautiful. Just in that instance, Mark stares up as if by some weird sense of being watched or something. Jeff breaths out deep. Mark does a half smile when noticing that Jeff was watching. Jeff smiles back through the glass window.

Jeff follows Marks' movement until he arrives to the Jeep. He opens the door and gets in.

Jeff wanted to say something, but he wasn't sure on just what that would be. He wanted to say something that would make Mark understand everything. He begins to open his mouth but before he could speak one word, Mark cuts in with words of his own.

"..I want to know what you were gonna say before I interrupted you." Mark asks

Jeff had his chance now, he could tell Mark. He could tell him how he feels and that it's alright to be feeling the same way.

He takes a few short breaths "...I was gonna tell you that... I like you. I want to be with you. It was nothing that you did or have done. It's not your fault at all so please don't think you've corrupted me or something, because you haven't. You've just been the most amazing person I've ever known, and not just known personally but the most amazing person I've ever known about. You are someone I just wish that I could someday be like. Your everything that this world needs. Your kind, caring and I love that. I love everything about you, and I want to get to know even more about you, I want to know everything that there is to know. From what's your favorite music, movies, food, just everything. Because I know I'd love those things too. Just like I love you. Please don't abandon me now after everything that you've shown me. All the love I've come to know, because of you. God placed us together for a reason. Don't you think so?."

Mark swallows, his eyes were wide and he was watching Jeff catch his breath. "..But your still so young. Your only a kid." Mark whispers.

Jeff looks to Mark. Those Innocent eyes. Mark thinks . Jeff returns his stares. Those beautiful eyes. Thinks Jeff.

"If you were older, I wouldn't be as scared. I could accept my feelings for you. But not like this, your only a teenager. I can't be in love with a teenager." Mark explains.

Jeff could understand, he even kind of figured that it would go this way. After-all no one but perverts would want to be with someone my age.

"..I understand Mark, but I can't say I'm happy about it." Jeff lowers his gaze.

Mark looks at Jeff, he could see the hurt in his face. The hurt I've caused. And that was the last thing I wanted. I never wanted to hurt you. But somehow I still did.

Jeff jumps out the Jeep, knowing that there was nothing left to talk over. He begins walking steadily through the road.

Mark sits in his Jeep, staring as Jeff's figure gets smaller and smaller, further and further away. I'm so sorry Jeffrey. Your special too. One day maybe your know that for sure like I do.

Jeff gets far enough away from Mark's Jeep, to turn around and as he does. He can see that the Jeep is starting up. Jeff can envision the Jeep pulling out the drive, passing by him and leaving him in the dust. Just like everything else in his life has done.

But surprisingly it doesn't, Mark pulls up alongside Jeff's still body. He rolls the passenger window down and while kneeling over towards it, he yells out " I've thought about it some-more. And I don't think this can work."

Jeff with his mouth gaped open just scrunches his eyebrows. "What do you mean." He whispers.

"Get in and I'll explain further."

Jeff shrugs his shoulders and steps up to the vehicle. Mark had already opened the door for Jeff.

Jeff hops onto the seat, he looks over to Mark who was smiling.

"I think I've got a solution to our problem."

Jeff still a little confused but excited asks "So what have you come up with?."

Mark places his elbows on the steering wheel.

"Well, I told you that I liked you. I told you how you were a friend to me, and you still are. But I also told you how I couldn't be with you like that."

Jeff nods in agreement.

"Well, the big issue is because of your age. Right?."

Jeff nods again.

" Your not gonna stay young forever, I mean eventually your gonna get older. Right."

Jeff nods with a smile "I think I understand. Are you saying we can just wait. Hold off on the real relationship stuff until I get older right. But we can still hang out and stuff. Right?."

Mark nods "Yeah, I mean. There's still alot of things we need to learn about each other. And just because we don't do things together like that, doesn't mean we still can't have those feelings for one another. They will still be there."

Jeff smiles "I like that idea. But I have a question?."

Mark stares at Jeff "What." He whispers softly.

"Can we still do some romance stuff, like holding hands?. Would you be comfortable with that?." Jeff whispers.

Mark thinks about it some. "I don't know, let's see."

"Grab my hand." Mark says

Jeff gently holds Mark's hand, entwining their fingers together while their hands lay on the seat-cushion.

"Well, I think I might be okay with that." Mark whispers while watching for the reaction from Jeff.

"How about I drop you off home now, huh?. I think Matt's gonna be worried." Mark says as he begins driving with one hand on the wheel, the other one was still preoccupied with holding onto Jeff's hand. Jeff was smiling while looking out the window.

It was like a dream and if it is, Jeff doesn't want to ever wake up. Sure he'd love to see Mark naked but that wasn't as important as getting to know him. So all that sex stuff could wait. After-all this was just enough to satisfy Jeff. he would have never imagined that he'd get this far with Mark anyways.

I know this is crazy, I shouldn't even be considering this as an option. But I couldn't stand seeing the pain spread acrossed Jeff's silent face. I didn't want to admit that I liked him, more then liked him. I am very fond of him, of his presence but it's a shame if you lie to yourself, I've heard of people before, falling in love and for one reason or another they don't act on those feelings and they regret it, they think back on those times with heartaches. I didn't want to think back ten, twenty years down the road with the what if's, what if I had agreed to be with him. Man I miss him, I wonder what ever happened to him, did he have a happy life?. I don't want to have to think about those things. And Jeff did make a point, he said that god had placed us together for a reason. And I know that my feelings, no matter how many years pass. No-matter if I picked up my life, moved away, found someone new, I still would think about him. That is how strong my feelings are for him, I know that now. I just need to be honest, with Jeffrey and with myself. If I am things should work out. God did place us together after all. I wouldn't have run into Jeff that day or had the interest, the desire to know him if it wasn't something that was meant to be. Right?.. He just makes my days happier and I haven't ever really been happy since the lose of my family. I miss them so much. And Jeff replaces that void that's inside me. I think that's what really attracts me to him. Plus he deserves to have someone love him. He deserves that more then anyone else. I am not a pervert, I know that. I'm just in love. But I'm gonna make sure that nothing happens until we're both ready. It's hard to imagine that he has this much hold over me. I would have never thought that this would happen to me. It must be destiny, right?. Why else would this be taking place. And to think that I wouldn't want to change it any is amazing. But I wouldn't, not any of it.

TBC

Thanks for the reviews, I know the ending seemed a little out of character for Mark but I hope that you like it anyways.