A/N: I recently watched the three Hobbit films so I've been trying to add more of the original story in as background. And I also love the idea of Leah having a close friendship with Fili; I imagine him being very fun but someone to really depend on. He's quite like Leah in a lot of ways, but obviously her heart is with Thorin. And this won't turn into a love triangle - I have no intention of it going anywhere down that line!

Any feedback whatsoever would be brilliant! Constructive criticism helps greatly!

Second Thoughts

Thorin, Leah, Fili and Kili all remained silent while they ate, enjoying the taste of the meat which had been freshly prepared over the fire. Leah had never eaten deer before. In fact, she wasn't much of a meat eater, but was enjoying the taste of the deer despite her throat still aching. She swallowed quickly, momentarily regretting doing so as the pain stripped throughher neck. But she kept on taking mouthfuls.

Gradually Leah began humming a song under her breath as she ate and bobbed her head along to the tune. Kili smiled and looked up. "What is that?" he asked with interest.

"Just an old song from back home," Leah replied. "If you can stand my singing, when we get back, I can always teach you some. Possibly even take you back to my world and you can listen to them on the television. Just need to control this transporting thing."

"Do you need to physically touch someone to take them somewhere else?" Fili asked, looking up from his food.

"I'm not sure. It's something I really need to work on and see how it works. I just want to know where it came from though," Leah mused. "Are there more people like me who have the gift? And could I possibly get stronger so I can move larger objects?"

"We shall certainly help you control it, Leah," Thorin began. "It may prove helpful." He looked at her across the fire and she saw the smile briefly cross his face, igniting that lustful look in his eyes again. She imagined transporting him to various spots where they could spend intimate time together. But, of course, this would take time. It was a miracle that she'd discovered she could actually do it when she was standing before Azog. Was it her emotions that somehow acted as a conduit? Her emotions seemed to be the main force behind her power and re-gaining the memories. Her memories finally re-surfaced when she was standing before Thorin as he should have been, and she was back in Middle-earth. Maybe this really was her home after all? In Middle-earth she felt more wanted and connected to the place. Back in her 'home world', nothing seemed to make sense. She'd always felt like a bystander in her life, not having any control over the situations and circumstances. Yet here she felt as though she had a lot more control than she'd ever done before, and she had only been a 'guest' of sorts with the Company. However, over the time she'd gotten to know them, they'd opened their arms and welcomed her as one of their own. Even Dwalin, whom she'd felt extremely nervous of at first, had become like an uncle to her. Fili and Kili were like brothers, being closer to her mental maturity.

As the dwarves spoke to one another, discussing the re-building of Erebor and capture of Azog, Leah began to sift through all the new memories that were flying around her head. There were so many and the majority of them concerned acting in a way that the 'old Leah' would never have imagined. She'd been imprisoned in Mirkwood, hid in Lake Town with the rest of the Company and then helped to try and slay a dragon. How was all of this even possible?

But as Leah thought through her time previously in Middle-earth, she couldn't help but keep thinking on Thorin when he was taken by the grip of Dragon Sickness. He'd shifted completely to become a jealous, irrational and terrifying man. Was there a possibility of this happening again? Surely if he did become officially crowned as King of Erebor, he'd be the rightful owner of the gold beneath the mountain. And he may also go as far to find the Arkenstone again, seeing as it should have been laid with Thorin in his tomb, but Thorin now lived again. In sheer rage, he'd already threatened to kill Bilbo when he found out that the hobbit had been keeping the jewel from him. She had been forced to stay out of sight while the Company prepared for war but she'd raced to Bilbo's aid in those moments, standing between Thorin and the hobbit. Thorin had come close to physically shoving Leah out of the way but he'd stopped and stared at her, rationality seeming to take hold of him again.

Leah got up from beside the fire and excused herself to go behind a tree and relieve her seemingly full bladder. But instead she rested her back against the bark and crossed her arms, considering the options. She knew that she was deeply in love with Thorin and not even his actions back in Erebor could change her love for him. But could she really risk her own safety now to live alongside him? What if the sickness took hold again? True, he'd already fought himself out of it once, but would it ensnare him again? And she'd already promised him that she'd stay by his side. Could she really even consider breaking that promise? To a dwarf, an oath was an oath; pledges and promises were never broken. Loyalty and trust was paramount between all of the dwarves she'd spent time with. They were a very proud people, but their loyalty to those they held dear was still unchallenged by anyone else she'd ever met in her life.

She never realised that she'd already been gone about ten minutes when Fili appeared. "Are you alright? You aren't sick, are you?" he asked, concerned.

"I'm fine," Leah replied. "Just fell into a world of my own."

Fili wasn't so sure and frowned upon her response. "You don't seem it to me." Fili was always forthright in what he felt, and if he sensed someone was lying or not bring straight with him, he'd ask.

"I was just, um, thinking about stuff that happened before. My memories came back, and I'm just going through things in my head."

"Do you have doubts about staying with us?" Fili asked.

Leah felt tears well in her eyes at those words. They pierced her. How could she admit to this? She'd have to admit that she adored Thorin with every breath but she was considering walking away because of the risk of having her heart broken again. "I...I'm sorry," she began, tears falling down her cheeks. "I'm just scared of losing him again, Fili. He's broke my heart twice and I don't think I could survive if he did it again. We should get back. He's already been suspicious of things going on."

"Between us?" Fili asked, scowling.

"Yes. He saw us when he had the Dragon Sickness. He saw you holding me and assumed there was something going on," Leah explained. "I'll try and speak with you more later. He's going to start wondering again."

Leah and Fili approached the camp and sat back down, immediately noticing Thorin's gaze drift towards them. Fili immediately tensed, swallowed hard and looked away. He'd never been aware of such allegations until now.

Thorin watched Leah sit down beside him, his coat still tightly around her. Why had she been so long behind the tree? Surely it wasn't just reliving herself? Unless she was relieving herself of some other frustration which involved Fili. No, Thorin told himself. She is true to me.

"You were gone some time. Is there anything wrong?" Thorin asked, trying to keep calm and reserved.

"Yeah, I just drifted into a bit of day dream and Fili came to see where I was," Leah replied. "I'm fine." She then offered him a weak smile. He was obviously already beginning to suspect something was amiss, even if not concerning Fili, there was certainly something going on.

Shortly afterwards as Leah, Fili and Kili settled down to sleep for a while, Thorin disappeared. Leah noticed his sudden disappearance and decided to go and find him. She searched for a few minutes until finally she came into a small clearing and saw him standing alone with his head bowed. "Thorin?" she asked, stepping up to him.

He turned and smiled at her. "I could not sleep, so decided to wonder a little. Maybe it will help me sleep."

"Are you sure it's not about earlier?" Leah asked, sensing that her own disappearance from the group had impacted on his. "It's just...if you want me to be absolutely truthful with you, I was...thinking."

"Thinking about what?" Thorin asked, his facial expression becoming completely straight.

"I'm scared of losing you again. I've lost you twice already to the sickness and then when you died. You've broke my heart twice now, and I know it's not your fault, but I'm so terrified of it happening again. I don't think I could go on if you hurt me again. You said my memories were covered over by my fear, but there's still a lot of that left and it's losing you. What if we go back to Erebor and you become sick again? I know you were strong enough to fight your way out of it, but last time you scared me. The way you threatened Bilbo and then Dwalin. You threatened to kill them! What if you threatened to kill me?" She was filling up with tears now and they shed down her cheeks.

Thorin sighed and watched her weep. Then he took her into his strong arms and kissed her head. "My love, there is one thing I know and that is no matter what madness ever ensnares me, it could never make me hurt you."

"I don't just mean physically but emotionally. When you were sat on your throne, all that mattered was the gold and the Arkenstone. Not the others and not me," Leah said, looking at him from their embrace. "Nothing was going to sway you, not even me."

"All I thought about was you. I wanted the gold to give you and be able to give you luxury beyond your wildest dreams, but now I realise that gold and money are not ultimately what makes a man rich. It is what's in his heart. And for that, Leah, you have made me the richest I could ever dream to be."

Leah felt the familiar lust rise in her and spread through her body. She desperately wanted him in every way she could imagine having him. "You're right, Thorin," Leah said, trying hard to control her hunger for him. "I don't care about luxury and money. I just want you." Of course she wanted Thorin; she couldn't imagine having to live her life without him now as he'd become so wound into her heart. And no matter how many times she had her memories erased, she was sure he'd still be there somewhere. Nothing could extinguish the fire in her heart for him. But the fear was rising again, the fear of being without him.

He smiled at her and then let his eyes slip down her face to her lips. But as he moved forward, Leah moved away. "I'm sorry," she said, her voice breaking. She backed away from him, watching a mixture of shock and sadness wash across his face. "I'd do anything for you, and you know that. Don't doubt that I love you because it's one thing in my life I can be the most certain of, but...I...I keep seeing you as you were with all that gold around you. You changed into someone none of us knew, Thorin."

"And you promised that you would always be by my side, Leah. Nothing should break a promise like that," Thorin said, his voice growing thickened with frustration. "If you cannot remain true to your vow then maybe you're not the person I thought you were. You blame me for things that were out of my control. It was the Arkenstone that drove my grandfather's madness and then mine. And if this is what that cursed jewel is going to cause then it can stay lost!" His voice had turned into a growl.

Leah swallowed hard. "It was laid with you in your tomb. Where it is now, I've got no idea."

"Then it can stay there!" Thorin hissed and turned his back, hanging his head.

Surely Thorin's words were showing that his love for Leah ran far deeper than his need for the Arkenstone. He was willing to see it disappear forever because of what it was doing to his relationship with the woman he loved. It was raising doubt and fear inside her, and the last thing Thorin ever wanted was to see Leah doubt him.

Leah approached Thorin slowly and placed her hand on his arm. "I'm heading back to the camp now to sleep." At that, he turned his head to look at her. "It was right what I said back in Erebor: I'd gladly follow you to the ends of the Earth. You know that I'd happily sacrifice anything for you. But you had to overcome your demon. This is mine and I'm sorry. We've all got broken pieces inside us and I don't think they always completely heal. You go through life with remnants of those bad times stuck to you. I just can't stand the thought of you telling me I'm nothing again. I know it's not you, I really do. But something dark takes over that beauty inside you. And the darkness in me is fear. Your darkness brings out mine."

Thorin lifted his hand and cupped her reddened cheek, his thumb drifting across her skin. "Then whatever challenge lies before us, my love, we will battle it together. I am willing to completely accept and fight your darkness if you can do the same for me. And no more second thoughts."

Leah chuckled, looking down in embarrassment. Then looked back up at him, feeling the all familiar fluttering sensation become stronger in her stomach. This was indeed the truest love she'd ever have in her life, so why was she being so stupid and denying him? She idolised him and he her. She sensed that Thorin had been holding back from her, now wanting to push his desires onto her. But she was so overcome with mind numbing lust for him that she threw them both into a kiss. They fought hard, groaning beneath each other, gasping for air between kisses.

Leah pulled from the kiss suddenly, breathing hard. "Fili and Kili aren't a consideration at the moment," she told him, smiling. "And this is me showing I'm true to my vow." Her hands reached out and drifted up his tunic, feeling the tight muscles beneath it. Then she began unbuttoning it, watching his eyes grow heavy with lust; how much she loved that look on his face.

Slowly, Thorin removed his jacket from Leah's shoulders and then kissed her again, and this time his lips began delving down her neck and to her collarbones. Her hands drifted through his long mane of hair and she found herself losing her breath again.

Within a few minutes, Leah found herself on the ground with Thorin's jacket beneath her. He was resting above her, kissing down her and this time he was able to go much lower. His beard and hair tickled her stomach, causing her to writhe and push her hips upward as the drive to have him inside her became unbearable.

Thorin basked in her beauty; her full hips, rounded belly and firm legs. She was fuller figured, just how he liked it.

She felt his hands suddenly begin tracking down her thighs and then his right hand moved back up towards the juncture at her thighs. Leah gasped and opened her legs for him, allowing his forefinger to then delve into her folds and begin a slow rubbing motion against that one special nub of flesh.

"Stop making me wait," Leah groaned, enjoying the careful ministrations of his hand but wanting to feel him inside her.

"Why so impatient?" he chuckled. "I've never known anyone quite like it."

Leah rose up to him and kissed him again and then her hand to move down to his erection. She grasped it and felt him shudder. "Don't tell me you're not impatient...even just a little bit?" she teased. Then she brushed over the shaft with her fingers. Thorin moaned, finally letting himself go. He'd held on too long now. His dwarf form was ravenous for her.

Upon instinct, Leah opened her legs again and then felt him enter her. He stopped for a second, making sure this was what she wanted and that he wasn't hurting her. The torture he felt by not pounding into her immediately was worth it, just to make sure she was completely comfortable. It was Leah that began to move first, her hips pulsing against his. And gradually Thorin also began to move, building up a pace until he was too impatient himself and got faster.

Leah dug her hands into his back and quickened her own pace, spurring him on. All those days she'd secretly watched him, feeling that he'd never consider her and then the just the enticing lust which had built being in his presence had climaxed to this. Her orgasm was building, waves crashing through her until finally one last wave caught her strongly and pulled her right over the edge. It was so intense that she called out loudly into the darkness. And it was from here that Thorin felt his own climax come, building to a crescendo. His low grunts fell onto the empty air and he spilt deep within her.

Thorin moved next to her and took her into his arms. She put her head to his broad chest and kissed it gently. "I love you, Thorin," she said.

"And I you, always," Thorin replied. Leah leaned in and kissed him again. Their kiss was slow and sensual as they both now enjoyed the newfound bond. Now that they had made love to one another with Thorin in his dwarf form, they had truly bound themselves together. "I'm sorry for what I said earlier," Leah said, looking at him. "You were right that we need to fight each other's darkness."

"Shhh," Thorin cooed, taking her hand in his. "Whatever we face now, we face together."