WARNING!!!!: THIS IS THE FIRST SHOCKING CHAPTER OF THIS STORY....PREPARE TO BE SHOCKED!
After we ate I told Embry, Jacob, and Quil how Ryan used to be super obsessed with me. I'd lost count of how many times he tried to get me to have sex with him. He tried even more times just to make out with me. Even know, deep down inside of him, he wanted me. That guy had major issues.
We pulled out my last yearbook and I started pointing out people. They saw the five memorial pages for Jason; they agreed that they went a bit overboard with it. We laughed at all the fake bimbos. My picture was a bit different because my hair was blonde then.
"Wow! You look all California-y!" Quil said.
"Yeah, I tried not to stick out too much. I didn't really want to have to tell my secret to any one of those people." I said.
"Did you ever tell your story to any one of them?" Embry asked.
"One person, the only person who trusts me here," I said.
"Who?" he asked.
"Logan…and he happens to be the one from two weeks ago," I replied.
"Oh…" Embry said.
"Yeah, that's why I haven't called him and told him I was here. I really don't need the awkwardness right now," I replied.
"Oh…that's what you're talking about," Jacob said.
"Yeah, don't tell anyone," I said."
"I won't, don't worry. But what about the pack?" Jacob asked.
"Don't worry, I've got that covered," I said.
"Oh, that's what you meant by bet," Quil said.
"Yeah, all a cover up, no bet. That's why it seemed like I blanked out. I was hiding my thoughts," I said.
"Oh you suck!" Jacob said.
"Yeah, but you still love me," I smiled.
"Yeah, I do," he laughed.
"You are just too lucky!" Quil said.
"Ehh…not really. All of this seems so glamorous on the outside, but when you look at it from my perspective, it can really get dirty. You know what I mean? like, things aren't as pretty as they seem." I said.
"Yeah, I guess…but I'd want to, at least, try it out," Quil said.
"You wouldn't last a day, maybe a few hours, but not a day," I said.
"How do you know?" Quil asked.
"Let me show you. Put your hands in mine," I said as I held out my hands.
Quil grabbed my hands and I opened up my whole mind. Everything I felt, saw, heard, and eve tying else they, saw, felt, heard, thought…all in his head. All of the pain and confusion, the hurt and the regret; Quil felt. After just seconds he pulled away with tears streaming down his face.
"How?" he gasped, "…how could you have done that? How could you love through all of that…all of this?"
"I honestly don't know. I guess I've grown to tolerate it," I said.
"You're so strong," Quil whispered.
"I know, and you know you will never be able to speak a word about what you saw. Some things will even become a blur, but you will always remember how it felt." I said
"I totally understand you now," he said.
"May I?" Jacob said, holding his hands out.
"If you wish," I exhaled.
I showed Jacob everything Quil saw. Jacob lasted a lot longer, two minutes, but by that time he was on the floor writhing in pain. I hated doing that to people I cared about, but he asked.
"Wow!" Jacob choked out.
"Michelle?" Embry said, "can I see it?"
"No!" I shouted, shocked.
"Trust me Embry, you can't," Jacob said.
"Why?" Embry asked.
"You can't! Don't ask again!" I commanded.
"Seriously Embry, just give it a rest," Quil said.
"Seriously, I don't want to have to erase your memory." I said.
"Fine, I won't mention it again!" Embry said.
"By the way Jacob, I'm glad you didn't run away," I said.
"Thanks," Jacob replied.
"I think I'm gonna go take a nap. Ya'll can play video games if you want. I've got Guitar Hero," I said.
"You want me to come with you?" Embry asked.
"No, I'll be fine," I replied.
I went up to my bedroom and laid down on the bed. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.
I saw eyes, red eyes, so intimidating, but so beautiful. Cold hands caressed my face as cold lips ran all over my neck. Made for each other…love we've never felt before. I wanted to spend forever in the moment, but my beautiful savoir had to leave. He promised to return, I'd never know he left…
Fire engulfed the whole room as my whole world came crashing down. My eyes opened to the blood, the flesh, and the tangled metal surrounding me. Gone…forever…
I woke up screaming, my face soaked in tears. I couldn't even manage to scream out his name. Embry, Jacob, and Quil ran to my side. They tried to comfort me, but I didn't know if I could calm down. This is what I was trying to avoid, but I had awoken the memory I'd hidden inside. I shouldn't have opened up my mind and let the memories run free.
"It's okay baby, it was just a dream," Embry said as he rubbed my back.
"I don't think so Embry, I think it was something else," Quil said.
"yeah, it could be from her past; remember she has visions of the past," Jacob added.
"Why'd you have to go?" I whispered.
"What baby?" Embry asked.
"Nothing," I whispered.
I don't know why I let go this long, hidden in my mind. I can't believe I forgot him. I had to hide him, though, I had to.
"Are you going to be okay?" Jacob asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Well, someone's outside," Jacob said.
"Oh shit!" I almost yelled.
"What?" Embry said.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck! No! Fucking Ryan and his big ass mouth! Damn it! Idiot! Idiot! Idiot!" I said as I stomped down the stairs with the boys trailing behind.
"What?" Jacob yelled over me.
"Uggh!" I growled.
"What?!" Quil and Embry yelled.
"It's him!" I said.
"Who?" Quil said.
"Logan!" I yelled.
I paused at the door and took a deep breath. I wasn't ready for the awkwardness but nooo! Ryan had to say something. I put the realest looking fake smile on my face and opened the door.
"Logan! I wasn't even expecting to see you!" I said.
"Hey babe, why didn't you tell me you were going to be here?" Logan asked.
"I've been busy…and umm…yeah…" I said awkwardly.
"Busy doing what?" he asked suspiciously.
"None of your business," Embry said from behind my back.
"Oh, I see…" Logan said, "had to get one of them Indian boys."
"You know I had no commitment to you!" I pressed.
"Oh so what are you saying? All of the sex we had was meaningless?" Logan said.
"Umm," I thought, "Yeah, that's exactly what I'm saying."
"Watch it Tonto…she may use you too!" Logan said sarcastically.
"Excuse me?!" Jacob came up and said.
"His name is Embry!" Quil said, "and she's not that kind of girl for your information!"
"I can't believe the trash you associated yourself with!" Embry said to me.
"I know! I hated it! Especially having to fake everything!" I said with a smirk.
"Bullshit!" Logan spat.
"Oh, you're still here? Don't you have some frat party to go to?" I said.
"You've changed," Logan said.
"No, I'm just finally being myself." I replied.
"So, this is goodbye?" Logan asked.
"Yep! Bye!" I replied.
"Maybe everyone was right…you are a murdering bitch!" he said.
"Oh, you're going to regret that!" Embry said through gritted teeth, violently shaking.
"Embry, no!" I yelled, but it was too late.
Embry phased and he was about to jump for Logan's throat, teeth bared. I pleaded for him to stop, but he lunged toward Logan. He pit Logan's arm Logan used to shield his face.
"Embry! Please stop!" I cried.
"Embry! Stop man!" Jacob pleaded.
"He's gonna kill him!" Quil yelled.
"Embry!" I cried, I begged; he just wouldn't stop.
"Do something!" Jacob pleaded.
"You have to!" Quil said.
"No!" I cried, but I had to.
I didn't want to hurt him, but I had no choice. He wasn't a murderer; I didn't want him to be. I gritted my teeth, preparing to watch the pain he was about to have to endure. I lifted my arms, and pointed them in Embry's direction. I closed my eyes and let it out. A purple light ran out of my hands and Embry, wolf Embry, dropped to the ground yelping in pain.
"We have to go; we have to go home," I whispered.
"What?" Jacob questioned.
"We have to make everyone forget they saw us here, and we have to leave…now!" I said.
"What about Embry?" Quil asked.
"I'll handle him. Jacob," I threw Jacob the keys, "get the car ready."
"Okay," he said, going to the car.
"Quil, you have to help me get him to phase back," I said frantically.
"What about…" Quil tried to say.
"There's no helping him," I said.
"You mean…" he said.
"Yes," I replied, "help me."
"Embry," Quil whispered, "you have to phase back. We have to keep ourselves safe. We have to keep Michelle safe."
"Please Embry. Baby I love you; you have to phase back," I whispered soothingly.
Embry phased back right before our eyes. I already had clothes waiting to throw on him so we could run to the car.
"Quil, help me pick him up," I said.
Quil and I picked Embry up and ran to the car.
"Jacob hit the gas, and brace yourselves," I said.
I closed my eyes and we were back home in La Push in an instant. By that time Embry started to wake up. I wasn't ready for this; I wasn't ready to tell him what he had done.
"Embry, sweetie, we're home," I said sweetly.
"Why'd you do that to me?" he asked.
"I'm sorry, I had to. You were about to kill him Embry, I didn't want you to be a murderer. But...he's not gonna live Embry. That's why we had to leave; you made a big mess for me. I had to erase a lot of memories, even the dolls," I replied.
"I'm sorry baby, but I wasn't gonna let him get away with that. You probably hate me right now," he said.
"If I hated you I wouldn't be doing this," I kissed him. I'm not even mad, just a bit frustrated."
"Are we gonna tell Sam?" Embry asked.
"I don't know. You've tasted blood, I'm worried." I replied.
"No, don't worry. I'm not gonna run around killing humans." Embry said.
"Yeah, but you may just go and start attacking people because they say mean things about me," I replied.
"Well…" he said.
"Well nothing! You aren't killing anyone else. I can handle it without killing them, unless I lose control. Doesn't matter, though, you will not do it again! Promise?" I said.
"I'll try…" he said.
"No! You won't try, you will!" I pressed.
"Okay, I will!" he surrendered.
I was having a battle in my mind of whether or not to tell Sam. Maybe he won't be too mad. I guess we should let him know if it goes bad, I could fix it.
"Okay we're telling Sam. Embry, run inside and clean up real quick, you're covered in blood," I said.
"Here comes the bloods…I mean your family," Jacob said.
Emmett's big jeep parked in my driveway and he, Rosalie, Jasper, and Alice got out.
"Is everything okay?" Rosalie asked.
"Honestly, no. Embry killed my, now, ex friend with benefits," I answered.
"I saw you hurting him and I didn't know why," Alice said.
"Only thing I could do to get him off of him, but it was useless. He's dead now," I said.
"Damn! What happened?" Emmett asked.
"He said some mean things, pissed Embry off, Embry phased and attacked him," I replied.
"Well, I would have done the same," Emmett said.
"Me too," Jasper said.
"You've got that right!" Rosalie added.
"Aww things you guys!" I cooed.
"Anytime sis," Jasper said.
"Hey, where's Edward?" I asked.
"Bella's house," Emmett answered; Jacob rolled his eyes.
"Jacob, be nice, or you'll get a time out," I said pointing my finger at him.
"Oh shut up," Jacob said.
"Oh that's it! You're getting a spanking!" I said and started chasing Jacob around the yard laughing.
"Noo! Please don't spank me!" Jacob yelled and laughed.
"Come here boy!" I yelled.
"Noo! Please no!" Jacob yelled back.
"What are you doing?" Embry laughed as he came back outside.
"About to whoop Jacob's ass for back talking me!" I said.
"Please don't!" Jacob fake cried as I caught him.
"Bend over boy!" I yelled.
"Get him!" Quil laughed.
I, playfully, smacked Jacob over his ass, and he fake cried like crazy.
"And don't do it again!" I scolded.
Jacob sniffed, "Okay."
We busted out with laughter.
"You should've hit him harder than that," Rosalie mumbled.
"You want to be next?" I asked her.
"I'm good!" she laughed.
Jasper seemed confused, and I was curious to know what he was thinking.
"I just don't get why she's acting all happy, but she's dying on the inside," Jasper thought.
"Please don't say anything," I begged, in thought, to Jasper.
"I won't," he thought back.
"Thank you," I replied.
It wasn't Logan that was killing me; it was someone else. IT was so hard to keep him out, he just kept coming back in. It was killing me. It was taking everything I have not to breakdown right in front of everyone right here.
We went and told Sam what happened. He didn't get mad, just worried like I did. I was spacing out the whole time, still thinking about him. I just wanted to forget.