So this is my first story on here and first java junkie. I am a firm believer of Luke and Lorelai. This storyline just popped into my head when I was in class(math,of course). So basically this is an alternative season seven. So that whole Christopher thing never happened. After she broke up with Luke,she got in her car and got in a car accident. And she wakes up in the hospital with no recollection of the last three years of her life. So this is a chance for the java junkie's. So there's a lot of comedy,a bit of drama. This straight L/L and a bit of Literati too,after she (hypothetical) breaks up with Logan. So read,review,go crazy!
Chapter 2-Keep your distance
As I retreated from the room,Liz confronted me.
"Hey big brother." Liz looked at me with a mixture of warmth and worry.
"Hey Liz." I said in my my mono syllable fashion.
"How's she doing?" Liz asked
"The same." I said trying to avoid eye contact
"I heard your little speech in there." Liz said cutting to the chase
Embarrassed,I turned my head
"Oh,yeah?" Trying to adopt a casual tone I looked at her with her piercing eyes.
"Yeah. You never told me how you two met." Liz said doleful
"Never came up." Monosyllabic man strikes again,I though staring into space.
"You love her don't you?" Liz said suddenly
"Yeah. But I messed it up big time." I said truthfully
"Yeah I heard." Liz said. Trust Babette and patty for this kind of things.
"I don't know what to do,Liz. Rory won't even look at me." Completely and absolutely distressed,I buried my hands in my pockets.
"I mean I love her,right? So why did I say no? Why?" I asked mostly to myself
"Because you're an Idiot." Liz said very matter of fact
"What?" I said genuinely surprised
"You were convinced that she was going to leave you. That you wouldn't work. But to be honest,no other people belong together more than you too. It's the truth." Liz's word have a ring of truth
"So what do I do?" Our blue eyes striking together
"Stay away from her." Liz said quietly
"What?" How could I do that? My life. My existence. All of that depended on that wild eyed,coffee addict.
"She'll need time to recover. Let her recover. And..." Liz trailed on
"Liz,what aren't you telling me?" I said a bit harshly
"I spoke to her doctor. Well her mother did. And she said she might have...amnesia." Liz said finally getting the words out
"Amnesia?" I echoed
"Yes. They say it's almost certain." Liz starts to say
"Almost?" I say with a blink of hope.
"They can't tell until she wakes up. Listen Luke,I think it's best right now to blend in." Liz said solemnly
"Blend in?" I say confused
"You know. Make yourself scarce,disappear. You don't want all the Gilmores on you with questions,do you?" Giving me her patent i-know-you-don't looks
"I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy." I said honestly
She nodded. "Go. Make yourself scarce." She said pushing me into the crowd.
I nodded and headed into the hospital crowd.
I looked at Lane as she hugged me tight to her waistline. Crying into her hair,
I started babbling with tears in my eyes "She's my mom you know. I'm supposed be there for. I mean she kept me in her stomach for nine freakin' months. She gave me everything I would ever need. She helped me wallow even when I didn't want. When I made stupid really stupid decisions she took me back. She put of roof over my head and made sure I wouldn't miss out anything anymore. She is the best mom a yalie could ever wish for." I said bawling my eyes out,quiver in my voice "She could be dead. Dead! Did you hear me dead?!"
Lane pushed my head off my her shoulder and grabbed my arms. " Rory,she is going to wake up!"
A nurse in off while came up urgently. She began to talk when I spat out "What?"
The nurse looked unnerved as if she saw this everyday.
"Lorelai Gilmore is awake."
"What?" I said eyes wide with disbelief
"Are you sure?" Lane asked eyes almost wider than mine
"Yes. Miss Ellen West is with her right now. Are you family?" The nurse said in mono tone.
"Yes. Yes,I'm her daughter. Can I see her?" I said quickly
"Most certainly." 'Susan' ,according to her name tag said
Without an another word I turn on my heel to Room 708 as Lane followed me.
As we rushed down the hallway to see mom,lane grabbed my hand and pointed to a tall short haired male figure.
"Look Rory! It's your dad!"
I was so relieved. I needed him here.
"Good! Oh my god dad!" I said running to him and putting my arms around him
My dad held me closer and cooed to me as if I was two. "Your mom is going to be fine." He assured me
"She's awake." I said quiver still in my voice
"She is?" Dad said hope in his voice
"Just woke up. Come on!" I said taking off into the hallways
"Yeah. Let's go." Dad said going after me.
As we reached room 708, a tall,black haired youngish woman came out.
"Hello." She gave us a doctor smile. "I'm Ellen West. Are you in regards to Lorelai Gilmore?"
"Yes. Of course!" I said
"Well considering the circumstances she's in fairly good shape." Ellen started to say
"She is?" I said with a small ray of hope
"Yes. Her recovery will take some time. And the physical appearance is in average condition. But we are a bit worried about the mental state." She elaborated
"Mental?" I echoed unsurely
"According to our observations she was withstood severe memory loss. About three years of her life." Ellen said regrettably
"THREE YEARS?" I hyperventilated
"I am so sorry. But don't worry to much no damage was done to the brain and amnesia can be easily cured by the force of willpower." Ellen tried to comfort me
I tried to hold back my tears. "Can I see her?" I asked softly
"Of course." Ellen said kindly
"We'll call everyone." Lane said to me quickly
"Thanks Lane." I hugged her and then slowly opened the door to see my mom lying down on the bed.
"Hey kid." She said groggily
"Mom." I said softly
"Come here."
"I won't break you?"
"No. You won't."
I headed to her bed cautiously as gave her a hug as she sat up.
I hugged tightly and told her in her ear. "Don't ever do that again." Tears in my eyes were burning up. But that didn't matter. I got her back.
"Never."
"So...you remember me?"
"Of course I do."
"So how much exactly don't you remember?"
"Well everything's clear till 2004 then I can only remember bits and pieces."
"But you still remember me?" I ensured carefully
"Of course I do."
"Who else? On the top of your head."
"Um...my parents,Sookie,Lane,Jackson,Patty,Babette,Morey,Taylor,Michel,Chris and yeah."
"That's it?You don't remember anybody else?" What about Luke? I thought worried. Even though I was angry at him mom and him belonged together and always will
"A few but you said on top of my head!" She joked like her usual self
I laughed at her defence and she laughed to. And at the moment I knew that everything would be alright.
I couldn't believe she was awake. When I heard that nurse telling Rory I was so happy. I need to see her but first i need to talk to Rory. I needed to tell her I never meant to hurt her mom. And that I I will never hurt her again. Give her some time. That I just want to see her as a friend.
I headed back to her room to find Rory's dad standing in front of the room. Yes this gem. Christopher Hayden. My body hardened, I hadn't seen him since Lorelai's parents vow renewal. The reason we broke up the first time. Then I realised that it doesn't matter anymore. Me and Lorelai are done.
He notices me with a flicker of his eye. He leans against the wall acting cool. I wonder if he's acting smart because he heard we broke up. Or maybe he's just ignoring me. I'm fine with either. I hope he doesn't try to talk to me. God that would be bad.
"So I heard you and Lor broke up."
I sighed. No such luck. I grunted as a reply.
"Tonight." Christopher continued
Realising that he wasn't going to shut up I turned to him "That's right."
"Guess she finally came to her senses. That you would bail on her."
"I did not bail on Lorelai."
"Oh really?" He said with fake jovial air
"Yes. And guess what? I don't need to prove anything to you or anyone."
"Why are you here? Did she call you?" He pressed forward
"No she didn't. Rory called my sister and my sister called me." I said dryly
"Oh okay. Are you trying to get back in her pants?" Christopher said bluntly
Enraged I practically screamed at him "No I came here because even if she doesn't remember me or doesn't want to I want to make sure she's okay. Just like I did before we started dating."
Christopher turned silent at that.
Rory comes out of the room slightly more cheery than I saw her last.
"She's good dad..great! And..Luke." Rory said noticing me
"Hey Rory. Can I talk to you?" I said slowly
"Sure."
We shuffled over to a quieter corner. She looked me straight in my eyes with her blue orbs.
"Yes?"
"First I want to say I'm sorry. And I hope you don't hate me. I love your mom and I just want to know if she's okay and then I'll go away. You'll never see again except if you come on Luke's again which is your choice if you want to or not." I said all in one breath.
"Luke."
"Yes Rory?"
She took a deep breath "I don't hate you. In fact my mom got very very lucky with you and yes I heard about the breakup and I think that that was a very bad decision. And yes mom is okay. But she doesn't remember the last three years of her life and she doesn't remember you at all." Rory said tears welling up in her eyes
I felt like the ground had disappeared under me "Not even a bit?" I said in a whisper.
Rory shook her head. "I'm so sorry Luke." She said genuinely
"It's for the best."
Rory looked as if she was a mixture of thorn and somber.
"You should go." I continued
"Yeah I should. I really wanted you to be my step father by the way." Grasping my arm she looked at me with eyes too much like her mom's
"Me too." I said honestly
I walked away from Rory as a feel of dread settled in my nerves.
As I sat in bed quelling my loneliness I felt a jab inside. The feeling of dread ebbing at my stomach. I reached down at my bag. Maybe things would become clearer once I went through my bag. I started to open the zip of the bag and then stopped halfway open.
What happened? My last memory is stressing out for the dragonfly inn and dozing out in the zucchini patch and after that...nothing. Just a blank space. I felt like my brain was clouded. It was all in my head but I couldn't see it,like a mirage.
A plate full of food and mini donuts were sitting on the side table. Might as well eat something. A newspaper was sitting beside it. As I saw the date my body started trembling.
17 May 2007
It's 2007. I've skipped three years of my life. Well I haven't skipped them I just have forgotten them. I feel like there's someone in my life who I love. But I simply have forgotten. Fresh tears started running down my cheeks. Why? Why couldn't I remember?
A small knock came from the door. Wiping my tears quickly my voice hollowed "Come in."
It was mom and dad.
"Lorelai." My dad's voice stared to tremble
"Dad."
"Are you okay?" He asked cautiously
I gave a small laugh. "I've been better. Mom."
"Don't ever do that again. You understand me?" Mom said in a very hard but soft voice
"Yes mom,I love you too."
"I love you Lorelai."
As we talked more, I felt more like myself. But as soon as they left the jab to my stomach hit me again hard.
"Why?" I cried hysterically into the pillow
The door was knocked again. "Come in." I said despairingly
In came a man that I have never seen before. He was wearing a flannel shirt,a blue backwards baseball cap and a scowl. Politely I asked him "May I help you?"
His eyes flashed in shock like he couldn't believe something. Looking me straight up he took his baseball cap off and showed it to me. "Do you remember this?"
Squinting my eyes to get a better look at the hat. It was just a regular baseball hat in dark blue. It looked so familiar yet I couldn't place it. It was like a loose thread. So thin but so distinctive. But no.
"No. I'm sorry. Who are you?"
"Someone who lives in your past." The man said sombrely before stalking out of the room.
Flustered I decided to go back to sleep and decide that it was just a dream.
I couldn't stay there any longer. I just plain walked out of there. She really didn't remember me. All those years of friendship. All the things. How she got me. And her smile when I made a lame joke or when I teased her. I began walking towards the exit when my sister caught me. "Oh good. You're still here." Liz said grasping my arm
"Actually I was just leaving." I said abruptly trying to break free of her hold
"What? Why?" Liz said bewildered
"Have to get back to the diner." I mumbled
"It's the middle of the night!"
"So?"
"Luke!" Liz says loudly
"Lorelai doesn't remember me. So what's the use?" I finally snapped and pressed onto my temples.
Liz seemed lost for words.
"The doctor wanted to talk to everyone so I thought you might want to be there. She says it's important." Liz said quietly
"Lead the way."
Liz wordless turned on her heel and took a sharp left and then a sharper right. I followed her not believing in myself.
Why was I putting myself through this? Even if Lorelai does remember me eventually I'll just be a another one of her exes. Her Ex-Fiancé. The words send a feeling of dread down my arms and into my fingers.
I still remember exactly what she was wearing when we first met. Everyone looked at her like she had lost it. I looked at her like she lost it. She held her head high and when she found people staring at her she would sassily turn her head and holler out to them "Take a picture. It'll last longer." She was wearing a standard maid's outfit but she had added her Lorelai touch. Instead of the standard white and black she had added splashes of colours here and there. Feathers of the colours of green,pink,purple and orange stood proudly on her shoulders and a weary smile was present on her face. Begging for coffee I almost thought that she would pluck out one feathers and throw it at me.
She annoyed me. Yet she was the only one who made me smile. She knew that I would do anything for Rory or her. There was too many words to describe her. Beautiful. Funny. Charismatic. But she wasn't perfect.
And that's what I love about her.
When she cried,I was there. When she laughed I was there. When she didn't have anyone else I was there. Even before we started dating I knew. I knew that she was the one. The one I needed. Who needed me. And that was all that mattered. Nothing else. Not the sun or the sky or even birds and the bees. Just her.
I had her. And then I lost her. I had what I wanted. What I ever wanted. And I let her go.
"Luke!" Liz tugged at my hand knocking me out my dazing daydream. Everyone was assembled around a tall female doctor with a clipboard who I assumed was .
"So doctor what do you think? Will she be all right?" Emily said worriedly
Miss West heaved the smallest of sighs "Physically yes. There will be Physical Therapy but otherwise consider ping she'll be okay. Even after that she would need to be in a wheelchairs for four weeks or so."
I gave a small chuckle. "She would not like that." I thought to myself.
"But as you know she has lost a good two years of her life which is a highly irregular amount of memory to lose truth be told. This is most likely to be Retrograde Amnesia. So her mental state is very...let's say scattered.I won't sugarcoat it. Any sudden bits of information jump at her it could give her system a serious shock."
My face suddenly turned very pale. As the doctor rambled on and on about how she was to be handed I had enough. I slowly sneaked away from the group and decided this would be best.
For me to keep my distance.