It takes us a couple more minutes to get to district 12s apartment because we have the penthouse

i honestly can't wait to see it, it sounds amazing

the bell dings as we get there and I step out first and have a look round

when I stepped out I could already tell it was bigger than most houses in 12

when I walked in there was a coffe table a few feet away with 3 glasses of water. Behind that was the living space, there was a couple of steps into the space but as soon as you feet touch the carpet it felt like you were walking on clouds. All together there was 3 massive leather sofas one black and the other two white, they were put in a semi circle around a massive flat screen TV that was on a stone wall and the biggest fire place I have ever seen underneath it and to finish it off there was a glass coffe table with a big bunch of flowers in a vase.

There were some more stairs on another side of the living space which lead to a massive big mahogany dinning table with 8 chairs around it. Plus sosososososososososososo much food, all different types from a full cooked pig to small Chinese cakes and savoury cheesecakes.

At the back of the room there was a door which lead to a hall way with 6 doors, I walk into the first door I come to and its Noha's room. Inside it has a king size bed and loads of pillows, one wall is covered in windows and I can only hope my bedroom looks like this.

I try and open the next door but as soon as I open it peacekeepers come out of no where and close it and lock it.

I walk to the next one hoping it's mine,

" oh darling" musit says quickly catching up with me "your room is this way, you must not open any other doors you could get in a lot of trouble" he says very quickly and pushes me in the right direction then leaves.

i walk in hoping there will be no peace keepers locking it or musit telling me to go the other way. Thankfully it opens and there is a bed a big one too. The covers are a dusty grey will black patterns that look like ice patterns. There was a white dresser at the side and it was spotless, no dust nothing and the same as Noha's one of the walls was just a big window. I sit on the leather chair that faces the window out into the Capitol.

Tomorrow is training and I have no talents,skills , nothing.

I feel worthless, I feel crap

why me? Why Noha? Why Robbie? Why corrie?

Why these games?

i have a shower and boy let me tell you now, it felt good. I brush my hair and think about life and just why was this life picked for me?

I here a knock at the door and Noha walks in

"hey" I whisper

"Hi" Noha Replys

"why you here?"

"Well there is nothing else to do and the stuff on TV right now is shit" Noha giggles

" well you could go have dinner, it's quite late" I say trying to hint I want to be alone

" right, okay, bye" Noha says finally, eventually getting the hint.

but as soon as he leaves, I want him back, all of a sudden I don't feel great being so alone.

I decide to go through and get dinner cause I am very hungry.

I here chatting coming from afar and as soon as I enter everyone cheers to see me.

why is everyone so happy? What's so fucking fantastic about this?

I sit next to Noha who is sitting next to papa hay and our teams scattered across the table.

after dinner I say goodnight to Noha and papa hay and I go to my room,

but as soon as I walk in, it wasn't how I left it

the dresser was knocked over and sheets were on the floor with a note on the chair

a note I was too scared to read

I walk over to the chair and I pick up the courage to read it

so I heard you and your friends are in the games?

I just would like to say make sure corrie dies, oh and Robbie and Noha would be nice too.

just get rid of the lot of you, I'll watch you in training, I'll watch you tonight, just make sure none of you get out there alive. And trust me if you don't I'll make those games a living hell for you and I might just kill you all myself

lots of love xxx

what does that mean?!

I can't, this is too much

i go through to the living room too scared to sleep alone in that room.

i turn on the TV and fedril is on. He is going through the history of the games from the very first games to the one where my mum broke the dome thing.

about an hour has gone and it's now on the 75th hunger games, I watch it carefully, watching people's techniques.

It interests me how many people tried to save my dad, peeta.

And ex president snow urgh snow

horrible little bastard

i sit and watch fedril talk and talk and talk, soon I zone out and I just see his mouth moving and then eventually I fall asleep.