Willow pov
everyone is asleep
noah still hasn't woken up and he has too
"come on noah" I keep whispering
I end up bursting out in tears
"I'm scared" I say quietly to noah "I'm so freaking scared and I don't know what to do" I keep sobbing " please noah"
"here, let me watch him, if he wakes up, ill wake you" I look up and mahic is standing in front of me
"i cant" I say with tears in my eyes
he doesn't say anything
he lifts noahs head puts it on the pillow the peacekeepers gave him since he was knocked out
he takes his jacket off and puts it over noah
he takes my hand and I stand up, mahic then pulls me in for a hug
I just break down
this cant be how it ends
something must become good of this
...
I wake up and its very bright
I had fallen asleep against the wall on the floor
I looked around to see where everyone is and they are all on the bed
"noah" I say
"yes willow" he looks up
"oh my god" I say in relief and run and hug him
"I'm alive don't worry"
"and your okay yeh? you don't feel dizzy or anything" I say worriedly
"yes willow I'm fine, better than fine" he smiles
I smile in relief as everyone is talking
everyone but laura
she is sitting by the open window thing
I go and sit next to her
"i don't see how you all do it" she says looking outside
i look over to everyone on the bed
"we don't" I reply
this causes her to look at me
"what do you mean?" she asks confused
"we don't do it, we cant, the only thing keeping us going is eachother. everyone is suffering we just don't like showing it"
I keep my head looking out the window
"you do show it" she whispers "you all do, just don't ask if they are okay cause that's when the truth shows and believe it or not the truth doesn't always make you smile a little more or make your day a little better, these days, the truth makes it worse, makes the days a little rainier and you a little less you"
I don't say anything back as I'm trying to think what she means
"thankyou" I whisper finally getting what she means
"you all deserve much better" she continues "all of you, including your parents, they went through so much at such a young age"
"what were my parents like in the games?" I blurt out
she looks at me and smiles "oh they were outstanding, your mother well.. " she smiles "she was brave and not the sort of brave by going in the dark woods, the brave where you went into the dark woods with monsters and demons and slayed them all. she would never ever care about herself, it was always someone else. her sister, prim, was the light in her eyes... "
I had never heard prim being used, it was always 'my sister'
"she loved prim more than anything" she continues "more than anything you could think of, when prim died, I guess a part of Katniss died too"
i cant imagine loosing rye, but i guess i sorta have in a way
fucking gillion i think to myself
"you dad on the other hand" she continues at a steady pace "peeta was also very kind and giving, he was happy for what he had in his life and grateful for it, he had a crush on your mother ever since he laid eyes on her"
we both laugh as i remember the time my parents told me that story
"in the games they got close and as you probably already know, Katniss lied about her love towards peeta. when peeta found out he became a little less him, after that he didn't trust people easily it took him a long time to be able too. he stopped showing emotion towards anyone and carried on with his life" she stops
"willow" she pauses "your mother and father are two very different people, yet completely the same"