Ethan heard Charlie approaching but, he didn't turn his head. Instead he kept looking straight ahead of him. Ethan felt Charlie sit beside him. None of them spoke. They sat in silence.

"He's dead, isn't he?" Ethan whispered. "Cal's gone."

"Ethan…." Charlie started to say.

"Spare me the talk. Just tell me the truth. Cal's dead and it's all my fault."

"He's not dead."

Ethan turned his head when he heard Charlie's answer.

"What?"

"We've managed to stabalise him, but he's not out of the woods just yet. Dylan said they're going to keep in Resus overnight in case anything changes. Then he'll be moved to ICU where he'll have a better chance at recovering." Charlie explained.

Ethan could only nod. He then turned away and carried on looking ahead.

"It wasn't supposed to be like this." Ethan said quietly.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Charlie asked.

"Cal shouldn't have been the one who fell of the roof."

"Ethan, don't say that."

"Why not? That was the reason why I went up there in the first place. If only I had done it before Cal came up. It would have been so much better."

"And how do you think Cal would have felt? Do you think it would have been better for him to see his brother jump of a roof?"

"It doesn't really matter what Cal thinks. He's not the one living with this illness."

"I can't imagine what it's like knowing what's happening to your body….."

"No, you don't." Ethan snapped.

"But, what I do know is how devastating effect it has on those who care. I saw what happened with your mother. I saw how hurt Cal was when he found out that either he or you could have inherited the disease. I saw how angry he was with your mother when he found out she didn't tell you. Cal was more scared about you than he was for himself. That how much he cares about you. Cal would do anything just so you wouldn't have to live with this illness."

"And don't you think I would do the same?" Ethan asked.

"I'm not saying you wouldn't. All I'm saying is this does not only affect you. It affects Cal as well. All he wants is to be there for you. He's your brother. You shouldn't have to go through this alone. He saw how hard it was for your mother. That's why he wants to be there for you. He wants to help so you don't have to go through what Emilie went through." Charlie told him.

"What am I to do?" Ethan said.

"All you can do now is let Cal in. He's here to help you."

"But what if I can't let him in?"

"Why?"

"Like you said, he saw what happened with our mother. I can't let him do that for me. He's got a life to live. I don't want to be the person responsible for him not living the life he deserves."

"And what makes you think he doesn't want to do that for you?"

Ethan shrugged. All his life Ethan knew what Cal could be like. He was the type of person to run away when situations got tough. The kind of person to think that the way to fix things was to go out and get drunk. Or so Ethan thought. Over the past few years after all the ups and downs the two of them had faced, Ethan had seen a change in his brother. But, then after what happened at Charlie and Duffy's wedding, Ethan questioned whether or not Cal had changed at all.

"It's funny, " Ethan said out loud. "After everything Cal and I have been through, he still manages to surprise me. But, no matter what he does, however insane I still look at him and go 'yeah, that's my brother'. And you know why?"

Charlie doesn't answer.

"That's because I know him. I know what he's like and I would never want him to change. Even if he does drive me crazy most of the time."

"Cal's still himself." Charlie said.

"Yeah, I know."

"So there's nothing to worried about."

"But, I'm not. And I never will be. Not after this disease takes over. I'll never be the person I was. I'm never going to be the brother I was. And I don't want Cal to see me become someone I don't know." Ethan admitted truthfully.

"You're still going to be his brother. You always will be. Nothing will ever change that and Cal would want it to."

"But, it doesn't matter what Cal wants. It's not like he's going to survive."

"Ethan, don't talk like that. He is going to pull through. When he does he's going to be there for you. We all are."

"Charlie, you know as well as I do that the chance of surviving a fall from that height is almost impossible. And even if he does, who knows what damage has been done. I can't let him have to take care of me when he can't look after himself. And what help will I be when this disease starts to take over my body? I won't be able to help him even if I wanted to. I can't let him do that."

Charlie understood what Ethan was saying but, he couldn't imagine Ethan was going to give up on Cal pulling through this.

"What are you saying?" Charlie wondered.