Chapter 3
Arizona dropped her purse and keys on the table by the door and went straight to the kitchen to pour herself a glass of wine. She was very tired and wanted nothing more than a hot bath and a warm bed. She checked the time and decided it was still early enough for her to FaceTime Sofia. She picked up her iPad and was waiting for Sofia to answer when Callie picked up. "Oh Callie? Hi, um where is Sofia?" She was kind of miffed, she bought Sofia the iPad so she wouldn't have to talk to Callie. "She is getting out of the bathtub, we are behind because I had to work late, oh here she is. Um bye Arizona." "Bye Callie, hey baby girl" she said to her pride and joy and spent the next 15 minutes listening to her little girl talk about her day at school and then with the babysitter. Arizona wondered again for the hundredth time if she made the right decision letting her daughter go and live in New York with her other Mother and her girlfriend. Sofia yawned really big and Arizona told the little girl that she needed to head to bed "I miss you Momma" said the little girl. "I know, I miss you too. I love you baby girl" and Arizona sang a little song that was her special song with little one until she could hear soft snores coming from Sofia and then she disconnected the call.
Callie was in the doorway listening the whole time. Callie hadn't seen Arizona in a while and she realized how much she missed seeing the blonde. Usually Sofia answers the call and the only interaction they have is in email and texts. She could hear the sadness in her ex wife's voice and noticed that the smile didn't reach her eyes until Sofia came into view. She started to think that maybe Alex was right and she was a horrible person dragging Sofia across the country for her girlfriend when she knew deep down that this relationship was nothing like the one she had with Arizona. She loved Penny, but more like in a safe and I'm not going to get hurt kind of way. This was nothing like the fiery relationship she had with her ex wife, where everything was so full of passion.
Arizona climbed out of the bathtub, pulled on her bathrobe and grabbed her crutches and walked into her bedroom to finish getting ready for bed. She was still shook up from unexpectedly seeing Callie earlier and knew it was going to be a long night which was not good, she had an early board meeting and a schedule full of consults and 2 surgeries tomorrow. She contemplated another glass of wine to help her sleep but knew that too much alcohol sometimes brought on her nightmares and that could trigger her phantom limb pain. She climbed into bed and turned out the bedside lamp and prepared herself for a long night. Slowly she could feel the tears coming and she couldn't fight them anymore. She cried herself to sleep.