Chapter 13
Callie woke with a start. She looked around confused before she remembered where she was. She looked at Arizona before she noticed that Meredith was in the room. "What time is it?" Callie asked rubbing her eyes. "It's 2:30" Meredith replied before sitting down next to Callie.
Callie decided it was time to talk to Meredith but, she wanted answers first. She asked Meredith who Dr Minnick was and why she was hanging all over Arizona. Meredith told her that Arizona and Dr Minnick had been talking but they had only been on one date. "Does she make her happy?" Callie whispered.
Meredith sighed "Callie, I think you and Arizona need to talk. But to answer your question, no, I don't think she does. At least not like you did."
Callie started to tell Meredith about her break up with Penny. How she realized that she still had feelings for her ex wife. "She gave up so much for me and I may not have the chance to make it up to her. I wish she would wake up so I could tell her. She had texted me wanting to talk and I ignored it. Why do I do this Meredith?"
Meredith thought for a while and said " I think that the two of you just need to learn to talk to each other. You both assume things without talking it out. You hurt her, I've only just seen how much. It's changed her. She is not the same perky, happy go lucky person. At least not in her personal life. Do you know she hasn't been out with Richard since the custody hearing?" Callie shook her head no. "Callie, she told me that you think she is a slut." Callie interrupted "I never said she is a slut Meredith." Meredith replied "Your lawyer did, and you let her." Callie felt overridden with guilt. She has so much to make up for.
Meredith went on to say "Talking to Dr Minnick was a huge step for her. She was gaining her confidence back. I'm going to ask you to be really sure of your feelings because I don't think Arizona can handle being hurt again."
Callie told Meredith "I'm going to do everything in my power to make it all up to her. I'm not going to hurt her. Even if she doesn't want to be with me, I will make sure she is happy. I have a lot to make up for Mer, I wasn't there for her when she had her miscarriage," this caused Meredith to look up "I didn't know about that, I'm sorry Callie". Callie said "No one did, she is very private. I'm not proud of my behavior towards Arizona during that time. I feel like I pushed her to cheat."
Meredith replied " We all make mistakes. Callie, can I ask what Alex was talking about when he mentioned the last night before your therapy ended?"
Tears returned to Callie... she didn't want to admit to her horrible behavior but knew that she needed to get this off her chest as she said to Meredith "Do you remember our 30 day break?" Meredith nodded. "Well, the night before it ended, I had been drinking...and she's so beautiful...and I missed her so much...and I may have talked her into breaking the no sex rule."
Meredith looked up. "But you walked out of therapy the next day? You ended your marriage. Why would you do that?" Callie responded in tears "I don't know, she scared me. She loved me so much and I didn't think I deserved it. It's horrible, I know. I regret it so much... but at the same time, I cherish the memory of that night."
Meredith got up to leave and said "Callie, you need to be sure, you need to be certain. She deserves better."