Now a peek into what Star's been up to. Might be a shorter chapter
3 Years earlier
"I think I should start my training to be queen."
Star couldn't believe those words had come out of her mouth.
Of course her mother had been thrilled albeit a bit puzzled.
"Darling are you sure? You're only 15 years old, I didn't begin until 16."
"I need to. Especially now that magic training had come to,um, a pause."
"Dear, why has it paused."
"Glossaryk's gone Mom. Ludo took him." Star begin to sob once more.
Her mother said nothing, however after a moment she stroked her hair.
"Darling?"
"Mom if I train to become queen I can find Ludo. I can save Glossaryk. Don't you see? Then i can start magic training and be as strong a queen as you are."
Her mother smiled at her.
"Star love, I have no doubt you'll be a magnificent queen. However I recommend we get assistance looking for Ludo. He's not very dangerous but he may have help."
No way Star was going to mention how powerful Ludo had become.
She would face that alone.
"Now," Moon continued, "Why were you crying?"
"Because, I let down the royal family."
Star suddenly broke into sobs again.
And, she thought, I left my best friend without a goodbye.
She hoped he would read her letter and then forget her forever.
Later that evening she was in her old room, brushing her hair, when Ponyhead burst in.
"Bfly!"
"Ponyhead!" Star hugged her best friend, "What are you doing here?" She asked.
"Um I could ask you the same thing girl. You totally left all of us waiting for you at the surprise party!"
"What party?"
"Earth Turd and his parents had a party planned for you. For your birthday and year on Earth or whatever."
"Oh no." Tears spilled out of Star's eyes. They had a party? Just for her?
Even after she yelled at Marco?
"Oh Ponyhead I made such a mistake!"
"I told Marco I would come see you and give him a report."
"No need Pony. I'm going to go see him myself." Star smiled, popping a dress on.
"Need me to come?"
"Nah, I'll see you later ok?"
"Bye girl!"
Star stepped into the portal and exited into the familiar sight of the Diaz's front yard.
She was so ready to tell Marco how sorry she was when-
Through the living room window she saw Mr. and Mrs. Diaz on the couch. Bawling.
Dad Diaz had his arms around Mom Diaz and they were slowly rocking back and forth.
Star's own eyes filled with tears.
She had done that.
Quietly she walked to the back of the house and looked into the kitchen.
Marco was in there.
But he wasn't alone.
Jackie Lynn Thomas was in his arms, kissing him.
Marco was kissing her back, while still crying.
Hearing about it had been bad enough but now Star actually saw it.
She couldn't tear her eyes away.
A few seconds later Marco pulled away and hugged Jackie into to him, still crying. Now he looked angry, and hurt.
Star had seen enough.
I should go.
Pulling out her scissors she spared one last glance and then stepped into the portal.
She caused them misery and vowed to never do it again.
2 years ago
That image had haunted her for weeks, months.
She felt so guilt, hurting Mom and Dad Diaz like that.
And Marco. He looked so upset.
Gripping her wand Star blasted herself with the numbing spell she had found in the library a few weeks ago.
She had tried it and immediately enjoyed how she no longer felt anything.
This was the third time she had used it.
She sat there and felt the feeling of nothingness wash over her...only to be gone a second later.
Frowning she tried again. And again.
It didn't work.
Angrily she reread the page containing the spell.
"To no longer feel the pain of life
No more suffering, grief, or strive,
Be rid of emotions and feelings, if you dare,
Say this spell to no longer care."
A tiny print at the bottom caught her eye.
"'Not recommended for long term use. Intended for medical treatment note: surgeries.' That doesn't make sense!" the 16 year old stomped her foot, acting more like a 6 year old.
With a huff she stormed out of her bedroom and around the corner, almost crashing into her mother's guard.
"I'm so sorry Princess!" He immediately bowed.
"It's fine Saturn." She waved her hand, indicating he stand. He seemed to notice her distress.
"Are you alright?" He asked kindly. She nodded.
"You sure?"
That did it. Star no longer held the persona of a princess as she collapsed into him, sobbing.
Saturn Cosmel had been a guard for roughly 4 years now. Now he had heard stories of strange interactions between the royals and the guards but the 22 year old was pretty sure this was the first time a princess had ever collapsed onto a guard, bawling her eyes out.
At the very least it was the first he'd ever heard of. Fortunately dealing with his sister taught him well.
"There, there," he soothed, "tell me what's wrong."
"I can't!" she cried.
"Ok." He replied easily. Breaking code he gently stroked her hair and hesitantly out an arm around her.
For several moments he let her cry before she straightened up and gazed at him with red, watery eyes.
"I'm so sorry. You must think I'm an idiot." She mumbled.
"Nah. Just don't do that at dinner tonight. It's honor of you and turning 16 you know. They might think you're ungrateful."
For the first time in a long time he saw the princess smile.
"Thanks Saturn."
"No problem. If you need a friend I'm here."
She smiled bigger.
2 years ago
Star quickly accepted a friendship with Saturn, despite him being older than her.
She'd go visit him after lessons and when he was on rotation for her. He made her laugh and in a way kind of reminded her of Marco.
Not his looks, for he was tall and fair, with pale yellow hair streaked with white and orange. But his personality helped make her feel like herself again a little.
Until one day when she was going through her things and found,of all things, one of Marco's hoodies.
She began sobbing as she held it to her.
This pain had to stop.
Saturn ran in the room.
"Star? Is everything ok? I heard you crying and got worried."
Star stood up and ran into his arms.
Saturn was so wonderful, he cared for her, was her best friend.
Maybe that was why the 16 year old suddenly found herself on tip toe, and pressed flushed against him.
She had kissed him without a thought and thought she was enjoying it until she realized.
He wasn't kissing her back.
Opening her eyes she was surprised to see pale skin with yellow hair, streaked with white and orange instead of dark brown hair and tanned skin.
This wasn't Marco.
Immediately Star pushed away and stared at Saturn who gaped at her.
"Star? Are you ok?"
"I-I'm so sorry." She whispered.
"Don't worry about it." He reached for her and she stepped back.
"Go. Please."
"But St-"
"I said GO! You are dismissed Saturn." Without even waiting for him to go Star fled to the library, straight to the dark spells.
Tears streamed down her cheeks, over the broken hearts.
She had to fix herself.
She had to stop feeling like this.
Well I guess this wasn't a short chapter haha. Soooo what's your thoughts on Saturn Ring Cosmel? Also please don't hate me for all the dramatic scenes. Hope you enjoyed this chapter!