Ai-Chan: Gomenasai Mina-san! I fell off the face of the Earth for a while, but I am back! ^O^

Grell: *glomp* I meeeshed yew!

Ai-Chan: Grell! I meeshed yew tew! Well, now-

Sebastian: Just get on with it!

Ai-Chan: EEEK! Where did you come from? Anyway...before we all die here, enjoy this next bit and I will hopefully update soon.*runs out*

Grell P.O.V.

We arrived at William's elegant little apartment. I've always admired how clean he keeps it. The nervousness hadn't gone away, which is why I am now sitting in the living like a deer in headlights. I trust Will, but I don't think I'm ready for this. Sure, my actions come across as me wanting to desperately get in his pants, but I'm more insecure than I look. I don't know how things will go, if things will even go that far. I don't trust myself enough to go through with it yet. I might break down from all the stress.

I've not had a single good experience with sex. Despite my flaunting, I am terrified of the idea. William and most of the shinigami don't know, and I plan to keep it that way. When I'm mentally prepared, I will go through with nature's course. I need to be ableto trust the person enough to allow them to know my secret first. William might be the one, but first thing's first; he has to earn my trust.

William P.O.V.

Grell seems to still be troubled. Could it be his confidence was just a farce? I've never seen him so nervous in my life. I feel as if I should ask what the matter is, but if it's something he's not ready to discuss I can't pry. The only thing I can do is try to comfort him the best I can.

"Grell?"'

"Yes, W-william?

"Is something the matter? You've been jittery since we left the restaurant. I won't force you to tell me. I just want you to know that I'll listen; no matter what it is."

"Thank you, Will, but I don't think I'm ready to tell you just yet."

"I understand. I'll be here when you need me."

I went back to preparing tea, and came back a few minutes later to see Grell in the same state. I promised not to pry, but he really seems conflicted. I've learned over the years not to force Grell to do anything. He must have suffered quit a bit for behaving a little too violently toward people trying to force him to do things.

"Grell? Darling, would you like some tea?"

"Thank you William," I handed him the cup of chamomile tea and saw him visibly relax as he took a sip. I glanced at my watch, seeing how late it had gotten. Not wanting to be a buzz kill, I invited Grell to spendthe night, which he agreed to enthusiastically, yet a little hesitant. Something is definitely wrong, but I won't push him into something he doesn't want. I might act like an ass to him at times, but I still respect him.

Grell P.O.V.

I agreed to spend the night with Will. I just hope he doesn't do something that will make me lash out. I followed him to his room, being careful not to seem like I was about to hyperventilate. Once there, William handed me a set of pajamas, while he went to the bathroom to change. After we both back in the same room, I remembered one important detail.

"William?"

"Yes?"

"I don't have my uniform with me. I was wearing casual clothing."

"It's quite alright, Grell. You don't need to come to work tomorrow. I'm giving you the day off."

"Not that I don't appreciate the day off, but why?"

"Well, you seem to be conflicted and I don't want you stressing yourself out."

I want to trust Will, but my mind is telling me otherwise. It's hard to trust others when all you think is how many lies they're feeding you. I wish I could put the past behind me, but the constant fear still lingers. In due time, I will learn to trust William. For now, I need to make my boundaries clear.

Sebastian: That is a lie!

Ai-Chan: What is?

Sebastian: Grell having boundaries.

Grell: Is not.*sticks out tongue*

Sebastian: Oh really? Then how come you and- *gets cut off by Grell*

Grell: Oh Sebby! You gossip queen. Review and help me get over my uneasiness.

Ai-Chan: Like he said.