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UPDATE: 8-14-16 7:00PM CST: The person from the previous chapter told me to change the crutch so I omitted the phrase and changed it.
UPDATE for 8-18-16: Someone PM'ed me and said that the entire chapter was in source code. I did not mean to post it that way. So here I am fixing the chapter. Next chapter will be out ASAP.
~Poignant: evoking a keen sense of sadness or regret~
They always prayed for some peace and quiet around the house. But now that they got their wish, it was suffocating. They didn't worry for a while. Mikey just needed some time to cool off. They all thought. But after a few hours they had to go out looking for him. Leo and Raph went to look in the woods while Donnie, April and Casey went to look around the house.
Leo and Raph went back to the house when they had no luck. Same story with the was about to go to the barn when he heard humming. He followed it till it got louder and louder. He saw Mikey sitting on the edge of the lake with his feet in the water.
~Is there anybody out there? - Secondhand Serenade ~
You can say goodbye,
To all the things that you have ever known.
You can say goodbye,
And leave behind the life that you have grown.
What's the point?
You try to start from scratch,
but get let down,
You can say goodbye,
Just to realize there's no-one left around.
So what am I fighting for.
Donnie knew what this song was about. It was about what was happening the past few months.
Tell me,
Is there anybody out there?
Am I swimming through this empty sea alone?
Am I looking for an answer
Or am I trying to find a way to get back home?
Is there anybody out there?
Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried?
I'm looking for an answer
And just trying to find a way to survive.
You can live and die,
Without the chance to find out what you're worth,
You can live and die,
And never find the one that she'd deserve,
You can walk alone,
And live inside the shadows in your heart,
You can say goodbye
Only to find you've been alone right from the start
So what am I fighting for?
Donnie felt absolutely terrible. How the shell didn't he see what was going on with his only little brother? How could he fix this? How could he not see how alone Mikey has been?
Tell me,
Is there anybody out there?
am I swimming through this empty sea alone?
Am I looking for an answer,
Or am I trying to find a way to get back home?
Is there anybody out there,
Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried?
I am looking for an answer
And just trying to find a way to survive.
Never thought that I would end up all alone,
Every day I'm feeling further away from home,
I can't catch my breath,
but I'm holding on.
Is there anybody out there?
is this the last time I have to say goodbye?
Am I staring at my future?
Is it time to take charge of my life?
Is there anybody out there?
Am I swimming through this empty sea alone?
Am I looking for an answer,
or am I trying to find a way to get back home?
Is there anybody out there?
Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried?
I am looking for an answer,
And just trying to find a way to survive,
a way to survive,
and I'm holding on.
Donnie felt tears welling up in the back of his eyes. MIkey was feeling all alone. He felt like he had no one. They were horrible brothers. They made Mikey feel like he didn't have anyone.
"Donnie was in tears by the time Mikey finished the song. He felt so bad for his only little brother. He had to fix this somehow. He just had to. Donnie looked up but MIkey wasn't in the spot where he was. Donnie looked around and came face to face with an unamused Mikey.
"What are you doing here?" asked Mikey crossing his arms.
"I came to bring you home. Do you really feel that way Mikey?" Donnie asked cautiously.
"Why do you care now? Where were you when I needed you all these months. Look I get it. You all had to do important things. You had to help Leo get better and Raph was making sure nothing happened to Leo while he was out. But what did I have to do? NOTHING! None of you guys needed me. When I would ask if you need help you kicked me out of the barn. Literally! I think my butt still has that bruise from when I landed on the gravel. Then when I wanted to make sure that Raph was eating properly and what did he do?! He punched me in the face and kicked me out of the bathroom. Everytime I tried to help someone I got it thrown back at me. I know I shouldn't have had yelled those things back there. All those things I said...I don't feel bad for saying. I meant most of the things that I said back there...I don't feel sorry for saying them. But I don't hate you guys…" Mikey finished quietly.
"Mikey I understand how you feel. I've been a horrible big brother. It wasn't far to treat you that way. I'm sorry you felt so alone all this time. And I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you and-"
Donnie was interrupted by a pair of strong arms wrapping around his neck. Donnie instantly hugged Mikey back. His was so glad that his only little brother was safe in his arms.
"I'm so glad you're ok Mikey. I'm so sorry...I promise I'll be a better brother. I love you little bro."
"I love you too D"
Raph, Casey, and April were sitting on the couch while Leo was sitting in the reclining chair. They were all watching TV but they paid no attention to it. They were all still thinking about what Mikey. It hurt to hear him that he hated them. Mikey had always been the loveable one. No matter what, he always saw the good in people, even if you hurt him. He tries to understand everyone and anything. Mikey was their light, laughter and now he's gone. Everyone was missing Mikey.
"I'm going to get some water from the kitchen" said Leo getting up from the chair.
"You sure you want to get up? How do you feel?" asked April looking over her shoulder.
"Doing better than yesterday. Really guys it's fine." He tried to reassure them when they looked at him suspiciously.
"Did we f' up that bad?" Leo nodded slowly and plopped down on the chair.
"Yea...I guess we did Raph…" Leo said ashamed.
"Guys don't worry about it. Mikey will be better in no time." Casey said trying in vain to lift their spirits.
"No Casey...not this time. I yelled at him. How the shell is he ever going to forgive me? I basically said that Sensei is dead." Leo said as he quickly wiped a tear away.
"Hey don't be like that Fearless. Remember I almost hit him. I blew him off too." Raph said awkwardly. He isn't the best at this feeling things. But the worst part was that they all messed up and they didn't even realize it.
"But that's the thing, we both know how he can be. Didn't you see the look in his eyes when I mentioned dad? We both know how much Mikey looked up to him. What are we going to do?"
"We try and apologize. And if we forgives us, then we make it up to him." said April finally speaking up.
"What if he doesn't forgive us April?" April didn't have an answer to that.
Just then they all heard the front door opening. They all scrambled to the front entrance and they saw Donnie walking in with Mikey. They all spit out questions again.
"GUYS! Calm down! One at a time!" Donnie yelled when he saw that Mikey was getting overwhelmed.
"Why did you run away?!" Leo asked frantically.
"I had to get out of this house. I'm sorry but I'm not sorry. I know that wasn't the best coping mechanism but I couldn't stand the tension in the house anymore. And before anyone says something else, I did mean all of those things that I said, but I now know that I could have worded my feelings a little differently. But I don't hate you guys…" Mikey said as he looked down.
"Then what was all that about?" asked Raph now angry getting again. He's still mad about Mikey calling out on Leo's injuries (Just go with me on this again)
"I got so sick of being scolded for trying to help. Raph I wanted to make sure that you were getting rest and eating properly. And what did I get in return. No you did not comply, you know what you did? You hit me and then you pushed me out of the bathroom! Leo while I was glad you woke up I was worried that you were going to get up and try and take control. And you know what? That's exactly what you did. I thought that you would know better than that. You didn't need to try and take control again. You needed to take a step back and see what had changed over these past few months. Not try and take over again. We can't pretend that everything is back to normal. Because it's not. You and everyone in this room knows it, you just can't accept the fact that this is out of your control. Can you?"
The familiar tension was back in the room. No one said anything. Leo was letting the words that he just heard sink into his mind. Mikey was right...again. What kind of leader was he? How could he not notice this? How could-
"And don't you dare you berating yourself now. You always do this. Every time you see that a plan failed you go and berate yourself in the middle of the battle. And you leave the rest of us to finish off the battle. Sometimes I wish you would come off of your high horse and get with the program! YOU AREN'T PERFECT! It's like Murphy's Law number 3: If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong. Corollary: If there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen then." Mikey said.
Donnie was surprised and shocked at this. "Mikey, where did you learn Murphy's Law?"
"I read it in a book once. And yes I read books! I don't always read comics ya know."
"Mike you just crossed the line." Casey said dangerously that sent shivers down everyone's spine but Mike just laughed it off.
"Casey before I say something that I'll regret later, you need to turn your arrogance meter from a ten all the way to a zero. For God sake have some humility. Not everything revolves around you. And yes I know the situation with your father and little sister and I am sorry for them. I do hope you find them."
"Where is all this hurt coming from Mikey?" April asked gently.
"WHY WON'T YOU ADMIT THAT I'M AN EMBARRASSMENT TO YOU GUYS?! And don't lie, I hear you guys talking about me all the time. About how I need to grow up, how I need to focus, and how you may need to stop bringing me on patrol because all I do is and I quote by Raph 'fuck it up.'"
"Because that's all you ever do Mikey!" Raph yelled without thinking. "You always manage to fuck things up! Shell I WISH IT WAS YOU WHO GOT FLUSHED INTO THE DRAIN INSTEAD OF MASTER SPLINTER!"
Mikey looked down, tears welling up in his eyes. "You don't mean that do you?"
"I do! Forever and always! It's your fault that Splinter got flushed down the drain! I PERSONALLY MARK YOU AS MY ENEMY!" Raph didn't know what happened. One second Leo, Donnie, Casey, and April were holding him back. And the next Raph was holding Mikey in a deadly choke hold. Mikey was struggling to get air into him and felt like his lungs were on fire. Raph tightened one of his hands around Mikey and punched him square in the jaw.
"Mikey flew back and landed on his shell. Mikey started to cough from the lack of air, but struggled to recover. Raph kicked Mikey in the middle of his plastron which sent him flying out the door.
"Raph STOP!" Leo whacked Raph in the back of the head with the crutch. It was enough to bring him out of his self-induced rage mood. Raph recovered and realised what had just happened. Donnie was already outside with April and Casey checking on Mikey.
"Mikey...MIKEY can you hear me?" Donnie asked gently shaking him.
"Ugh…" Mikey put a hand to his head and groaned. Raph walked outside and tried to approach Mikey. Raph held out his hand, silently begging Mikey to come to him. Mikey crawled backwards scared of what else Raph might do to him.
Raph felt extreme guilt well up inside of him. What the shell is wrong with him? "Mikey...I...I" Raph stuttered to form the right words.
Mikey stood up on his feet and looked Raph in the eyes, fiercely before breaking down in tears and running off into the woods.
"MIKEY!" What the shell have I done?
Raph you big meanie!
Daaaaaaaaamn more BAMF!Mikey.
And that is the end of chapter 2! I wanna give a big shout out to a Guest for calling out Casey's arrogance and giving me the idea of Mikey feeling that his brothers are embarrassed by him.