Hey, I wrote the entire plot line of this story since 2014, so at least let me finish it and stop having nightmares about it.
Don't read if you don't like fem!Kid. She's portrayed as a princess-type with unusually bad moods but hey, so is original Kid.
It was a silent night in Gallows Mansion. Kid made sure the younger of the twin pistols was satisfied and cozy before he fell asleep with a smile on his face. She closed the door to his room, which was next to her room. Of course, the demon pistols both had their bedrooms on either sides of their meisters. 'For symmetry of course.'
Liz leaned against the wall opposite his little brother's room as Kid shut the door with a soft click. "Your turn." Kid turned her head to look at the older brother, who crossed his arms and grumbled.
"I don't need to be tucked in." Liz said as he made his way to his own room and shut it with his heel. Kid's expression didn't faze at the slam and she made her way over to his room anyway and stood before it, before a small smile graced her lips.
"Do you want your usual ritual then?" Kid asked. The shinigami didn't have to speak very loudly, because she knew Liz was leaning against the door waiting for his meister. The door immediately opened and the older brother threw his arms around the shinigami in a death hug and the shinigami petted the sandy blonde hair as he attempted to cuddle into the crook of her neck and shoulder.
"You're the best." Liz's voice sounded like he was going to cry. It was already a normal thing for the team of three. Kid was the the parent, Patty was the child and Liz was the regular moody teenager. When they set their differences aside, they were really a great team.
Kid's hand ran up and down Liz's back, comforting him. "You praise me too much Elliot." he snuggled into the crook of her neck more when she called him his given name. "You're such a good person." Liz really did burst out crying when he heard that from his meister. They were the words he always wanted to hear from anyone. The fact he and Patty had changed because of the shinigami yet she gave them all the credit.
After the emotional moment, Kid sighed and went back to her own room. Checking the time, it was 20 minutes past 7pm. Turning on the lights in her dark room, she looked at her bed. She enjoyed the silence, but it felt wrong. It didn't feel right.
Most likely because everything right to her was probably in his apartment sleeping like a log while his weapon partner does the dishes. Liz and Patty did inform her that Black Star broke 5 practice dummies after their little spat yesterday morning. Her heart throbbed in pain when she heard her weapons talk about Black Star. She was suppose to be angry at him! Not wanting to get up and run all the way there to kiss him.
'But you do don't you?'
Kid stared at her feet as she sat on the edge of her bed. The side Black Star loved to sleep on. She lifted her legs and laid on her head on his pillow and took a deep breath. It smelt like him and the shinigami couldn't describe it. It was just an unusual smell. If sunshine had a smell it would probably smell like that.
'How badly do you want to race out in your nightgown to see him Kid? How badly?"
She held the pillow against her body and closed her eyes, pretending for a moment her blue haired love was in bed with her and holding her like he always does. The way she felt his strength when he held her comforted her when she slept. 'Stronger than god.' she would use his excuses.
'You know, you could always go see him.'
"No. No I shouldn't. He's probably angry right now."
'Of course he is. You're the only love is life aren't you? Wouldn't you be upset if he started a fight?'
"... I suppose. I mean... I never tell him my feelings. He's not suppose to guess right? Besides I think he'll do a bad job at guessing too."
'Give him a break won't you? He does so much for you. Remember the time you made him carry you to see Excalibur."
Kid let out a small smile at that memory. Their first ever moment together as friends was spent with a very annoying holy sword.
"Yes. I remember."
'And the time you went on your first date? You decided to wear high heels and tie your hair into pig tails to look more like Maka. And you happen to injure yourself because of those heels and Black Star basically carried you around half that date.'
"I did kiss him as gratitude didn't I." She grumbled to herself, a hot blush rising to her face.
'I recall it was one of the worst kisses ever. Your teeth both collided didn't it? And those times you won in your little spars and he never complained, but when you lost he still had to apologize to you.'
"Rather unfair now that I think about it." Kid rubbed circles in her palm with her thumb.
'He loves you so much. He's willing to wait for you. What about you return the favour.'
The reaper hesitated. Return the favour? She never really thought about it. So far in this relationship, the reason it kept together so well was because Black Star was so patient with her and willing to do everything with her.
"I love him so much." She says quietly, but lovingly. Her heart was fluttering from the memories of them, how hot her cheeks felt like they were burning on a summer afternoon.
'Then knock on the door.'
"What?"
'Knock on the door.'
She looked up and she was face to face with Black Star and Tsubaki's apartment door. Kid's face grew hot and she looked down to see she literally walked here in her nightgown, her feet instantly taking her here.
She really was desperate to see him again.
She raised her fist to the door and knocked. A soft shout of 'coming' and soft footsteps before the door slowly opened and she saw the smiling face of Tsubaki.
"Kid? What are you doing here so late? In your nightgown no less?" She glanced at the clock in their living room before looking at the shorter girl.
"Tsubaki... may I come in?" Tsubaki smiled and nodded before stepping aside and shutting the door. Kid looked around their house and noticed Tsubaki was planning out her tutoring sessions with the twin pistols.
"So what seems to be the problem Kid?" Tsubaki giggled at Kid's wondering eyes, the weapon already knowing what exactly she was looking for.
"I... came to see Black Star." Kid fidget slightly. "I wanted to apologize for my behaviour recently and... tell him... ..." she stopped speaking and stared at Tsubaki hoping she got the hidden message. The weapon's confused expression grew into a motherly smile.
"Go ahead. Black Star's in his room probably knocked out. He had a tough training session today, breaking 5 mechanical training dolls." Kid watched the weapon as she nervously smiled at the other girl. The mechanical training dummies were programmed with abilities like the enemies they fight, and no matter how much the pressure of the meisters swing they would not break, but for Black Star to break a total of 5 of them… The reaper turned her head to the bedroom door, walking over to the door and placing her hand on the wood.
Slowly opening the door without making a sound, she walked over to the assassin and observed the way he slept like a log. A rather noisy log. Kid's breathing grew more shallow as she stepped closer to Black Star before she kneeled next to him to be able to look at the blunette closer.
'He looks so peaceful.' It put Kid at ease and soon enough she found her fingers being tangled in his wild blue hair. It was still damp and flat from being washed. 'He should dry it before he goes to bed. Honestly.' she continues and slightly grips it just to feel what it felt like between her fingers. He stirs slightly when she gripped his hair like that, but she doesn't notice and continues.
She leans near to him, her lips beside where his neck met his jawline. He was ticklish there whenever he felt her breathe lightly onto that one area or pressed a soft 'innocent' kiss. Kid found it insanely entertaining to tease Black Star when he was asleep because he was showing her pure unguarded expressions and reactions. She loved it. She still loves it. Because she loves him.
Untangling her fingers from his locks, she had a glum look and a slight pout when she looked down at him. "I'm sorry my polaris." she nudges fingers against his own open ones and linked their fingers together. They fit perfectly, as usual. "I admit I may have overreacted. But you as well should know your place. We're both at fault, and I just wanted to apologize properly," the rest went unsaid as she clammed up. She blinked down at him as he started to snore, her fingers still linked with his.
She allowed herself to let out a small laugh into the back of her hand as he snores. He's ridiculous but he's hers. He was her bright stars in contrast to herself, the dark night sky. Black Star really did bring out the best of her and she reminisced those times well spent, with him of course. Kid looked at him with such fondness in her gold eyes as she has seen his sleeping face before, and she remembers all those times well.
"Kid?"
She looks up from their intertwined hands to his face, where he's rubbing his eyes with a free hand and the groggy expression on his face, trying to focus and blink away the sleep. The hand went to reach for her head where his hand gently touched her face. The reaper considers if Black Star thinks he was imagining her in his room.
"I apologize for waking you Black Star." she says as she leaned into the hand cradling her face. "I just came here, to tell you I'm," she made a face like a slight moment of indecisiveness to continue. She has never apologized to anyone, as she was the daughter of Death, constantly superior to any regular mortal.
"to say I'm sorry for what happened, between us." her eyes darted left and right not daring to meet his own, in fear of if his reaction is not the one that she desires.
He pulls her down into his lap and kisses her eyelids. "Look at me, please." hesitant, but she obeyed his instructions. Gold eyes looked up to find his emerald ones and her eyes widen. In the light of the moon coming from the window behind him, there is no feeling of anger, of resent, of any sort of unwelcoming feeling on his face. He smiles at her with such love for her that it forced tears to well up in her eyes.
"There you are." he says wiping his thumb across her face where the tears rolled down.
"I-" she began again, tightly wrapping her arms around his torso. "I'm sorry! I'm sincerely so sorry please," she sobbed. Black Star's arms wrapped around her and securely held her. She could feel the strength in his hold, all that power surging through him he could easily break her, but instead chooses to hold her as gently as possible.
"I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry," she repeated like a mantra and she felt him stroke her hair. She didn't know what she was apologizing for anymore. Because she fought him? Because she left him? Because she could not communicate her thoughts and feelings? Because she could not say she loves him?
Because she's going to leave him?
He pressed a sweet kiss to her lips, a soft chaste kiss to shut her up from her mantra. It stopped her from apologizing, which gave him the opportunity to talk. The reaper rested her head onto his shoulder in relief and heavy lids started to close. He felt Kid become limp in his arms and he chuckles at how endearing she was.
"You taste so sweet," he moves her bangs from her forehead and kisses it before he settled her beside him and held her as they slept together. "I don't think I can wait much longer. I want to taste every place of you." he takes her hand and kisses inside the palm. These same hands defeats many enemies in the name of her father, handles two demon pistols, and performs the death god martial arts. But they're soft and nobody would ever believe if Black Star ever says there is more to Death than darkness. They'll never know how sweet she tastes, how emotional she is, or how fondly she truly thought of him.
He was her polaris, before anything else.
They fell asleep in a mess of limbs, young and in love. Black Star slept a little more peacefully that night, not knowing it was the last time he was ever going to see the love of his life.
Extra:
Tsubaki watched Kid walk through their bedroom door. She smiled at how cute Black Star and Kid were together, before frowning and realizing what this meant for her. They would want some space for themselves and having Tsubaki in the house would just mean uncomfortable conversation the next morning.
'I better call Liz.' she thought before quickly grabbing her essentials into a bag and leaving the apartment as fast as possible, heading towards Gallows Mansion for the night.
Thank you for reading! I enjoyed writing this I really did. I love writing Lorn, and I'll update Deal With It after.
Reviews are welcomed. Unless they're reviews about why I swapped the genders, I swear its not because I'm homophobic its because Stephanie and Kid would both be the same gender and it would be harder for BS to choose, if Kid was male of course he would choose Kid, no competition lol.