Yay! We finally got some of Hera's backstory! I loved that episode. Sorry I didn't update last week. But, Sabine wasn't really involved in last weeks episode, so I had no insparation. Anyway, Enjoy! I own nothing!
Sabine looked at her painting. It was beautiful. Just one more touch to be added. She picked up a nice green color and made a certain part of the painting stand out: the eyes. The eyes of her hero. Hera Syndulla. The best pilot in the galaxy.
"You're so amazing, Hera." She whispered. She was prouder of Hera she ever had been before. She was truly amazing.
It's just too bad she had to prove it.
Sabine finished up the painting of Hera, in the B-wing, bravely going face to face with the enemy. That was the woman she wanted to be when she grew up. Brave, smart, talented and all round magnificent.
Sabine put down the paint gun and looked at herself as best she could without a mirror.
How can I ever be Hera? Look at me…
She sighed inwardly and began to walk away. She was crazy to think she could ever be as talented as Hera. Hera was incredible and Sabine was… nobody. She wished she could be naturally good at something and didn't have to work to achieve it. Aside from art, which she enjoyed, she had nothing that just 'came to her.' She loved her art, but it wasn't a useful talent like Hera's natural talent of piloting.
Seriously. How could a picture possibly help this rebellion? I have talent, but none of it useful.
Sabine just wanted to matter. To everyone, not just the crew. Granted, they loved her; they were all like a family. But families always love each other. She wanted other people to love her, too; not just her family. She wanted a skill that 'came naturally' to her, aside from art. Everything else she was good at, she had to work for. That hardly seemed fair.
Sabine climbed up onto her bed and laid down. She didn't understand…why. Why it had to be like this. Why she always felt so useless. No matter how many times Hera had helped Sabine see her true self and her worth, she always felt inferior again within the next few days. She still kept all the lessons with her, but she sometimes had trouble applying them. Most of the time, Sabine felt useless. But, on some days she was able to feel good about herself. Sadly, this was not one of those days.
"Sabine?"
Sabine turned her head toward the door to see Zeb standing there.
"Need something?" She asked, climbing down. She knew she closed the door, so she wasn't sure how he got in without her noticing it. However, she ignored that for now.
"Yes. I was sent by Hera to-"
"Figures Hera is behind this." She muttered. Was Hera ever going to give up? Could she seriously not go ten minutes without nagging Sabine to cheer up?
"Behind what?"
"Oh, nothing. Continue."
"Alright. Hera sent me to tell you that she needs help doing something to the…thingy."
"I admire your extensive vocabulary." Sabine smile coyly. Then, she followed Zeb's directions to help Hera. As he was leading her, her juvinile side managed to cease her. She got distracted and wandered off. She walked through the hallways looking for something to do when a hand on her shoulder made her jump. Sabine turned to see Zeb looking at her, irritated.
"Where are you going?"
"Uh-"
"Come on."
She smiled sheepishly and continued to follow him.
Why was he so annoying? Couldn't he tell she was obviously bored? Besides, she couldn't help Hera naturally. She couldn't stop thinking about that. About how she had to work to get good at everything except art. Why couldn't someone else help Hera make repairs? She wasn't very good at this stuff. Well, she was, but it was a sensitive subject at the moment.
"Hey! Are you coming or what?" Zeb called. Sabine snapped out of her daydream and realized she had stopped walking.
"Yeah, I'm coming!" She replied as she ran to catch up. When she caught up, they entered the Phantom.
"Hey, Hera. Watcha' need?" Sabine asked.
"Good, you're here. Can you help me run a dyalasis? I think it's fixed up better than good, but I just wanna check."
"Okay." Sabine said.
After she had helped with repairs, she went back to her room.
I don't know why I always have to help with repairs…maybe, some talents have to be worked for.
Sabine sighed. Maybe all skills didn't come naturally, maybe some needed practice. And maybe working hard to get better at it, was what made it so much more special when you had it.
All done! Sorry it was so short. Please review, all critisism welcome, but no flames please. See you next week! It's going to be a really Sabine centered episode, so I'm really excited!
