Well I sure loved that episode! We got a lot of Sabine's backstory. Kanan hasn't really spent much time with Sabine so I thought I'd involve him. NOT Kanan/Sabine, just a brother/sister thing. Here's my chapter, hope you enjoy!


"-and so I tried to say that. But, you wouldn't let me. You just left and gave me an eye roll. I'm never really sure how to take it. Anyways, I'm getting way off topic here, back to the first question; are you ever going to let me in?" Ezra rambled through the door. Sabine didn't answer, for she had been blocking him out for over half an hour now, and therefore didn't hear Ezra's question. Ezra obviously didn't care if he got an answer, for he kept going right away, not even pausing for an answer, if he was going to get one.

"I mean, I don't have to come in, I can talk fine from out here. It just seems a little more natural to actually be looking at someone when you're talking to them, but of course, that's just my opinion. You may have a totally different opinion, which is fine. But, still. Who cares though. I don't. So you made up with your friend, or what? I mean, she seems nice and all, but I personally-"

Sabine couldn't hear him. She simply carried on with what she was doing in her room. Ezra had been out there rambling on for over an hour. At first she just ignored him. But, then she had started to block him out. In fact, at the moment, she didn't even know he was still there! She carried on for ten more minutes, thinking she was alone, when suddenly, Ezra knocking finally caught her attention.

"Sabine! Are you even in there still! Sabine!"

"Huh? Yeah, I'm here. I was just… wait… you're still here?" She asked incredulously.

"Yeah. So are you going to answer the question? If you aren't going to answer it just say so. It may be personal for all I know, but I don't know. Chopper really got mad one time when I asked him a certain question that he was apparently very sensitive about. He tried to chase me but Hera helped me get him off my tail. Not that I have a tail, but I just like the expression, you know? One time, Zeb got me to believe he had a tail, but it-"

"Ugh, Ezra. Would you please shut up." Sabine interrupted. She had had enough. The irritation in her tone must have really gotten through to him, for he remained silent for a few long moments.

"…so can I come in, or what?" Ezra asked finally.

"Can I just be alone, please?" She asked rhetorically.

"See! There it is again! 'Can I just be alone, please?' That's what I've been talking about!"

"Ezra."

"Right. I'll come in now. Can you unlock the door though?"

"No, Ezra-"

"If you're busy, I can ask Hera for the code and unlock it myself; she knows the code to every door. You know, if you have your hands full or something."

"Ezra, that's not-"

"I'll be right back."

"Ezra! Ugh… why do I even bother." She muttered. She knew Hera wouldn't just let Ezra in anyway. Sabine was doing her business again when Hera's spoke through the comlink.

"Specter five, come in. This is Specter two."

"Go, Specter two."

"Did you really invite Ezra in?" Hera asked confidently, obviously knowing the answer already. Sabine guessed Ezra was next to Hera listening to the conversation.

"No, I didn't."

"That's what I figured. That's why I asked first. Told you, Ezra." Hera said.

"But she said I could." She heard Ezra say through the com.

"No, actually, I didn't; you just assumed." Sabine retorted.

"But I heard you say-"

"Alright, if you two want to argue, you can do it either in person, or over your own comlinks. But I have work to do and I'm not going to stand here so you two can chat." Hera interrupted. Before either of them could say anything more, she hung up.

Sabine sighed. Ezra was so annoying sometimes. She began thinking about Ketsu again. That was all she'd been thinking about, even when Ezra had been blabbering on outside her room for over an hour. Would Ketsu ever come back? Surely, she would. But, maybe as a rebel? With their crew?

Sabine smiled at the thought. It was a childish dream, but sometimes those ones were the most happy.

We really need more girls on this team. Sabine thought with an inward laugh.

She was jerked out of her thoughts by a knock on her door.

"Ugh! Go away, Ezra!" She yelled.

"What? Um, it's Kanan."

Sabine mentally slapped herself. How could she have been so hasty? Would she be in trouble for talking to Kanan like that? She went over and opened the door. Kanan raised an eyebrow.

"Kanan, I didn't mean to that to you-"

"You shouldn't have said it to Ezra either. Let alone anyone." He said firmly. "A polite 'please leave me alone at the moment' would have been acceptable."

"Sorry. I'm just… thinking of a lot right now."

"I know." He said, his gaze softening. There was that reassuring leader-like look she loved to see. It always made her feel more comfortable and secure…she wanted Ketsu to feel that, too. Maybe one day…

"-abine…Sabine."

"Huh?"

"Where'd you go?"

"Sorry." She apologized.

"…may I come in?"

"Why?" She asked, confused. He never asked to come in.

"Because I wanna talk to you."

Sabine stood still for a moment before moving aside and letting him in. She closed and locked the door before turning to Kanan, baffled.

"So, Sabine," Kanan began, sitting at the table. She took a seat on the opposite side. "I noticed you've been really… quiet lately."

"Quiet?"

"Yes. Is everything alright? You haven't been talking as much the past few weeks, and you've been spending a lot more time in your room, even more than usual…is there something bothering you?"

"Did Hera send you?"

"Huh?"

"Oh, never mind. I guess if you don't know what I'm talking about, then she probably didn't."

"Okay…that set aside. Are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah I'm just… I don't know." She mumbled.

"Sabine, if something's bothering you, you can tell me. If it's Ezra, I can talk to him."

"No, it's not Ezra." She answered quietly. She didn't know what it was either, to be honest. She just had a bad day every once in a while. She was still in the same 'bad day' phase as she had been for two weeks now. She needed even more than an old friend to lift her spirits that she was feeling so down.

"What is it then?"

Sabine blinked and looked away as she felt tears brimming in her eyes.

"I don't know." She whimpered, trying but failing to steady her voice.

Kanan reached out a hand across the table and laid it there, as far as he could get it.

"Is it this whole 'girls are equal' thing you've been going through? Because I think-"

"No, it's not that either." She said, her voice cracking.

"Then what is it?" He asked softly.

"I… I don't know!" She wailed helplessly. Sabine started sobbing. All the emotion she'd been holding in for weeks finally came out. She couldn't hold it any longer. Her head fell onto her arm which was laying on the table. She sobbed into her arm for what seemed like hours, which in reality was only seconds, when she felt a hand on her arm. Sabine lifted her head a little to see Kanan giving her a look of sympathy and concern. He brushed her hair out of her face only to have it fall down again. He stroked the side of her face with the back of his hand. For a moment, the crying ceased. But, then she started to cry again as Kanan lifted her chin. He came and sat next to her and wrapped a comforting arm around her, pulling her in. Her head fell on his chest as she continued to cry.

"Take deep breaths." Kanan instructed, his voice barely more than a whisper. She took a shaky breath in and out.

"Good." he praised, talking softly and gently. "Again."

Sabine took another one and he brushed her hair back again.

"Good. There you go. One more."

She did as instructed as her tears began to slow and her heart rate evened out.

"I don't know what's wrong with me." She whimpered, tears still dripping lightly down her face.

"Nothing's wrong with you. You're just stressed."

"Do you think that's all it is? Stress?"

"Yes. It's okay to cry, Sabine. It helps get the stress out."

"But I feel so useless. I'm supposed to be mature, not a whiny baby that cries over every stupid little thing." She told him.

"Hey, don't say that about yourself. Crying is okay. And if you don't cry, those emotions stay trapped, and they build up and up until eventually they boil over- like now. Since you've been holding it in, it's been building up. Now that you've finally decided to let it out, it just seems really extreme because you're releasing all the emotion that built up over the past few weeks."

"So you're saying I should cry?" She asked sarcastically.

"I'm saying you should not be afraid to cry. If you're sad, go ahead and let it out, don't hold it in."

Sabine thought about it. She lifted her head off his chest and looked at him. Suddenly, her arms wrapped around him in a hug. He hugged her back and smiled. Kanan had always been more of a leader figure to her. But, he could be a really good big brother, too.


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