They had planned it for half a year, they had written letters and thrown them away just to write the same thing again. They had looked for the location, walked around searching for a beautiful scene. They had left small hints to their friends about it. And now they were ready.

Now they were writing the letter for the last time, perfecting it. They were thinking what to wear, should they match or not, should they have suits on, or just casual clothes?

They didn't knownmost of the things, all they knew was that right now they had a week till the date, when it was to happen. It was the exact same date they had started dating, just a different year. It was the date both of them were the happiest. It was the date the both of them knew that life had a meaning.

Lately, Taehyungs bad times had become normal, good times an exception. Lately, Yoongis skin had been burned red way too often, almost everyday there was a new mark on his skin. Lately, life had thrown a lot of bad things towards them, Yoongis dad dying because of a stroke, Jimin ignoring the both of them, saying they were liars and have gotten all of their friends to be with him, no matter how supporting they were at first.

And all that helped them in their decision, making them not to wait the next year, not to wait till Tae was twenty, like they had planned first. But to do it now, when they were both thinking, again, that it was the hardest decision, but the one they really needed to do.

"Should I put black pants and grey shirt, if you'd put then grey pants and black shirt?" Tae asked, tears flowing from his eyes, not because of sadness, but because he knew everything would be easier so soon. "T-that sounds good" Yoongi answered, crying too, he because of sadness, because of his dad, whose death had been announced to Yoongi just a day before.

"I'll have a look for matching ones if you write again?" Tae said leacing the apartment slowly, and so Yoongi began to write;

Hello,

Here is the last time you'll hear of me, of us. In exactly one week you will not need to think about us anymore, you will not need to judge us anymore, because then we won't be here anymore.

In a week we will climb on top of the building there, and jump down from there, together, with the only person close to each other. Together we will end our lifes to make your life easier, and more of to get out of our lifes.

We have been planning this for over an year now, and we found this time to be the best. The date will be our anniversary. And it will be a memory of the happiest day of our lives. And then also the last day of our lives.

I hope that you read this letter thinking of us and knowing that it was bith of our decision, not one of us deciding for both, it is what both of us need.

I, Yoongi, am writing this letter while Taehyung isvlooking clothes for us to wear, and when he returns we will go to post this letter, to you, to other people we thought need to know this.

This is a suicide letter, but this is a thank you letter also.

We are writing this to thank you for being a part of our lives, for being here for us. We want to thank you for being you. Thank you.

Sincerely, Taehyung Yoongi

They posted the letter, and then waited for a week, waited to the day to come and when it came, they dressed up, kissed and hugged a lot, walked to the building they choose, with the prettiest view they knew. They took the elevator up to the roof and went to stand on the edge, getting ready to jump and stopped.

"I love you so much" Tae whispered, sobbing heavily, watching the street underneath them. "I love you too, so so much" Yoongi answered, turning Taehyungs head toward his and kissed Taehyung, so sweetly and lovingly, putting every fibre of his being in to the kiss, making Tae feel him, feel what he felt. "Let's go" Tae whispered, taking Yoongis hand in his and stepping closer to the ledge, the next step would take them over it.

And then, together they took it.

And at the same time, they both thought

"I love you so much"

When hitting the ground they were both alive, but just barely, Yoongi had his eyes closed, not able to breath at all, dying right in front of Taehyungs open eyes.

Taehyung heard sirens coming to them, people yelling around them, but was unable to react, he just watched how life left his love, and left Taehyung alone. Then everything went black.

It was three motnhs later when he woke up, in a hospital room, knowing Yoongi was dead, and realizing that he wasn't, no one there with him, not before a nurse came in and said "oh finally you're awake" calling a doctor to see him.

Three moths after that he was released, and day after his release he slit his wrists open and died in the same place Yoongi had died half a year earlier. With the same words on his lips

"I love you so much"

* now it's ready, i'm crying in my bed just thinking that my babies are dead, and well this is it. I'm thinking that maybe I'll sometime write more things to this au, placing them there to different times, like their first meeting and shit. Now I'll soon start rereading this and make it a bit better if I can. But here we are, at the end.

Please, come and message me, I'd love to chat with people, and recommend me all the Taegi fics you know, from here, aff, ao3 and/or ffn

With love, Taru *