I have had the best and worst time visiting my family, as soon as we entered the airport my brother turned to me, went "Bye bye" and then turned to leave =_=. Soon I will be getting my results and see if I get to do A levels (I don't want to know ;-;). By now I should be back in the UK, probably just leaving the airport. I hope you enjoy this update and as always have a good day~
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Chapter 7
Time: 6:45pm date:27th February **** (past) place: Lucy's apartment
Perspective 3rd person/ Lucy Heartfillia
The days had passed quickly, already the trio had gone through 3 movies (all romance, of course). And now they had moved on to ordering a large pizza to share between them. While waiting for it to come they decided to share gossip among themselves. What had been happening around the area, school and in their daily lives. It was natural that this topic would've come around, and it was more so that they would ask Lucy what had made her so different over a short space of time.
Prepared or not, she understood that she had to give them some sort of explanations, even if it wasn't all of it (she was allowed to keep some secrets, she told herself). So when the time did come, they only implied the question by staring.
"Alright, I'll tell, just... don't overreact okay? I don't need you to burst my eardrums." Looking else where, Lucy decided the patterns on her quilt were the most interesting to focus on before she explained most details of what had happened the past couple of weeks, what she had felt (besides the crush on Natsu), what had happened between her and Natsu. It was uncomfortable, and left herself anxious for their reply. Yet at the same time, a weight has been lifted off her shoulders with the knowledge that she wasn't alone, and Natsu wasn't her only friend.
Finally she finished, ending with a final "And that leads us to today." Before she looked up at the two females, waiting for any response. And as time went on, she felt a little foolish for being so dependant on their reactions.
"Lucy... why didn't you tell us?" Levy spoke, tears in the corner of her eyes at the thought of her friend suffering because of her emotions and even losing a friend. She knew something was off between the two but thought it was only small, instead she felt something was different with them. Although there were tears in her eyes, she also felt a pang of anger running through her (towards herself and the blonde). The blue haired girl tried to keep it in and restrained herself so that she could hear her friends answer.
The blonde was looking between the two, Lisanna also looked upset. Deep inside, she knew she was part of this cause and all that did was metaphorically create wounds on her. To her, things had only started improving, but they were improving due to the support of lies.
Once more, the blonde redirected her vision. She knew her answer wouldn't be taken correctly, it would cause them to doubt the strength of their friendship. She didn't want that. Instead she tried her best to put it in a different view.
"Because I thought it was nothing, less than what reality told me it was. I was foolish and took it upon myself so that you wouldn't have to carry something which didn't have to be carried. I didn't want you to think the worst. I didn't want to lose you guys too for thinking what I did was wrong and that you would be forced onto a side." By the end, her raw emotions came back to life. The bitter feeling in her chest, and the burning sensations of dry throats and red eyes. She was weak, looked it, felt it. But when everything was said out loud, it made her realise how real the situations were. Natsu was gone. She kept secrets from her friends. She was weak as a person. She couldn't even admit that the person she viewed as a friend, she views as a lover. So she prepares herself for another argument, would she lose two more valuable people in her life? She wasn't sure she could handle it.
But they didn't shout at her, not did they turn their backs.
Instead they grabbed hold of the girl and pulled her into a hug, soothing her with reassuring words.
"We wont leave you in your time of need, Lucy." Lisanna stated, burying her head into the blondes shoulder.
"Lisanna's right, there's no way we would leave you. After all these years, do you really need me to say it? You and Natsu, what ever it was about, I'm sure it'll be fine." Levy squeezed her tighter, as if she was trying to fight off any doubt.
"And what if it isn't?" Lucy couldn't stop the sentence, she was grasping on to any hope there was, trying to cocoon herself in comfort.
"Then you still have us."
(The next day: 2:00pm)
Lisanna had left earlier that morning, she was called in by her sister, who told her that she had needed help in somethings back at home. The silver haired girl profoundly apologised before grabbing her stuff and rushing out the door. At this space and time, it was Levy who was now taking her leave, although she was refusing to leave without reassurance on everything the blonde said.
"Are you sure you'll be ok?" Levy questioned once more, turning to stare the girl in that eyes, investigating for anything which suggested that she wasn't.
Since the confession, Levy had double checked on the taller girl every half an hour. Asking her repeatedly if she was ok. Of course this has become annoying, how would it not when the same question is asked twice followed by 'you sure?'.
"Yes, Levy! Listen I will tell you whenever I don't ok?" The irritation was starting to seep in with her words, although none of this actually affected Levy.
"Promise?"
"Promise."
"Cross your heart and hope to die, stick a needle in your eye?"
"Levy!"
"Fine." Pouting, the smaller female walked out into the hallway, things in hand, before turning to the blonde, eyes softening.
"Just know that I'm here for you, 'Kay" Before Lucy could respond, Levy grabbed the door handle and closed the door.
Letting the surprise pass, Lucy decided it was time to tidy up from the previous night (putting away the blankets and washing up) before falling back on her bed hours later. She was starting to drift before a sound in her apartment alarmed her. Swiftly getting up, she tried to listen out for anything which suggested movement. It was within the next five minutes that she heard a sound from the living room. Although she didn't want to, she slowly made her way to the living room, if there was an attacker, she was able to scream loud enough to alert her neighbours.
Arriving at the living room door way she quickly scanned the area, before settling on the silhouette sitting on the sofa. She took immediate act, and turned her light on.
To much of her surprise, sitting on the sofa was Natsu, peering at her from under his bangs. His appearance had changed. His clothes were full of creases, darker in colour. His body language suggested he wasn't playing with her, that whatever he had came for, it wasn't to restart their relationship.
"N-Natsu?" She couldn't quiet stop the quiver in her voice. He was unsettling, and still she found herself intrigued.
"Damn Luce, you had a sleep over without me? Harsh, we always have sleep overs." His tone suggested he was joking, but the feeling wasn't there. He didn't move, almost as though his mouth wasn't moving itself. At this point, Lucy put on a harden shell, so what ever would happen, it couldn't hurt her as much as before.
"Had, is the term you should use Natsu. We had sleepovers, not anymore."
In response she got a feral growl.
"Yeah, had. You know for the past couple of weeks I've been waiting for an apology, but I guess you've already let go of our friendship." He turned his position so she could view his eyes. They had hardened, but if you knew the boy well as Lucy did then it was easy to recognise that he had been having a lack of sleep.
Though she couldn't being herself to care. What he just said started a fiery rage sitting her.
"Me apologise? Why should I apologise? You're the one who said we should basically stop hanging out! And let go of our friendship? How the hell did you sus that out?" She allowed bitterness to denature the words, turning them dark.
"Oh, sorry that I asked for space! And I always thought you would be there for me, only for you to leave me when I ask for help? Yeah if that's the case I do want an apology." He began to stand, walking up to face Lucy, for her to see just how angry he was with the situation, with her.
"It's pretty easy too, in figuring out that you've left out friendship behind. You know, not talking to me, avoiding me, even making new friends." His voice was low, rough around the edges.
"And who would that friend be? Lisanna of course! Was it a plan? To get her away from me to-"
Lucy quickly interrupted, getting angrier with each word.
"Don't you dare get it in your head that out friend ship is formed to spite you. Our friendship was started for other reasons, her life doesn't revolve around you Natsu. She doesn't want you like you want her."
Her eyes casted down, understanding that he wouldn't understand just how she couldn't understand him. He harshly grabbed her shoulders.
"And what would you know huh?! For all I know you've never even had a crush, so tell me how would you know how it fells in this situation?"
Lucy could feel tears welling in her eyes.
"TELL ME!"
"I DON'T! Ok! Is that enough?! No I don't know how it feels to be in love." It was all a lie, she knew the pain all too well. She knew it enough that it was standing in front of her claiming she knew nothing. But she knew everything.
For a second the male felt bad, regretted his choice of words. It wasn't fair of him. But before he could apologise, Lucy had pushed him off her, and he watched her wipe the tears he never knew she had. He had came to talk to her, discover what had went wrong between them, but when he noticed how she had a sleep over, returning to her normal life, his mind was flooded with jealousy. Especially since he's been having such a tough time without her.
Calming down, Lucy regained her breath and turned from Natsu, hiding her face. She didn't want to say what she would, but right now, her mind was in shambles.
"Natsu I want you to listen to me." In return the male looked up at her, debating in whether he should get closer to her or stay put. But the debate wasn't decided, as Lucy continued to speak.
"I want you to leave Lisanna alone. She doesn't want you. Save yourself now, instead of being hurt. Can't you see the way she looks at you? As a brother? She loves someone else, and if you know so much about love. You would let her be happy." Her tone held a sense of sarcasm when she mentioned him knowing what love was.
"And as for our friendship?" She took a deep breath "It's best that we stay away from each other, I don't want to speak to you anymore. I'm already tired of this." She felt cold, her words taking on the same feeling. Cold. Empty.
Even to Natsu, he realised that she was ending their relationship, that she no longer wanted to continue. As friends of course. It made his heart twist painfully and stomach turn. His brain starting to become dizzy, because he didn't want her to leave.
"L-Lucy, Luce! Please, let's talk a little more. I-I don't want to lose yo-" It went unnoticed.
"I'm saying goodbye to our friendship, Dragoneel." Lucy started making large steps towards her bedroom.
"Please leave, lock the door, and don't come back."
SOOOOOO the last sentence has two meanings, one : for Natsu to get out of her apartment and not return. Two: to abandon their friendship as it is and save themselves now (Because it's only getting worse). I hope you enjoyed this, I hope to see some reviews! Please tell me what you like or what you think will happen.
