~Chapter 4~
~Milieu's POV~
I had been working hard in the doctor's lab trying to finish fast so I could go out and find Jealousy. It had been impulsive of me to suddenly kiss him like that, I wanted to apologize and start all over again. He was confused of my strange behavior, and I didn't like his scared face when I pinned him to the wall in that shed. I was blocking him from my mind, but I was reading his. He was afraid I might hurt him, so I broke off the kiss before I lost control of myself. I had already brought him near my body to deepen the kiss and didn't know how much longer I could hold out without ripping his clothes off and taking him right there. I wasn't proud of the way I had acted, it wasn't normal or correct for me to lose control like that. It was him, he was the reason I was acting so out of character. I waited till the doctor was out of the room to sneak out a window and go looking for Jealousy. It didn't take long, I was scanning the nearby area, searching for his unique aura and found him walking towards a park. He had apparently already been there before, as he knew a certain path well. I hurried behind him and called to him when I was near enough. He turned around startled, he hadn't noticed I was there, but his expression changed into a small smile when he saw it was me. I hadn't seen him smile like that before, and I felt a small blush make its way to my cheeks.
-"I was hoping to run into you today. I wanted to talk to you about something."
So he wanted to talk to me too? That smile… Is there still hope for me yet?
-"Umm, yeah, me too. Can we go to a quieter place to talk? It's important that you hear what I want to tell you."
We walked towards a benched area near some trees, away from curious eyes. I sat next to him in awkward silence while we both waited for the other to break it. I decided to get it over with and apologize first.
-"Jealousy, about that day in the shed… I'm sorry for acting so weird and kissing you like that, it was uncalled for. I guess I should apologize for stalking you too, it was wrong."
Man, how pathetic. I couldn't even look at him and my cheeks were burning like crazy.
-"I would like to start over, you know, as acquaintances and then become friends….. If you would like that…."
I sounded like an idiot. Why was this so hard? It was just a simple task, apologize and try to patch things up. Maybe I was afraid that he wouldn't forgive me, but he did smile and told me that he too had been looking for me. I looked up at him and saw him staring at me with a mixture of emotions on his face. I got worried, had I said something wrong? His face softened and he looked down with an undecided look in his eyes this time. Is that a faint blush on his face?
-"I wanted to talk to you about that too. I was really confused, and the fact that you just left without saying anything didn't help matters either."
Oh, I had forgotten about that little detail. I just kissed him in the forehead and left right? He was looking at me with wide eyes that time too.
-"I'm sorry. I scared you and then left without an explanation."
I was starting to lose my control again. I had this strong urge to grab him and kiss him and just hold him tight, but I couldn't do that, my apology would be for nothing if that happened. So I just sat there patiently waiting for him to say more.
-"Umm…."
He was nervous, biting his lower lip now. That blush I thought I had imagined was beginning to make itself more evident.
-"A-actually, um, I…..kinda…..liked it…. The kiss I mean."
Well, that was surprising.
-"I was having a hard time trying to decipher why I had felt so good when you kissed me and pulled me toward you. I was having an internal battle because I didn't want to admit to myself that I had enjoyed it. But I thought it over last night and realized it."
Was I dreaming this? When I didn't say anything, -I was shocked, what do you expect?-he looked at me with anxious eyes. I hated that expression. I silently got closer to him and kissed him softly on the lips. I felt him shudder for a bit before he gave in and kissed me back. I smiled into the kiss, relieved that he was kissing me back. When we separated, his blush was even redder than before. It was funny, his skin was so pale that the color not only covered his cheeks, where it was more intense, but it gave his whole face a light pink glow. He looked adorable! He looked up at me and I gave him a warm smile. Yep, this day was turning out great!
