~Milieu's POV~
Tonight I need to pick up Jealousy for our date. I'm finishing all of the things the doctor asks of me as fast as I can while trying not to show him how nervous I am. I don't want to be late to our first date, he looked very excited about it, and I'm not about to ruin that by being tardy.
The doctor doesn't seem to know anything, and I'm hoping it stays that way. I don't know what would happen if he found out I'm interested in a relationship with one of my brothers, one who is part of the Evil Douji Branch at that. He doesn't really care about social norms, I'm not worried about him not approving us being both male, but considering that this could influence his experiment, he may not like it.
He just left the lab to go to his room. I know that he is going to take one of his naps. Even though he's the most powerful man in the world, he's still old. Besides, he likes his naps, says that that's how he gets his best ideas. Anyway, it's my chance to leave since his naps are quite extensive. If I'm lucky, he might sleep the whole night. Making sure to not make a sound, I open the window and head out.
~No one's POV~ *first time trying this, tell me how it goes*
After Milieu left, a quiet chuckle comes from the doorway. Dunstan is standing there with an amused expression on his face.
"Well, well, well, this is certainly an interesting development. Let's see where this takes us."
~Jealousy's POV~
I've been on edge all day. Tonight Milieu's supposed to come over to go to the movies, Lune has no idea, and I'm seriously having second thoughts. Should I really go through with this? What if it does turn out to be a joke, I won't be able to take it.
Lune keeps watching me from the corner of his eye, he knows something's up. He's not questioning anything, though. Since it's a Saturday, he doesn't have any school, he can't visit his friends (or exfriends) because of us douji, and the Evil Douji Branch, or rather Vice, haven't summoned a meeting either, so it's been a slow day. I don't know what he will say when I tell him I'm going out tonight. Iruma was very paranoid and so he never allowed me to go anywhere, I'm sure Lune is not the same, but I'm still cautious.
I try to act nonchalant, but I'm still tense and I know he notices. We haven't spoken about anything other than say good morning to each other, and that doesn't help the awkwardness of the situation.
Finally, he spoke up.
"Jealousy, can I ask you something?"
I turn to see him put down the book he had been reading and turn his desk chair towards me. I nod slightly, not trusting my voice just yet.
"Are you feeling alright? You've been tense since this morning. Is this about what happened last night?"
So he's still wondering about that. I flushed with embarrassment at the memory of him finding me a mess of tears on the floor. I had the unrealistic hope that he would forget about that. I sighed in defeat.
"Sort of."
He stared at me, waiting for me to continue. I sighed again.
"Okay, so do you remember a couple days ago when you asked me if I was alright? I had taken you to school that day too. I told you I was fine, but that wasn't exactly true. What I didn't tell you is that after you went inside, Milieu appeared in front of me. Actually, he had been following me for the last two months, but I hadn't noticed until then."
Lune stiffened for a moment, worried that we might have been threatened. I quickly dismissed that.
"No, no. It has nothing to do with the Hundred Machine Funeral, he was acting alone this time. Anyway, he cornered me and confessed that he might have a slight crush on me. And, he, um, he... kissed me."
Lune had a look of complete shock.
"Wait, he kissed you? Whoa! Now I see why you were so quiet... But what does that have to do with your breakdown last night? Did anything else happen?"
He took it better than I expected...
"Well, later we met by chance at the park. He wanted to apologise for being so impulsive and asked to start over, and we kind of ended up arranging a date for tonight..."
I felt my face get hotter when I said that. Lune looked a bit confused, though.
"You're still wondering about my little breakdown, right?"
He lifted his eyebrows a bit as if to say "little breakdown?" but nodded anyway. I sighed, uncomfortable by the fact that I had to tell him this.
"As you already know, I had an old master called Iruma. At first I thought that he was the best master I would ever have. He was smart and ambitious, and his thirst for power fueled his envy, which was perfect for me. Turns out that I was wrong. Even before I encountered Ultimo for the first time, he would hide in his room and curse at the fact that I wasn't Ultimo. I didn't let that affect me since being a newer douji, I knew I could prove to him that I was better. After being defeated by the bandits, he got worse. He made it his mission to make me feel worthless every day, and even locked me up in a dark room for months as if I was this broken old toy that had no use anymore."
I sighed again, looking down.
"I try not to show it, but it hurt me. Now I'm paranoid of everyone around me. Every kind word is a hidden lie. I'm fairly certain that Milieu is being sincere, but I can't read his heart. I'm scared."
Lune looks at me in silence for a moment, before standing up. He walked towards his closet, smiling at me when I stare at him in confusion.
"Well, you won't find out for sure if you just sit there staring out the window. I understand why you're scared, but Milieu isn't Iruma."
He pulls out some comfortable clothes that might fit me.
"And if he does turn out to be a huge jerk, you can always kick his butt on the Hundred Machine Funeral."
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Yo, long time no see. You can chase me with torches now. No, really. I had actually updated this story on my other sites back in May and apparently dreamed that I had updated here too since I sincerely believed that I had already done that until I decided to check.
So, to apologize, you guys might get a second chapter updated today. I say "might" because updating anything on here via mobile is terrible, it keeps glitching out and half of a chapter for one of my other stories vanished and I had to write it all over again. I was so pissed.
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed, I also hope I got Lune right, and see you next chapter ❤
