A/N: As per usual thanks to all that read, follow, and add this story to your favorites. Thanks a bunch for the reviews as always they are remarkable. Glad some of you liked my seethe reference, you know I had to do it in one of these stories. As many of you have already figured out this is the angst part for Bo and Lauren. It will not be easy and as warned there could be others in between. We already know Lauren has slept and is still sleeping with Evony (least the Morrigan is hot). To reviewer annapaige79 and Rocio190889, I think this is the first story where I do try to make the readers feel bad for Bo. I usually don't do that so it is odd for me to write but different. To reviewer Magineli, you caught the black hole reference which is important. This chapter will show how that emptiness actually helps. Enjoy and remember to let me know what you guys think of this chapter with a review. And thanks again for the wonderful reviews they are very much appreciated.


With the help of Vex, Kenzi finally got Bo into the car. The succubus went into some sort of catatonic state. Her eyes were open but there was no response to anything. The Mesmer moved her arms but she didn't show any reaction. Kenzi snapped her fingers in front of Bo's face and then clapped her hands as hard as she could but still nothing. Without attempting anything else they got her in the car, Kenzi thanked Vex for the information and the help with that she took off towards the Dal. She pulled out her cell phone calling her boyfriend. As soon as Dyson picked up she rambled, "Hi so I am on my way to the Dal and I am going to kinda of need you to come outside and get Bo from the car. She is here but the lights aren't exactly on."

Dyson didn't even want to ask what the two got themselves into now. He cringed just hearing his girlfriend's words. "Do I want to know what happened?"

"That would be a NO. Capital N followed by a big capital O. Less you know the better. Just get her put her on Trickster's couch I need to go see a doctor. A specific blonde pothien doctor actually. See you in a few," she hung up the phone and threw it into her bag. She glanced over at Bo hoping that she would see the lights come back on but no such luck. Kenzi couldn't even begin to imagine how painful it must be for the succubus. To go your whole life thinking you are a killer and can never be loved or find love. To finding out you belong to this whole hidden species of fae and meeting the true love of your life. Fighting for that love and getting it, actually being happy and to have it ripped from you because that love of your life saved your actual life. It tugged at her heart thinking it was like a twisted version of Romeo and Juliet.

Dyson was waiting for her outside when Kenzi peeled into the parking lot. He opened the car door looking Bo up and down before giving his girlfriend a questioning look. "Kenzi," his voice said it all. He was asking what the hell was going on.

Kenzi widened her eyes giving an innocent gaze. "What, who me, nah you crazy dog. Anywho just be her guard dog and when I get back I will give you a special treat. Thanks babe," she kept on the best fake smile she could muster.

"When you get back you owe me an explanation. Trick is going to be wondering what happened to his granddaughter," Dyson scooped Bo out of the seat and kicking the door shut as he went towards the pub.

"Lauren you better know what to do about your fae self," she said to herself as she watched Dyson disappear into the building. She slammed the car in reverse and headed towards the doctor's loft. It was late so Kenzi was counting on her being home and not at the Morrigan's. The whole ride there she was trying to devise a clever way to bring this entire cluster fuck of a mess up. She knew diving right into Bo could set off those triggers of coldness.

When she finally got to the pothien's building she parked and got out of the car. That was when she scanned the parking lot for the blonde's BMW. The goth forgot Lauren's exact spot so she was just going over all the cars till the doctor came up next to her rolling down the driver side window, "Kenzi, what are you doing here? Are you okay?" Lauren sounded concerned knowing these two usually got themselves in bad situations.

"Oh yeah just faetastic. Glad you are just getting back. Do you have some free time that I can just pop up there and talk to you," she was trying to hide the anxiety in her voice. This was a lot on her shoulders and Lauren was a very powerful fae. Knowing that she cared for humans helped but bringing Bo up to someone who could flip hardcore was the part that was eating at the goth.

Lauren nodded in agreement, parked her car and got out going over to Kenzi. "Follow me," Lauren was standing next her pulling out the keys to put in the elevator bringing them up to her loft. When they walked in the pothien threw her keys down, hung up her jacket and went into the kitchen. "Okay so talk to me," she opened up the fridge pulling out a drink.

Kenzi made a face of disgust as she watched the doctor pour green goo into a glass. She even heaved when chunks fell into the cup. "Oh hurl, what the hell is that," she put her hand over her eyes separating two fingers so she could peek out.

The pothien couldn't help but give a soft laugh as she lifted the glass up taking a huge gulp. "Naked Juice Green Machine, it's good for you. Do you want some?" She couldn't help but smile at the continued reaction the goth was having.

"Ewww no it reminds me of things that come out of me not ones that go in." Kenzi turned her head not even wanting to watch her drink the green chunky liquid. "Why is there chunks liquid means no chunks," she gagged when she said chunks for the second time.

"Its spinach and kale sometimes it doesn't get liquefied completely," Lauren was shaking her head as she finished the drink quickly so she could put the glass in the sink. "Is there something that I can offer you to drink?"

Kenzi glanced over her shoulder to answer and when she saw the green drink was no longer visible she turned back around. She sat on a kitchen stool and leaned onto the counter, "What's the good stuff you got doc?"

The pothien got to know the human well enough that she didn't have to ask what drink she was referring to. Lauren opened her liquor cabinet grabbing a bottle of Barrique de Ponciano Porfidio Tequila and placed it in front of the goth with a glass.

Kenzi's eyes lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the tequila, "I lurv you Lauren. This is a 2,000 bottle it is the super good shit." Holding the tequila in her arms like it was fine crystal she cradled it, "Where have you been all my life." She reluctantly put it back on the counter so she could pour herself a nice full cup of it.

The fae doctor was grinning at Kenzi. Only the tiny human would react that way to liquor. "You said the good stuff. I take it this is pretty important for you to come here and not call. I usually get calls from you but never a house visit. Not that I am complaining," Lauren decided to join her pouring a small amount of the tequila for herself. She stayed on the other side of the counter standing there waiting for Kenzi to explain.

As soon as Lauren mentioned why she actually came there Kenzi finished half the glass without stopping. Then she put it down, "I might have found out a little something but first I have to ask you some questions. Just putting it out there so you don't think I'm placing the moves on you. You're hot and all but I don't do women. Unless you're a seethe," she thought about the fae she read about. At first she was going to skip it but she became intrigued.

The pothien raised both eyebrows, "If I was a seethe Kenzi I wouldn't be here. They are myths fae parents would tell children to keep them in line. Now as impressed as I am that you know your fae fairy tales. I highly doubt it is the reason for your visit. I will keep in mind that you aren't hitting on me," she found Kenzi to be entertaining.

Taking another small sip of the liquor she started, "Okay if I was to ask you how you feel about me what would you say? I know this sounds Fifty Shades of Crazy but trust me and go with it," she was hoping she would get liquid courage but it didn't fully kick in yet and she had to start. Kenzi could only imagine how Bo must be at this moment.

Lauren got quiet as she pondered the answer to the question. She tilted her head back for a minute before facing the goth in front of her. "You Kenzi are like no one I have ever met in all my many years. You are fun and crazy in a good way. You risk your life for the people you care about, going against fae with powers and abilities while you are just human. But for a human you are strong and courageous. You can be kind and protective. You are an encyclopedia of movies some of the ones you reference I have never heard of. And now I see that expands into books as well." She smiled at the human before her, "You are completely unique and I am glad that I got to meet you."

The tiny human couldn't help but get misty eyed at the description the pothien gave of her. She was expecting the fae doctor to say nice things but not so many nice things. It was odd how you may think someone perceives you verses how they truly do. Sometimes it was in a much better way then you could have expected and this was one of those times. Kenzi almost forgot why she was there. "Still not going to sleep with you doc," Kenzi teased as she broke the silence making them both break out in smiles. "What about Dyson, how do you feel about him," she was emphasizing the word feel.

This brought an instant smirk to the blonde's face. "Dyson, wow, we go way back. I have known him for over 500 years it's a long time to know someone." Lauren put her hands on the counter, tapping her fingers as she was gazing up from the corner of her eye. "Hmmm, how do I feel about Dyson? He can be short-tempered, egotistical, idiotic and compulsive. He is also kind, noble, strong, smart and loyal. Once you break through that rough outer shell he can be caring and even sweet." She stopped tapping her fingers looking back at the human in front of her. Lauren had no idea why she was asking these questions but assumed there was a reason behind them. When it came to the unaligned succubus and her human sidekick everything was done for a reason no matter how insane it may appear.

"I agree with you on that he can be a total pain in the ass." She was trying to take small sips of the tequila because as it turned out the pricier stuff is stronger. Kenzi didn't want to get completely wasted before taking this conversation where she needed it to go. "Just a couple more and I will get to the point. I am not One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest even if it seems that way right now. Hale, how do you feel about the siren," she had a point but had to get through this first.

Lauren rubbed her forehead before meeting Kenzi's eye once again. The pothien really had no idea where this was going. "Hale is a great guy. He is a ladies man not judging just observing. I think he also is loyal to his friends. I find what he did to be quite amazing. To break away from his family to prove he can do it all on his own shows a lot of his character. He is independent and strong willed. Even tempered and decisive. He is truly a great detective and keeps Dyson in check when that wolf temper wants to break through. Hale will follow his friends through fire even if he thinks they are out of their minds. People are lucky to have friends like that siren, who I have also known for a very long time."

"Okay a couple more and I promise I will get to the point of all this. Just need your fae-self's attention for a tiny bit more," the goth was feeling the effects of the tequila. Kenzi had a nice buzz going on and normally would be downing glasses full of the good stuff. But since her best friend's happiness depended on this she just nursed the other half of the glass. "What about Trickster, how would you say you…"

Lauren cut Kenzi off smiling as she did, "Let me guess how do I feel about Trick?" Kenzi gave her the finger, smiled, nodded and sipped her alcohol. The pothien grinned at her mannerism. "Trick is the Blood King. He has my respect on many levels. He is very old and yet continues to surprise me with his willingness to accept change. Most fae wouldn't ever even glance at a human yet a fae as old as Trick not only started to accept you but I think he considers you part of his family. I have more respect for Trick then I do for majority of the light fae. I like to think of all of them as my family as well. The Blood King has done a lot for the fae species. He is a good man that made a few poor decisions. Overall Trick is a great guy." The pothien was wondering who was next.

Kenzi went from being relaxed to slightly frigid. This was the part she wasn't too excited about and her more serious demeanor showed it. "What about Bo," she almost ducked when she said it waiting for the anger or wrath of the pothien to kick in.

And there it is, the point to all this, I should have known. She wasn't mad at Kenzi after all she was Bo's best friend. She was probably curious as to where the two stood but she told the succubus many times now she would tell Kenzi. Thinking of how she felt though was difficult. She broke her relaxed posture as her thoughts deepened. Her forehead wrinkled as she was concentrating deeply. "Nothing," she answered honestly.

"Nothing," the goth repeated, "Doesn't that seem odd to you that you can tell me how you feel about myself, Hale, Dyson and Trick. But when I ask about Bo it's just nothing. No feeling at all is strange. You seem to dislike her but instead of using words that describe feelings of anger you feel nothing." She was thankful that she sobered up as soon as it came down to having to talk about the succubus.

Lauren took what she said into consideration before responding. "Actually, yes, now that I think about it that does seem odd." The doctor took a rather large sip of the tequila herself as she continued to think about that. It made no sense to not have any words to describe the succubus. Not annoying, irritating, stubborn, irrational, sexy, beautiful, sweet, loyal, or caring. No none of those words came to mind when it came to Bo. There was no words, no feeling and no emotion. That black hole feeling came over her again like it does when she sees the brunette.

"Promise you won't get all fae-crazy and compel me to walk into traffic," Kenzi faced many dangers with Bo but for seem reason right now was terrifying. When Lauren hesitantly agreed the goth went on, "Evony asked Bo for a favor and she told the Morrigan to kiss her ass. Then Vex came to her and made Bo an offer she couldn't refuse. I will be honest with you HotPants, I never heard you tell Bo you love her but I believe that you did." When Lauren started to roll her eyes the petite human jumped off the chair and went over to her. She was standing beside her so the pothien could see the truth in the human's eyes. "I believe what I saw Lauren. I saw you get scared when she would get herself all kinds of injured. I would see the panic when she was on death's door more times than we would like. I saw the way you would gaze at her. That was love. What Vex told us made everything make sense."

The pothien wanted to kill the dark fae leader and the Mesmer for going to Bo. She couldn't understand why either would do that considering Bo knew her dirty little secret. It was also extremely dangerous for the human to be near either one of the dark fae. "What did Vex say," Lauren was definitely feeling anger now.

"He told us that Evony made you compel yourself to forget all your feelings for Bo. That's why when I asked you about everyone else you were able to think about how you felt and answer honestly. But when it comes to Bo bo you can't because there is no feeling at all. Like Double O Zero in the emo department," Kenzi was using the softest voice she could. She felt for the two of them in this shituation. Bo knows everything and it pains her to see the love of her life be so cold to her. At the same time you can't blame Lauren because she has no clue what she felt.

"No way, that is impossible. It would have to be my voice. We need to have a chat with that little chatty Mesmer. I need to know what the Morrigan did because one thing I can say is that I do feel nothing when it comes to Bo. You are right it is similar to what compulsion can do," Lauren was pissed but keeping it together. She didn't want to scare Kenzi.

"Let's say then he is telling the truth and Evony did find a way to do this, how do you undo it," Kenzi knew the only person who would know the answer to that was the pothien.

"You can't undo whatever it was that you were compelled to do. Once I compel you it is done. That is why when I told Dyson to sing to you he did, or why when I told Aifie to lose to Bo she did not even trying to fight for her own life." Watching Kenzi try to make sense of all this she decided to try explaining better. "You are good on computers. Picture having all this information stored on your computer and it crashes. You take it to be repaired and the technician tells you it is done that you need a new motherboard. Once you get it all the old files are gone you only have the new ones now with no way to get the original stuff back because you didn't have it backed up."

Kenzi looked horrified. "Who doesn't back up their computer?" Then it hit her what Lauren was actually saying, "Crap balls, oh that is bad so so bad." The goth started to pace back and forth in the kitchen while replaying this in her head. She slapped her hands together like she had the answer, "What if you compel yourself to have feelings for Bo?"

This time it was the pothien who looked horrified. She straightened up as she got tense, "NO, NO, NO that is an absolutely huge NO. Never ever do that because you cannot fight compulsion so even if you were to make anyone feel for someone else they would do so at any cost. Even if that person did something horrifying you would do all you could to help and protect them. And if you felt someone else was taking their attention away you can kill someone. If that person decides to leave you then you will not let them." Lauren stopped while she thought of movie examples, "It would be like Fatal Attraction meets Misery. Not a good thing."

The petite human had her mouth wide open and her eyes bugged out. "Yeah so that is probably a bad idea. Guess that is why the Genie said no to the love option." Of course she was referring to Aladdin.

Lauren didn't get that it was the Disney movie. "Don't mess with Genie's they are liars and manipulators. They always have their own agenda in mind."

Kenzi realized so many things she thought was fairy tale were true and would have to watch what she said. She pointed at Lauren while reaching over for her drink, "Good to know making a mental note, no Genie's. Okay so I think I can prove that you had to compel yourself." Kenzi was moving stuff around in her bag trying to locate her cell. When she finally found it she pulled it out with a huge grin like she accomplished something huge. "Okay so when you compel someone to do something and that compulsion kicks in for like a nano second they get this weird blank look that glazes over their eyes. Like they got rebooted." She lifted up her cell clicking on the camcorder, "Check this out. How do you feel about Bo?" Kenzi recorded the glaze that went over Lauren for only a fraction of a second but it was undeniable there.

After the pothien answered nothing once more Kenzi played back the video for her. Lauren watched and then re-watched the video at least four times. "That is without a doubt compulsion," the anger was dripping from her voice. She still felt nothing when it came to Bo but to know there was a possibility that she fell in love and it was taken from her was almost causing her to tremble with rage. She wanted answers on how the hell Evony was able to do this to her. That part still didn't add up to her but she was determined to get to the bottom of it. She wanted to feel bad for Bo to reach out to her but Lauren literally didn't have the ability to do that. The fae doctor couldn't pick up the phone and call her because she didn't know what to say.

"Faetastic I was right so now what do we do?" Kenzi was elated that she got through to the pothien. Half the battle was fought even though it didn't return the fae doctor's feelings she was aware that something had to be erased from her.

"Now Kenzi you go back to Bo while I figure this out. Tell her she is lucky to have you in her life," she was on a mission.

The goth rocked back on her feet, "About that, Bo kind of isn't moving or talking at the moment."

The pothien stopped in her tracks fearing what the succubus could have done now. "What do you mean she isn't moving? I could still help her heal."

"Not really a physical thing. When Vex made his confession she went to her knees and then was about to fall over till I caught her. He might have also mentioned how it was irreversible. Vex and I tried to talk to her but she didn't respond. Her eyes are open she is breathing but nothing. We tried clapping, snapping, Vex did his Mesmer thing but still nada. So at the moment my boyfriend is being her bodyguard and canine companion." At this point Kenzi figured might as well let it all out.

The fae doctor's face remained neutral as Kenzi spoke. The part of her that was a doctor was listening to the symptoms. "She went into a shocked state. It wasn't what she was expecting to hear. Call her," Lauren waited next to Kenzi as she pulled out her phone calling Dyson. She asked the shifter to put the phone next to Bo. The goth tried talking to her but still got nothing she glanced up at Lauren shrugging letting her know nothing was on the other end. Lauren took the phone from her, "Bo it's me, I heard what happened I know that Evony made me compel myself. I am getting answers." This was so hard she wanted to feel sorry for causing this pain but literally had no ability to. She was however beyond pissed that the Morrigan betrayed her in such a way.

On the other end of the phone Bo whispered out, "Lauren."

It caught the pothien's attention, "Yeah Bo it's me. I am with Kenzi I will find out what happened, I promise." She handed the phone back to Kenzi knowing the potential she had to cause the succubus more pain. "You should go," Lauren said to her when she hung up the phone.

"I am going to have to say no to that. Bo is my best friend you have no feelings for her and I want to confront Vex with you. I got a pothien to protect me, all is good in Kenziland," she gave two thumbs up to the blonde fae. There was no way she wasn't seeing this all the way through.

Lauren knew better than to try to argue with the human. "Wait here," she called back as she went into her bedroom. "I think it is safe to assume that Bo told you about my secret," she was talking as she got changed.

Now that the hard part was over Kenzi had no problems drinking the rest of the tequila filling more into the glass. "Yeah not going to pretend to lie on that. Don't worry I'm a better secret keeper then Peter Pettigrew," she answered in between sips spitting the tequila out when the doctor remerged. "Who the hell are you and what did you do with Lauren." The goth was wide eyed looking the pothien up and down.

When the pothien came back into the room she was wearing skin tight black leather pants, open toed high heels, and a red shirt that was skin tight by the waist and dipped low enough to leave little to the imagination. She also had blue eyes and black hair. Lauren gave a mysterious grin, "I am going to Carpe Noctem and I am the head doctor of the light fae medical facility. You know I can't just walk in there looking like me. So this is my undercover outfit, complete with wig and blue contacts," She pointed to the hair and eyes.

"You look like a kick ass super sexy superhero. And very bangable." She lifted up the tequila, "What the hell is in here. Are we going to leave out the batcave?" She was still trying to take in Lauren's appearance. "It's like you came out of there Ultraviolet. Not a great movie but some awesome fighting moves."

The doctor took her down to the underground garage. She hit the alarm on a car that beeped and Kenzi followed the sound. "Oh my God, you have an Aston Martin Vanquish Volante. I seriously just feel in love with you and possibly could need a change of underpants." The petite human fell onto the front of the car spreading her arms wide over it. "Mama loves you."

Lauren couldn't help but laugh at Kenzi's reaction. "You going to get in the car or should I treat you like an insect that hit the windshield." The goth slid off of the top of the car and got in. "Let's see exactly what Evony had me do to myself. You get to be best friend of the year and maybe I can fix being the worst girlfriend ever. Oh and for tonight don't call me Lauren when I am dressed like this I go by Lola."

Kenzi made a face that showed Lauren she didn't love the name, "Out of any name you can have Lola? Really Lola?"

The doctor gave a wicked grin, "Silly girl don't you know whatever Lola wants, Lola gets." She turned the key, listened to the engine purr to life and took off to Carpe Noctem.