Chapter 5

Allie starred out the window as Bea drove to her apartment Allie was quite lost in her thoughts I wish Bea didn't have to witness that I don't even know the woman and here she is saving me trying to take care of me offering me a place to sleep tonight

"We are here" Bea said pulling Allie out of her thoughts

Allie looked out to see an apartment building she then got out and followed Bea inside

"Nice place" Allie said looking around

"Thanks I just moved in a few weeks ago want to take a shower than I can make you something to eat"

"Yeah that would be great"

Bea led Allie to the bathroom then grabbed a towel and a change of clothes

"Ok you can use my shower there is everything you need in there and an extra toothbrush in the drawer if you need it and here is a change of clothes do you need anything else"

"No thanks"

"Ok I'll be in the kitchen" Bea left

She headed to the kitchen what am I doing I should of just took her to the shelter they have beds and food there why did I feel the need to bring her here tonight I guess I just felt worried about her I was so angry when I saw that man with her who could hurt her like that why do I care so much I don't even know her sure we were neighbors at one point but that was years ago we aren't the same people we both grew up she doesn't know me I don't know her we are pretty much strangers to each other

"What's on your mind" Allie asked

"Nothing" Bea lied not knowing what to say

"I've been trying to get your attention for like 5 minutes now" Allie said noticing the tension building

"Oh sorry" Bea looked over Allie she noticed her lip was split and she had a cut on her eyebrow she also had a black eye

"Let me clean your cut sit down" Bea said

"Your kind of bossy you know that" Allie said trying to break the tension

"What no I'm not bossy"

"Yes you are" Allie argued back

"No"

"Whatever you say"

"Now can you sit down" Bea said

"See bossy" Allie said sitting down

"Let me clean these" Bea said shaking her head smiling at the younger woman

"I'm fine really you don't have to"

"Oh shush I'm not taking no for an answer"

"Your pretty stubborn to" Allie laughed

Bea began cleaning the cut above her eyebrow as she felt Allies eyes on her it made her feel nervous for some reason Beas hand moved to clean Allies lip her eyes looking up meeting Allies eyes they looked cloudy her pupils still big but not as big as the first night she saw her Bea frowned slightly her hand completely stopped moving the thought of drugs drove her crazy all she could think of was her ex-husband Harry the way he was and his drug problem she helped get him clean when they were younger a year after they were married she did love him at one point a few years after that he got back into them

"You ok Bea" Allie asked

"Yeah sorry I was just thinking"

"About what can I ask you seemed really lost" Allie asked concerned

"drugs and other things"

"Oh I see" Allie said not knowing how to respond

"So did you know that guy" Bea said without thinking about her question

"He used to be a client"

"A client" bea asked

"Yeah I'm sure Franky told you what I do for a living" Allie said slightly embarrassed

"Oh yeah actually she did mention it"

"Yeah well I'm not doing it anymore that's why he was mad"

"That's good then not that he was mad but its good you aren't doing it anymore"

"I'm trying to get myself together now I just have to get off of the gear"

"There all done Are you hungry" Bea asked

"Yeah I am starving"

"Let me make you something want a grilled cheese I don't have much I need to go shopping"

"Sure that would be great"

Allie watched as Bea went and made the sandwich she watched Bea move around the kitchen a few minutes later and Bea placed a plate in front of her

"Thank you" Allie said as she started eating

"Here is some water"

"This is good"

"Good I'm glad you like my gourmet cooking" bea joked making allie laugh

Allie finished her food so Bea grabbed the plate and washed it

"Ok you can stay in my spare room tonight" Bea led her to the room

"Can I get you anything else" bea asked

"No thank you"

"Ok than goodnight I'll see you in the morning" Bea started walking out the room

"Hey Bea wait"

"Yeah" Bea stopped walking and turned to face Allie

"I want to thank you for everything you really didn't have to do any of this for me no one would of but you did I really appreciate it" Allie looked down

"Hey it was no problem at all" Bea walked closer she pulled her head up slightly so she was looking at her

"If you ever need help you can come to me Allie"

Allie pulled Bea into a warm embrace it lasted awhile before she pulled away

"Goodnight Bea"

"Goodnight" with that Bea walked to her room and got in bed her mind on Allie and why was she so willing to help the woman

Bea woke up to a door closing she got out of bed to see what it was she walked into the other room and noticed the bathroom door was closed she heard some commotion inside figuring it was allie she decided to check on her

"Allie are you in there" Bea knocked but no response

"You alright in there" bea heard mumbling but couldn't understand it

"I'm coming in ok" Bea tested the doorknob to her surprise it was unlocked she opened it up and saw Allie face in the toilet puking

"Bea get out" Allie said

Bea walked over to Allie she reached and pulled her hair out of her face while allie got sick when Allie was finished she leaned back and sat on the floor Bea got up and grabbed a hand towel and wet it she then went and sat next to Allie she wiped her face with the towel Allie leaned her head on Beas shoulder still feeling sick

"Bea I don't want you seeing me like this I should go" she tried to stand but Bea stopped her

"No just stay please" bea said knowing if allie left she would just worry about the blonde

"I'm so sorry Bea" Allie whispered feeling very vulnerable tears in her eyes

"Why are you sorry"

"For this I'm sick I haven't had my drugs since last night and I'm a mess because of that I'm nothing but an addict that needs to get clean I'm such a screw up I have to sell myself for money just to supply my habit I hate my job I hate it I'm just a junkie street whore you shouldn't involve yourself with someone like me I'm worthless" Allie said crying

"Hey calm down It's going to be ok Allie I'm here for you I'll help you through this we will get you off the drugs and a new job to you are worth so much more than you think you are" Bea said pulling Allie into a hug stroking Allies hair while she cried bea hating seeing the blonde like this

"Why"

"Why what"

"Why are you willing to help me through this no one helps me my own family kicked me out" Allie said still crying slightly

"I know what it's like to need help and not get it or have no one to go to it really helps when you find one person there for you and I know I want to be here for you I know we don't really know each other Allie but I feel I need to be here for you I want to be here for you there is just something about you" Bea said now wasn't the time to tell Allie who she was it's probably best to start over again and get to know each other

"you are kind bea"

"Come on let's get you to bed" Bea put Allie back in bed she turned off the light

"Bea I don't want to do drugs anymore I need help I need to quit I haven't taken anything I don't have any drugs I'm already sick I might as well start getting clean" Allie said in a whisper but sounding serious

"If you are serious Allie we can do it like I said before I'm here for you we can get you through this we can do it together"

"are you sure if won't be pretty or easy I've done it before I don't want this to ruin any chance for a friendship between us"

"I got my ex-husband clean before I know it's not easy or pretty and as for a friendship we will talk about that later one thing at a time" allie nodded

"Can you stay with me tonight Bea" Allie just needed some kind of comfort she has felt comfortable around Bea since they met there is something so calming about her

"Yeah sure" Bea was starting to find it hard to say no to this woman bea crawled in bed next to her Allie rested her head on Beas shoulder Bea surprisingly didn't mind it at all it's been awhile since she slept in the same bed as someone she used to hate sharing a bed with her ex-husband but this was comfortable with Allie right now Bea realized Allie was asleep but it wouldn't be long until she was up puking again Bea knew the withdraw process wouldn't easy the next few days will be the hardest then it will be up to allie if she goes back to drugs or if she is strong enough to say no to them Bea slowly closed her eyes trying to get some rest before Allie got up again