Trapped
Disclaimer: I do not own supergirl.
AN: okay because of the popularity of this story and some plotting with my good friend Terrance Sigma I decided to write a second chapter. Possibly a third if I get free time so onward.
Chapter 2
It was a while after Carter went to bed that Cat finally sat Kara down. The young alien had spent the time since she had woken up eating, playing with Carter, and cleaning the apartment. "That's enough. We need to talk," Cat said and saw the look on Kara's face. "Don't give me that look. If you didn't want to talk you'd have flown home already."
Kara sat down. "I don't want to be alone," Kara admitted as she sat down. "But I don't want to have this conversation either."
"We need to talk about this," Cat said.
"I know. I'm fired," Kara said laying her head against the couch. "I'll pack up my desk tomorrow."
"Your not fired," Cat said making Kara look at her.
'But last time…" Kara said confused.
"I might have gone too overboard last time. We will have to work something out so you're freer to go. Ever think about being a reporter like your cousin or a photographer. Its not that hard and its better pay. I can train you. You can get the inside scoop to everything Supergirl related," Cat said noticing Kara look at her like she was insane. "We'll discuss this later. What I really want to talk about is some of the things you said to me when you thought I was your mother."
"Oh," Kara said. "I guess you want the inside scoop on the phantom zone, me being older than Kal-El, life on Krpyton. Am I close?"
"No, well yes. I do want to know all that eventually. Even if it's off the record," Cat said her reporter instincts to want to know everything coming into play. "But I wanted to talk about is your wish to die."
"I'm not suicidal," Kara said
"I don't belong here. I grew up on Krpyton. I should have died on Krpyton," Cat quoted. "That sounds like a wish to die to me."
"There's a difference between seeking death and accepting death. In that moment when I thought I was as good as gone I accepted it," Kara said. "But I would never try to kill myself even if I feel I don't belong here."
"And why would you say that?" Cat asked. "Why don't you feel you belong?"
"You wouldn't understand," Kara said standing up.
"Try me," Cat said getting up. "I want to help you but I can't unless you talk."
Kara stared out the window. "I didn't grow up here. Not on this planet. I was 13 when I came here. 13 years in a civilization that was far more advance than here," Kara said. "No matter how hard I try I just never seem to fit in and there's no one to really share it with. No one that doesn't want me dead at least. There's no one on this Earth who knows Krpyton."
"What about your cousin?" Cat asked.
'He was a baby when he was sent here. Raised on Earth by humans his entire life," Kara said. "He's the closest thing I have to what I lost but his human in all ways but DNA. Then there was Aunt Astra, but…." Cat nodded knowing. "And I try. I try to fit in. I try to be a normal human, but it never seems to work. I just don't see the world the way you see it." Kara turned around to see Cat's face. "And you don't understand."
"I can't imagine how it must be for you, but I've seen you. You always seemed human to me," Cat said.
"And sometimes I can almost feel it," Kara said. "The reason I didn't use my powers for so long was to fit in and try to be human. Even when I was at my most human though there was a smell or sight or sound that would bring me back. Back to a memory. A world long gone and I'd continue to try and hid. Not to be sad. Not to cry, but something snapped in me. I needed to use my power. Needed to accept who I was and always will be. Kara Sor-El. And for a while accepting who I was. Becoming Supergirl was enough to make me feel good. Maybe my home was gone but I was protecting my new home. I had great friends and family and then everything just went south."
"Let me guess. What happened with your aunt and sister? Also whatever going on with the idiot duo," Cat stated and Kara nodded.
"James and Winn are so mad at me for no reason. Winn knew it was dangerous being on Supergirl team. I guess he didn't realize how much until a hand was coming out of a computer and choking him." Cat raised an eyebrow at that but said nothing. "And James is mad at me because I won't let him tell Lucy my secret."
"You can do better then them," Cat said having seen the romance drama in the office and truthfully believed Kara could find someone better.
"And then my sister and Hank. I just don't know how to work with them anymore," Kara said. "All said and done though I might not know where I belong anymore but I don't want to die. I will continue being Supergirl. Continue with my life. Like I said there's a difference between accepting death and seeking death."
"Maybe, but accepting death is the first step to dying. You have to fight for life no matter how hopeless it seems," Cat said. "And you're wrong. You said no one would care when you died. No one but your cousin but I can name two people in this apartment who would be upset if you died. One you just agreed to be a big sister to."
Kara looked at Cat. "You'd miss me? You tried to replace me while I was still working for you."
"Overreaction," Cat said. "Your shape shifter was a very bad impersonator." Kara tried to hide a laugh. "But you are the best assistance I ever had and there's a reason why I always give you that advice."
"You mean that scarily accurate advice that basically mentored me as I became Supergirl?" Kara asked.
Cat smiled. "I'm good," Cat said. "But yes that advice. It wasn't just because you were upset. It was because I like you. Since the moment you became my longest running assistance I knew there was something special about you. I knew you could do great things. I didn't realize how great. I've been trying to mentor you to your potential for a long time and now I'm going to continue. You will always have a place here with Carter and me. If you're ever feeling lonely or like you don't belong or you miss your home come here. Come to me. Don't go from accepting death to looking for it. I don't want your body returned to Rao anytime soon."
Kara smiled and the two sat there in silent for a while. 'I guess I should get going," Kara said.
"No," Cat said surprising Kara. "You nearly died and said yourself you don't want to be alone. You're staying here tonight. You can have breakfast with us in the morning and we can go to work together tomorrow. No arguing with me."
'Yes Ms. Grant," Kara said with a smile
AN: okay I hope you enjoyed this mother/daughter moment between Cat/Kara. I think there will be a chapter three to this when I get some free time.
