When the three of us were all together. That was what I would have chosen as the best part of my life before I met my puddin. Everything seemed kinda perfect for a while in that black and white world. A little off still but better than it had ever been and more than I ever asked for. What you would label as "depression" still hit me at times but I always felt better when I got to see them. It was nice having friends. Or at least that's what I thought.

It was our last year there that things started to get weird. Jonathan and Pamela started to hang out together more often, you know without me. At first I thought it was nothing but when it became daily I knew something was up. I thought they were dating, maybe they were I don't know. I knew Red had liked him from the start, always blushing whenever he said anything to her and as blunt and rude as Jonathan was I knew he always had a soft spot for her. Or grew one at least, I'm pretty sure he was annoyed we had another member in our study group at first but he warmed up to her way quicker than he did with me.

Anyways what I'm trying to say is I always knew they sort of like each other and I wouldn't have cared if they were dating but they never said anything to me. It made me feel... lonely. I hated that feeling more than anything in the world.

I tried to focus on school more but for some reason I started seeing them less and less everyday until they stopped showing up completely. I knew Red was depressed the last time I saw her, something about one of her favorite parks being torn out by the Wayne company. I felt bad, you know because I know how much plants and stuff meant to her, but I didn't really know what to do to help. I mean it's not like the plants could just get up and walk away to save themselves but I don't think that was what she wanted to hear from me. I tried to talk to that Bruce guy but he was a jerk. Said he'd look into it but I could tell he didn't care. He was always strutting around the school with girls falling all over him but me and Red never fell for stupid stuff like that.

I didn't really care that he was a jerk to me but being a jerk to Red when she tried to talk to him about that park? It made me hate him. Nobody ever made Red cry, I mean nobody, nobody was ever mean to her. I think that was around the last time I saw her. It kinda made me think she was just too depressed to come to school and maybe Jonathan was comforting her. Maybe they were dating or something. I didn't really care I just wanted to know because after that they sort of just disappeared.