CHAPTER 10
LOVE AND HATE
It had been three months since she left. She tried so hard to forget about Clarke but she always fail.
She is madly in love with Clarke that's why she set her free. She repeatedly tells herself this. She wishes for Clarke's happiness even if it's not with her. She hopes that Clarke would find her true love that would never betray her unlike what she did.
She tried to avoid thinking about Clarke.
Her blue eyes…
Her shiny blond hair…
Her smile…
Her everything…
Obviously she fails each time.
"Heda."
She was brought back to reality upon hearing Aden's voice. She turned to look at him. "Yes Aden?"
"There's a beautiful woman outside. Do you know her?" Aden asked, looking outside.
Lexa furrowed her eyebrows and followed Aden's line of vision. Her breath was caught in her throat as she saw Clarke outside the gym.
The blonde was wearing a nice blue dress that fits perfectly showing her curves. Lexa's mind went overdrive as Clarke slowly walked towards her. Their eyes met and Lexa was speechless.
Clarke was a foot away from Lexa when she said, "Can we talk in private?" Her raspy voice made Lexa swallowed hard.
She nods. Then she put a distance from Clarke as she said, "Listen natblida. Class is over. I'll see you all tomorrow." She said in an authoritative voice. It was a surprise that she managed to even talk. She was just overwhelmed at Clarke's sudden appearance.
"Yes, Heda. See you tomorrow." The kids replied in unison as they gather their things.
"Aden, can you close the door when you leave?" Lexa asked.
"Yes Heda." Aden nods.
As soon as they were alone, Clarke cleared her throat. "You were teaching them."
"Yes." Lexa looked at Clarke. The intensity of their eyes met once again. "I teach them how to use self defense. Lincoln owns this gym. We have a lot of classes and I happened to teach one of the classes here."
Clarke nods.
Silence enveloped them once again for a few seconds.
Lexa took a deep breath. Her heart was beating fast. "What are you doing here, Clarke? I thought you don't want to see me. I respected your wishes to not see me again-"
Clarke's eyes were on fire as she interrupted Lexa, "My wishes? My wishes Lexa?! Are you even hearing yourself?!" Clarke replied incredulously. She took a step towards Lexa and on instinct Lexa backed away. Their stare intensifies.
"You never tried harder, Lexa. You never tried!" Clarke raised her voice. Her eyes became blurry as she tried to control her tears from falling down.
Lexa's back was now against the wall as Clarke continued to step towards her.
"Clarke, I didn't mean to-"
Clarke's jaw clenched before she managed to cup the back of Lexa's neck and kiss her angrily.
Lexa was shock at first but when she realized what was happening, she responded with equal intensity.
It had been so long since they kissed. It felt like Lexa's personal water was Clarke in a dessert. She was thirsty and dying and then Clarke is her savior.
Their teeth were clashing against each other. Their lips were bruising each other. They were kissing hungrily and when Lexa heard Clarke's audible moan, she cupped the blonde's ass and lifted her making Clarke moaned harder.
The breathing became difficult for the both of them so as soon as they separated from each other, Lexa's lips were on Clarke's neck. She walked towards the table at the corner and made Clarke sit on top of it. Clarke's bare legs are still around Lexa's hips as they kissed each other once again.
"I want you, Lexa." Clarke mumbled between kisses.
Lexa tried to pull away. "We need to talk. I want to explain."
Clarke catches Lexa's lips before she pulls away completely. "Talk later. Fuck now." She replied. She stuck her tongue out and licked Lexa's swollen lips.
"Oh god, Clarke…" Lexa moaned. She was inevitably turned on by Clarke's willingness that she lifted Clarke's dress and cupped Clarke's center. The blonde's panties were superbly wet that made Lexa groaned in anticipation.
Clarke let out a very loud moan when she felt Lexa's fingers inside her panties. She trembled as Lexa swiped her wet center.
She was about to enter Clarke with her long fingers when a knock on the door of the gym made Lexa stopped her movements.
"Heda! Can I come in? I forgot something inside."
Clarke grabbed her by the shoulders, as she was about to pull away. "Don't you dare." She hissed.
"Don't come inside, Aden." She said and almost winced at her choice of words. Her fingers are still at the entrance of Clarke's hole.
"Oh okay, Heda. But can you just bring my book at my house later?" Aden answered.
"Yes! I will. Later, Aden." She replied.
"Okay Heda."
When they both are sure that Aden left, Lexa entered Clarke without warning that made the blonde gasped for air.
"That was close. We were almost caught-"
Clarke kissed Lexa to make her shut up which Lexa respond willingly. "Talk later." Clarke mumbled.
Lexa continued to move her long fingers inside Clarke and everytime she hits the spot, Clarke whimpered.
"Faster Lexa. I'm close."
Lexa followed her request as she pumped her fingers harder and faster inside Clarke and within seconds, the blonde saw stars as she reached her mind-blowing orgasm.
Clarke was breathing rapidly as Lexa withdrew her fingers. The blonde watched Lexa clean her fingers with her mouth and before she knew it she was turned on again.
Eager to return the favor, she tried to untie Lexa's pants but the brunette stopped her. "We really need to talk, Clarke."
Clarke understood. Lexa helped her to stand and then she fixed herself.
After a few seconds, they were again staring at each other but this time, their lips were both swollen and face flushed red.
"I'm so sorry-"
"Stop apologizing Lexa. I want to know why you never tried to face me after all of what happened." Clarke said.
Lexa shook her head. "I was a coward. I admit. I was really scared."
"What are you afraid of?" Clarke asked.
Lexa took Clarke's hand, her eyes never leaving Clarke's. "I thought I don't deserve you. I thought you're better off without me. I thought you would never forgive me. You told me you never want to see me again and I don't want to push you anymore. I just want you to be safe and happy Clarke." Lexa breathed hard, "I'm in love with you Clarke Griffin and I want to give you all the time in the world to forgive me and maybe someday we could start all over again."
Clarke tried to control her tears but to no avail, failed. "Why did you leave before we could meet if you felt that about me?"
"Anya said something about giving you closure. Us, a closure. And I couldn't handle that. I don't want to give you a closure because I just want to give you time. I'm so sorry for letting you through this." Lexa shook her head, "I want you to be happy and if I were to be honest with myself, I wanted to asked for a second chance, for you to trust me again. No matter how long it takes."
"Why didn't you ask?" Clarke asked.
"Because I think I don't deserve you. The wounds are still fresh and I just want them to heal. Time will heal." Lexa said.
Clarke was silent for a while and it made Lexa worry.
She was about to withdraw her hand from Clarke's hands when the blonde mumbled something. "You're an idiot."
"What?" Lexa asked, dumbfounded.
Clarke breathed, "I said you're an idiot."
"Oh."
"I was angry at first that's why I told you I never want to see you again but I didn't mean any of that. I was angry and scared, Lexa. You have to understand that."
Lexa nodded.
"But you should have trusted me everything especially about Anya being captured in exchange for me. I could have helped you. And you should have trusted me when I said I'm in love with you, Lexa. That no matter how angry I am with you, I still love you. You shouldn't have left me but it doesn't matter anymore because I'm here now. And I forgive you. And you saved me and my mom's life. Atleast I owe you that." Clarke said that made Lexa's heart soar.
"You don't owe me anything, love." Lexa leaned forward as she cupped Clarke's cheeks.
"Love?" Clarke smiled.
"You don't like it?"
Clarke grinned lovingly, "I love it."
Lexa smiled.
"Can you kiss me now?" Clarke asked.
"I always respect your wishes Clarke." Lexa said, smiling as she captured Clarke's lips with her own.
"I love you, Lexa." Clarke whispered between kisses.
"I love you too, Clarke."
In this world, there will always be that one person, who will always be meant for you. No matter the circumstances are, both of you belonged with each other.
Just like Clarke and Lexa.
In every universe, they will always find their way with each other.
THE END
THANKS FOR READING MY CLEXA BODYGUARD AU STORY.
I Promise that I wont abandon the clexa fandom and there will be another Clexa story that I'll be writing.
So stay tuned for my next Clexa fanfic. :)
This is Rainezeik signing off...
